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[Gavin81]

I have been reading this site off and on for about a month and just decided to register.
I have been doing h for about 2 months and I'm trying to stop. It was the worst choice I ever made. I know 2 months is not a long time but today is day 1 WD and I already feel like I'm dying. I told my wife what I was doing and she pretty much hates me now and just keeps saying I have ruined everything. I know I have, she doesn't need to keep reminding me. She did tell me she would divorce me if she could afford it. She works, but I make better money. I almost feel like she is only staying because of the money. I told her because I needed her support to stop. But I guess it is a normal reaction that she is having.
Any advice anyone can give about getting clean would really help.

Gavin

 

[AngryHobo321]

Hey Gavin, hopefully the website can be of assistance to you. I don't know where you live, but I live in the United States and in my state we have free detox and rehab for individuals if they are not covered under their insurance plan. If you decide to seek medical assistance with the withdrawal it may ease the pain and increase your success rate. There may be local support groups for recovering addicts in your area as well. Group support always helps. You may want to ask a physician about Suboxone, an opiate taper prescription. You may also want to check out the sober living board for more advice. Remember that you are valuable and worthwhile. Your life is more important than your marriage. Do whatever you need to do to get better so you can give back to this world like the shining star you are.

 

[Captain Relapse]

Hey Gav mate,

Sorry about the wife thing, but I have been there, if its true between you two that will be all good once you show your recovery and dedication to stop.

The H withdrawals are terrible, were you IV?

I've come off IV H (2-4 gram a day habit) more times than i can remember.

Try to take a week off work, get the first 3-4 days out the way, eat shit tons of anti- dihorrea tabs (loperamide) and eat as much as you can.

2 minths is not long, you will get the physical WD's but most likely not ao bad PAWS (which btw I still suffer from after 3 years).

Any asvice needed then just ask mate, unfortunately I have been through this shit more times than I care to remember.

PS multivitamins etc are balls, tried and tested. Useless. Temazepam or amother hypnotic benzo will help and mirtazipine for the appetite. But please DO NOT TAKE BENZOS IF YOU HAVE A PREVIOUS DEPENDANCE, and wven if not 3-4 days max fir thw worst part.

Peace mate, stay strong ??

 

[Captain Relapse]

PS sorry about the typos, if you saw my earlier post; I've eaten 2 boxes of Xanax, hence the inconcistency my grammar ?

 

[Gavin81]

Thank you so much.
I was about a gram a day (nasal) IV always kinda freaked me out. But I'm sure if I didn't tell my wife when I did and decided to stop I would have progressed to it.
She seems to over being mad and just wants me back to what I was before.
I will not ever do it ever again.

Thanks for all yhe advice.

 

[Gavin81]

I really think this site will help. Everything I have read is already helping. Doesn't take away the pain right now, but like everyone says it will only last 5 to 7 days. I am taking a half a Vicodin 7.5 every four hours just to help take he edge off and I have enough to do that for about 6 days. I hope it will be enough.

 

[simco]

Hey, Gavin. Really glad to hear your wife's initial shock seems to be subsiding. Meanwhile, how are the WD symptoms? Whatever they're like, as you pointed out, they'll be much less very soon.

I don't want to put the cart before the horse, but do you have any thoughts on how you'll stay away from the heroin now that you're off it? Staying away from dope is totally doable. But it does take work for most addicted-people. For many of us, having some kind of support system is really helpful, especially for the first few months after quitting. This could be something like an outpatient substance abuse recovery program through a clinic. Or it might be involvement in a recovery fellowship like NA. It could also be simply an agreement to be very open with certain friends/family whom you trust.

It's great that you've been able to recognize the need to stop relatively early in your habit. So the next key is going to be making sure that insight gets carried through to longer term recovery.