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New here, very depressed an desperate.

Hey is everything alright? There's never to much information. No one here will judge you for what you did,(if that's the case).
I welcome you to the site shadow and hope you will open up to us a little. :)
 
Captain.Heroin said:
Welcome to Bluelight! :)

You can always PM me if you want to talk about things. Stay safe.
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ComfortablyNumb95 said:
Hi and welcome to Bluelight :)
if you need help or anything feel free to PM me at anytime.
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D's said:
Hey is everything alright? There's never to much information. No one here will judge you for what you did,(if that's the case).
I welcome you to the site shadow and hope you will open up to us a little. :)
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Hey thank you everybody. Just thought I told too much and this was a wrong forum or something and would get bad reactions again. Sorry if my quote's won't look right.
Tried to make friends on other forums too but I always got rejected and told I'm mentally ill.
I'm currently extremely depressed an on the verge of suicide :(
Addicted to alcohol, benzo's and opiates.
I'm a young male from Belgium and just lookin' for some friends (real life or just on the internet, everything is allright) who won't judge me for what I do or am.
I have a lot op psychological problems.

I'm also not the person who takes a first step and contact someone first, so don't hesitate and send a mail to [email protected] if you want to know more about me. I'm fucking desperate, depressed an drunk right now don't really know what I'm doing :(
 
hi shadow

we are all onions here, lots of layers and each layer holds a wonderful amount of knowledge and experience. feel free to peel away. something inside you knows what you doing to post here. lets change that :( into a :)

feel free to test the waters! dont worry if you think its getting to deep. someone will be there to keep you afloat.
 
What 24 said, my first posts were like yours but this site brought me around. This sight is remarkable, but the lounge bites. It bites hard, enter at your own risk with an open mind they'll close it for you. Joking aside, stay here and get healthy. BL is therapy.
 
Shadowseer said:
Hey thank you everybody. Just thought I told too much and this was a wrong forum or something and would get bad reactions
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Heh... Read my introduction! This isn't the type of place in which you have to walk around on eggshells about your truth. I too am addicted by legal prescription to opiates and benzodiazepines - I take 4mg Xanax/alprazolam, 2mg Ativan/lorazepam and 30mg Morphine sulfate IR. I know what it's like to be that depressed... I go through it all the time. Friedrich Nietzsche quoted something that seems to help me frequently... "He who has a why to live can bear almost any how," ...The opiate addiction is a bitch though, I do understand that. Just the idea of going somewhere and forgetting to take medication with me makes me feel faint and the idea of going into acute withdrawal frightens the hell out of me. It's a disastrous position to get stuck in... You just have to keep on going though, one day at a time, even if there's no reason - you just go on, you just do, because that's what you're supposed to do, and that's a good enough reason. It's miserable at times though, I empathize. Oh yeah, here's the link to my introduction: http://www.bluelight.org/vb/threads/731861-Hello-From-The-She-Experiment These things are episodic and it will get better eventually, although sometimes it gets worse first. You just have to hold on. If you need to, send me or someone else here a message. Don't just languish in isolation - people really do care, even the ones that don't understand...

--TheSheExperiment
 
Shadowseer said:
Hey thank you everybody. Just thought I told too much and this was a wrong forum or something and would get bad reactions again. Sorry if my quote's won't look right.
Tried to make friends on other forums too but I always got rejected and told I'm mentally ill.
I'm currently extremely depressed an on the verge of suicide :(
Addicted to alcohol, benzo's and opiates.
I'm a young male from Belgium and just lookin' for some friends (real life or just on the internet, everything is allright) who won't judge me for what I do or am.
I have a lot op psychological problems.

I'm also not the person who takes a first step and contact someone first, so don't hesitate and send a mail to [email protected] if you want to know more about me. I'm fucking desperate, depressed an drunk right now don't really know what I'm doing :(
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hey.
here on Bluelight people is generally very supporting and caring, because many of the members go through the very same things you do.
much love <3 hang in there mate I'm sure it will get better.
 
Shadowseer said:
Hey thank you everybody. Just thought I told too much and this was a wrong forum or something and would get bad reactions again. Sorry if my quote's won't look right.
Tried to make friends on other forums too but I always got rejected and told I'm mentally ill.
I'm currently extremely depressed an on the verge of suicide :(
Addicted to alcohol, benzo's and opiates.
I'm a young male from Belgium and just lookin' for some friends (real life or just on the internet, everything is allright) who won't judge me for what I do or am.
I have a lot op psychological problems.

I'm also not the person who takes a first step and contact someone first, so don't hesitate and send a mail to [email protected] if you want to know more about me. I'm fucking desperate, depressed an drunk right now don't really know what I'm doing :(
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Welcome and don't worry about getting bad replies. There's no such thing as "telling too much".

I'm gonna move this to The Dark Side so you can get the support you need.
 
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