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lilliannx2

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im lillian . i like music and photography and i am a very outgoing person , im hella depressed and paranoid with a shit ton of anxiety im on Seroquel and Cymbalta ,e tried wellbutrin , zyprexa , abilify , Prozac , mirtapine , risperdone , celexa. None have seem to work , im taking Seroquel for sleep but doesn't help with the hallucinations. , trying to figure out what to do i want to use bluelight to find out more aboutdrugs and what could help me
 
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Hi lilli! Welcome!
I've been on all those horrible meds too so I know how it is.
Not sure what u mean about what u should do? Do u mean what drug should u do or what to do here at bluelight?
The insomnia is awful, makes the days and nights last forever when all u want to do is sleep and pass the miserable time away .
 
Not sure if weed makes u paranoid or not? For some of us it makes it worse and for some it's just fine. Benzos always help me rest my mind a bit but if u get a habit it could be fatal if you suddenly lose ur supply.
I've found great relief from opiates, I'm a chronic pain patient though so I have a steady supply. It's very dangerous to go the opiate route too, I get Oxys but couldn't get a dosage increase after 7-8 yrs on the se dose so I had to switch to heroin. As bad as that sounds it helps me mentally as well as physically but it's very hard to control and afford. I look at like it's saving me from killing myself, without any relief from the daily mental torment my fucked up brain puts me through I would've been dead years ago so I do what I must to get by. MDMA always helped me a great deal but I'm old not and don't have the connects anymore so it's impossible for me to find. If u have access to it I'd recommend MDMA over opiates all day.
 
hi i'm, joe, i invited lilian to BL. im high so i dont think i explain shit well, you dont like go onto BL and ask what drugs to do. you learn about drugs so you can figure out which drugs to do instead of which and how to do them safer. expland your general knowledge
 
I've been in that same place as Lilian, it's all good. I don't think anyone should have to suffer through mental illness without at least giving something the good ol college try. Research MDMA! It just might help lili :)
 
Not sure if weed makes u paranoid or not? For some of us it makes it worse and for some it's just fine. Benzos always help me rest my mind a bit but if u get a habit it could be fatal if you suddenly lose ur supply.
I've found great relief from opiates, I'm a chronic pain patient though so I have a steady supply. It's very dangerous to go the opiate route too, I get Oxys but couldn't get a dosage increase after 7-8 yrs on the se dose so I had to switch to heroin. As bad as that sounds it helps me mentally as well as physically but it's very hard to control and afford. I look at like it's saving me from killing myself, without any relief from the daily mental torment my fucked up brain puts me through I would've been dead years ago so I do what I must to get by. MDMA always helped me a great deal but I'm old not and don't have the connects anymore so it's impossible for me to find. If u have access to it I'd recommend MDMA over opiates all day.
Just out curiosity... How exactly did MDMA help you with your depression? Did you have to take it regularly? I'm very curious about this and considering giving it a try... Also, do you IV heroin?
 
i don't have any experience with MDMA(yet) and i havent researched MDMA and depression much, but I'd imagine it would just make it worse because it depletes your brain's seratonin. If there's evidence it helps or if your experience shows it helps with depression tho I'd look into it a bit, maybe give it a try. make sure to buy a testing kit online tho, don't wanna end up doing dirt molly.
 
Just out curiosity... How exactly did MDMA help you with your depression? Did you have to take it regularly? I'm very curious about this and considering giving it a try... Also, do you IV heroin?
I don't Iv I just sniff the dope, it's be to intense for me to Iv and I'd like it way to much so I stay away from that but I can certainly understand people wanting to get the most outta their drugs by iv'ing.
The epills(no pure bs Molly back in the 90s) I took them daily and way to many but they helped a great deal IMO/ime. I think it did a number on my pancreas and liver as well but that could also be attributed to all the booze I was drinking at the time. Now I'd just like to find some e and use that to kick the dope if the time ever comes where I have to kick, I think this would actually work pretty well . Well I'm just waking up and gotta gety buzz on so if u have any more questions just fire them out and I'll keep an eye open for this thread. I'd be glad to be of any assistance if I can. Ttyl be safe!
 
Welcome to Bluelight. I suggest checking out the Mental Health sub-forum or maybe asking a moderator if they can move the thread there for you. No one can tell you what's best to use as we're not doctors but there's good advice here based on HR n experience. I hope that you're able to find relief from your anxiety n that you benefit from / enjoy Bluelight.

Evey
 
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