So I've been to this forum before, never posting just looking for answers on random things. Well I signed up now, and I don't have a specific question, just kind of want to vent and get some advice.. ok well here goes..
I've had my own drug problems on and off for the past 4-5 years.. I'm clean now (on methadone.. say what u want about it but it saved my life).. but that's not the point of my post... my boyfriend, we've been together on and off for 6 years, he's always been on the straight and narrow..
Always against drugs (except weed, he smokes pot daily), ; but he's always been against heroin. He had a close friend overdose and die in his room in like 2006.. and his dad died from a heroine overdose when he was 11....
Ok that's the backstory..
About two weeks ago we got into a fight, he found out I got some crack... he went out and got some and did it himself.. fast forward to this past week
.. he gets it and we smoke together.. he wants dope.. he talks me into shooting him up... I felt horrible. I'm gonna burn In hell for this. . Then tonight we did it again.. I could tell he got a mean ass rush and was super high
. HiS eyes were all spaced out.. I've never seen him like that. . And now he's throwing up in the bathroom
I know I'm rambling, I feel so guilty for being the person to shoot him, but if he tried himself it would have been a huge mess... I love him with all my heart and I have a feeling hes also falling in love with this drug too...
Idk what to do because I do not want a drug relationship, and I love him so much I do not want him to ever know the pain and guilt and heartache and everything else that comes with addiction. ...
I've had my own drug problems on and off for the past 4-5 years.. I'm clean now (on methadone.. say what u want about it but it saved my life).. but that's not the point of my post... my boyfriend, we've been together on and off for 6 years, he's always been on the straight and narrow..
Always against drugs (except weed, he smokes pot daily), ; but he's always been against heroin. He had a close friend overdose and die in his room in like 2006.. and his dad died from a heroine overdose when he was 11....
Ok that's the backstory..
About two weeks ago we got into a fight, he found out I got some crack... he went out and got some and did it himself.. fast forward to this past week
.. he gets it and we smoke together.. he wants dope.. he talks me into shooting him up... I felt horrible. I'm gonna burn In hell for this. . Then tonight we did it again.. I could tell he got a mean ass rush and was super high
. HiS eyes were all spaced out.. I've never seen him like that. . And now he's throwing up in the bathroom
I know I'm rambling, I feel so guilty for being the person to shoot him, but if he tried himself it would have been a huge mess... I love him with all my heart and I have a feeling hes also falling in love with this drug too...
Idk what to do because I do not want a drug relationship, and I love him so much I do not want him to ever know the pain and guilt and heartache and everything else that comes with addiction. ...