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Bozzy

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I was dependent on Percocet as prescribed by pain management for 10 years. I hated the way I felt and could never find anyone to hear me. I was told I needed to take all the meds in order to function. I was not functioning, I was existing. In February 2012 I stopped ALL medications I was taking cold turkey. It was hell but I'd do it again in a second. My problem is that I am still not really functioning emotionally. I am jealous, angry, confused and depressed. At 55 years old my husband called the cops on me and I was taken to jail ... for the first time in my life! All I can say is I need help BIG TIME ... I've gone to counseling and even admitted myself into a behavioral health hospitalp. I just can't seem to find any answers ... :(
 
Welcome to Blue light. I'm new here too so Hang in there and I'm sure someone here can give you some good advice.You sure have issues.... It's good you stopped the percs! I had a friend on those for years but they were percodan(w/aspirin). His girlfriend and him had 5 drs. each and they sold none. They both finally went to rehab and got off of them only to start a new painkiller, dilaudid.
So you have been clean since 2012? That's awesome!! Hope you get your probs. straightened out. Again, Welcome aboard.
 
Hey Bozzy welcome to Bluelight. :)

It's good that you've taken the steps to try and get better, try posting a thread in The Dark Side (TDS) that is a part of the site where people come together to try and help others with a few hurdles in their lives. It's a really great subforum and full of really supporting people, you'll definitely get a lot of great advice there.

I hope things with your husband get better in the meantime, try and keep your chin up. :)
 
Bozzy said:
I was dependent on Percocet as prescribed by pain management for 10 years. I hated the way I felt and could never find anyone to hear me. I was told I needed to take all the meds in order to function. I was not functioning, I was existing. In February 2012 I stopped ALL medications I was taking cold turkey. It was hell but I'd do it again in a second. My problem is that I am still not really functioning emotionally. I am jealous, angry, confused and depressed. At 55 years old my husband called the cops on me and I was taken to jail ... for the first time in my life! All I can say is I need help BIG TIME ... I've gone to counseling and even admitted myself into a behavioral health hospitalp. I just can't seem to find any answers ... :(
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Hiya Bozzy,

I am sorry for all that you have been through.

I, too have issues with jealousy and anger and I know how they can change you into a person you don't like. It's horrible. I got addicted to codeine due to it. A lot of people laugh at me because codeine is a weak opiate but it's destroyed me. From having a savings of £4,600 to in debt by £5,200 or more. I got addicted in order to deal with my anger and jealousy over a situation I had no control over (won't say on it, 'tis a big deep hehe).

You've taken a big step in asking for help and I'll give you links to some recovery forums;

- The Dark Side
- Sober Living
- Mental Health

If you'd like to talk to other members you may be interested in;

- New Members Introductions (NMI) Social Thread
-

Working on our inner issues takes a long time and some work - but with Bluelight, you'll get a lot of support. From experience of having 8 months' of support from BL, these people truly care, are patient, understanding, supportive, welcoming.

I'm not sure of your location (and you don't have to say on here, if you don't wish), so I'll list the three sub-forums here;

- [URL="http://www.bluelight.org/vb/forums/45-Australian-Drug-Discussion"]Australian Drug Discussion
- European and African Drug Discussion (EADD)
- North and South American Social & Drug Discussion

You're more than welcome to PM me anytime if you need someone to talk to you - or talk to people on the links I've given you.

Best Wishes,
Evey
 
Well done on being sober sincer 2012.... and please don't thank me. You don't need to. That's what I'm here for. Helping newcomers actually helps me too.

You take care, ok.

You'll get a lot from this site. Believe me, I've been around a few forums and this one is not only supportive - but the people here truly care y'know.

Best Wishes,
Evey
 
Hey Bozz...I like your Screen Name.

Congrats on sobriety! Bravo...

Remember Bozz... You are in control of YOU....not exterior substances... no one else...regardless of circumstance.

Pain medication is a luxury, not necessity...pain will not kill you.

This is your segment of the universe after all.... You are in charge of it.
 
Please don't take this the wrong way but pain medication CAN kill you if you take to much. You can OD on it. It's important we give new members the right information here as I don't want to be responsible for someone ODing and killing themselves. GodandLove, as a fellow member of Bluelight, I mean you no disrespect, and I hope you are not offended in any way by my imput, but I had to make that point clear for the OP - and possibly anyone lurking that pain medication in APPROPIRATE DOSES is ok but taken in excess CAN have DIRE CONSEQUENCES and CAN even kill you. A member of this site died from purchasing pain medication from an online pharmacy. Please read BL features in Vice Magazine . I'm not telling you this to scare you - this could very easily have happened to me. I'm doing this because this is a harm reduction site, and as a member of BL I would not be doing the site, and yourself, justice if I was not honest about certain facts.

Wishing you all the best,
Evey
 
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Eveleivibe said:
Please don't take this the wrong way but pain medication CAN kill you if you take to much. You can OD on it. It's important we give new members the right important here as I don't want to be responsible for someone ODing and killing themselves. GodandLove, as a fellow member of Bluelight, I mean you no disrespect, and I hope you are not offended in any way by my mistake, but I had to make that point clear for the OP - and possibly anyone lurking that pain medication in APPROPIRATE DOSES is ok but taken in excess CAN have DIRE CONSEQUENCES and CAN even kill you. A member of this site died from purchasing pain medication from an online pharmacy. Please read ["URL="http://www.bluelight.org/vb/content/103-bluelight-featured-in-vice-com-article-on-web-resources-for-drug-users"] BL features in Vice Magazine [/URL] . I'm not telling this to scare you - this could very easily have happened to me. I'm doing this because this is a harm reduction site, and as a member of BL I would not be doing the site, and yourself, justice if I was not honest about certain facts.

Wishing you all the best,
Evey
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What are you talking about...RE read my post.

Specifically this line

"Pain medication is a luxury, not necessity...pain will not kill you."

I said pain itself will not kill you.... I'm against opioid medication for pain management. I'm against opiates in general.

Opiates are lies pretending to be honesty.

The poppy is a dangerous pit...if you fall in...well...say your prayers.
 
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Welcome to bluelight!!
That's awesome you haven't relapsed its really tough not to I know first hand.

Its Nice to have you on board:)

Good luck let me know if you need any help and have fun.
These will give you some insight on how the site is run and the rules

Green lighters(newbies) guide-
http://wiki.bluelight.org/index.php/Greenlighters_guide

Bluelight user agreement-

http://wiki.bluelight.org/index.php/Bluelight_User_Agreement_(BLUA)


If you want some help getting around the site or a buddy to talk to then you can always message me Im on the list of people willing to adopt you can find the link if you want to be adopted by me or another experienced member here-

Nmi adoption program-

http://www.bluelight.org/vb/threads/665029-The-NMI-Adoption-Program-v-2014


Good luck don't be afraid to ask for help that's what I'm here for,
 
GodandLove said:
What are you talking about...RE read my post.

Specifically this line

"Pain medication is a luxury, not necessity...pain will not kill you."

I said pain itself will not kill you.... I'm against opioid medication for pain management. I'm against opiates in general.

Opiates are lies pretending to be honesty.

The poppy is a dangerous pit...if you fall in...well...say your prayers.
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I misread your post.
Please accept my sincere apologies.

Evey
 
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