angelbunny
Greenlighter
I've been lurking here ever since my first illicit experience, that I enjoyed.
I grew up around pot use and a good number of my friends smoke. I never was really turned on by drugs through weed. Every time I used it I just kinda felt sleepy or stupid (like a grin that wouldn't go away). Alcohol was my drug of choice for a number of years and I never had the curiosity of trying different substances even when it has been around me for so long. Between the trips to burning man, and the friends who love to use different substances, it never really interested me. Until one weekend when a close friend of mine offered me shrooms.
I had been going to those particular private parties for years. I trusted the host, knew the environment, and had good long running friends there, so I said yes. I had read erowid before so I knew what I was getting into. However, I was a bit worried. From past childhood abuse and years of therapy I was worried that my paranoia might take over and the last thing I needed was 6 hours of huddling in a corner freaking the fuck out.
Instead, I had the time of my life. I was able to confront daemons that had only been bothering me on a subconscious level. I bonded closer then I had ever expected to with my friends. It was like I was a stripped screw. I had been screwed in to tight and getting me out of whatever I was screwed into was nearly impossible. After years of trying to relax and loosen myself up to just 'life', I had made more progress in a couple of hours on a psychedelic then I had in a couple of years.
Not only that but I had an excellent time with my friends, became more spiritual, and the after glow was amazing. Months after taking the shrooms, even today I feel more relaxed and at piece with myself.
I do not regret trying shrooms so late in life (i'm only 23). I don't regret any of it. My entire world view has been opened a bit and I'm grateful for the experience.
I grew up around pot use and a good number of my friends smoke. I never was really turned on by drugs through weed. Every time I used it I just kinda felt sleepy or stupid (like a grin that wouldn't go away). Alcohol was my drug of choice for a number of years and I never had the curiosity of trying different substances even when it has been around me for so long. Between the trips to burning man, and the friends who love to use different substances, it never really interested me. Until one weekend when a close friend of mine offered me shrooms.
I had been going to those particular private parties for years. I trusted the host, knew the environment, and had good long running friends there, so I said yes. I had read erowid before so I knew what I was getting into. However, I was a bit worried. From past childhood abuse and years of therapy I was worried that my paranoia might take over and the last thing I needed was 6 hours of huddling in a corner freaking the fuck out.
Instead, I had the time of my life. I was able to confront daemons that had only been bothering me on a subconscious level. I bonded closer then I had ever expected to with my friends. It was like I was a stripped screw. I had been screwed in to tight and getting me out of whatever I was screwed into was nearly impossible. After years of trying to relax and loosen myself up to just 'life', I had made more progress in a couple of hours on a psychedelic then I had in a couple of years.
Not only that but I had an excellent time with my friends, became more spiritual, and the after glow was amazing. Months after taking the shrooms, even today I feel more relaxed and at piece with myself.
I do not regret trying shrooms so late in life (i'm only 23). I don't regret any of it. My entire world view has been opened a bit and I'm grateful for the experience.
