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Irresmum

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Hi all, so I've somehow stumbled back into the use of meth (ingesting), mainly due to being diagnosed a year ago with severe depression and zero motivation and energy. I have 3 kids and getting through the day is so bloody hard as hubby works a lot. Also trying to lose weight and not having motivation adds to my depression. Cycle I just can't get out of. I was so desperate to feel good even just for a few hours, it's so hard when I feel no joy in anything
 
Just responded to a thread about loneliness and posted something very similar to what I'm about to say here. But basically, numerous studies have shown that chocolate, especially dark chocolate, produce the same chemicals in brain as loving someone does, it produces the feeling of love. So maybe if you're trying to get off of that, eat some chocolate for happiness, and instead of spending so much money on shards, spend it on good healthy foods like fruits and vegetables, or have a smoothie every morning and you'll get a good burst of energy and happiness, I do every morning, and a protein shake at night after my evening workout. Try working out too, any workout. Lifting weights maybe or jogging depending on if you want to bulk or lose weight? But make yourself feel good by healthy foods, and feel good about yourself by working on your body. You can't go wrong there.. out of all the drugs meth it the most damaging to mind and body. Luckily you're ingesting it though and not shooting like me. I shot meth and heroin a lot and it was hard getting off, if it weren't for learning how to eat healthy food and working out I wouldn't have had any clean time. Good luck brother!:)
 
I also said on the last thread to make sure you Don't overdo the chocolate thing though, forgot to mention that. and I just noticed you said you deal with weight problems towards the end, just know, although it may seem like meth helps, it doesn't really, it's a temporary and artificial way to seem as though you're losing weight but really just dying and your body isn't liking that kind of weight loss. Try cardio or high rep low weight weight lifting. Eat well! A big factor in happiness while overweight is losing the weight, and eating healthier, hard to feel healthy and happy when you're eating a lot and gaining weight. Keep your head up man and do what's right!:)
 
Boy, I would not recommend meth for severe depression. Or not-so-severe depression. Not being all moral on you at all--but I'm fairly new to a daily habit, and prone to anguished anxiety and depression and all that. But with a lot of meth comes it's own weird dysphoria, not even with withdrawal, just on the down slope of a session. Vivid despair-type stuff.

As for motivation, I'm motivated to jerk off all the time, and that's about it. It's just not been one of those turn-your-life-around drugs. Not in a positive way. Did lose twenty pounds.

But everybody's downs are different. I could list a dozen other things to try that might help more than theobromine, but you've hopefully already looked in to all of that before going straight for methamphetamine. I mean, if you like stims, there's Ritalin-marketed-as-antidepressant: bupropion/Welbutrin. Pharmacologically they do the same thing. Stimulating with some well-being.


Speaking of which, [mention]LotsOfExperience[/mention] why isn't theobromine sold as a supplement? Besides being a stimulant, I mean, they could find a way to dilute it a bit, y'know, dark chocolate without the calories?
 
I know all this but when you've been feeling so low for so long and the smallest of tasks make you feel so overwhelmed you'll do anything to be able to feel good for even a second and be able to get stuff done
Problem is because I've been out of the scene for so long it's hard to obtain
 
And you've been in the "scene" before, making a return to that more likely (husband and kids, I'm picturing full-on chem-pig PnP slamming party nastiness?).

It will lead to bad things.

I just mean, eventually you're going to screw up dinners, like I've tried to cook blitzed on meth, and it's not easy to stop matchsticking carrots thinner and thinner, all aligned, to get to the perfect chicken strips you velveted.

And the weight loss will be noticed. Your sleep will get weird and you'll snap at the kids. It'll take three times as long to do anything, and you won't be able to keep track of your various errands.
 
I am in the same exact situation as you in regards to no motivation. What I find really helps me with that is aderall depending on how exhausted I am. Sometimes I crush it up and sniff it up my nose. Then I drink a shit ton of NOS. Hubby works all the time as I spend every waking moment home.
 
I'm not a housewife and mother, but I'm a grown man living with his parents and cooks them dinners and has pets . . . . Well the parents have driver's licenses, which makes a bit of a difference. The pets eat slop out of a can.

But I'm unemployed in a bad way, similar dismotivation, and bored out of my skull ready to murder, broke, have no friends.

Meth has helped me with none of those things. I know you know this OP, so I'll stop with that. And I don't know what pharmaceutical intervention would work anyway. The obvious is the upper anti-depressants. Somehow I don't think lack of actual energy is my problem.
 
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