soufeyez812
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Hi my name is Mark Im 29 years old. Im addicted to heroin well all opiates for that matter. I've been addicted to heroin for three years. I was addicted to pain pills for 10 years prior to heroin. My journey started with loratab. Me and my ex girlfriend didnt know anything about addiction or painpills. Her dad was prescribed loratabs and we started eating them like candy. When he ran out we felt like shit for a day but wasnt using that heavily to realize we had a problem. Her dad got cut off loratabs and put on oxycontin. We started eating those like candy untill he ran out and we ran out of money to buy them off the streets so then withdrawl set in and we realized we were physically addicted. We were going thru 6 of the 80 milligram pills a day. Then he got cut off the oxycontin and put on opanas well we got to using so heavy we wanted to stop. We accidentally got hooked on xanax to. We didn't like the way they made us feel at first we only took them because I ran out of my seroquel. And we were having trouble sleeping we were eating them every night to go to sleep. And before you know it we didn't feel normal without them. So we started going to the methadone clinic. And believe it or not that was the best time of our lives. We didn't have to search for dope everyday all our time went into family/kids we both had a job. We didn't have a want for anything since all our money and time wasn't going to dope we had the All American dream. Our own cars...A House... Flat screen tv's & PlayStation 3's all over the house. We even decided to have our own kid. She had a boy I named Him after me. Well all that came to a end when we got a brilliant idea that we no longer have a problem with methadone. And that we could quit cold turkey. I got so dope sick that I stopped getting out of bed and helping with kids or the bills and ended up getting locked up. And my girl left me for another man while incarcerated. And to top it all off her and her new boyfriend got the kids taken away by CPS due to drug use and domestic battery. And I wasn't even given a chance to get my son. Because I was going through the court system on unrelated cases. Well when I lost my wife and kids. That's when I started shooting heroin. The same day I lost everything I loved.. It was either that or suicide. I was locked up in the county jail the day my girl left me for another man. The day I got released I went over their house with a pistol to kill them both and the only Friday in all of history they happen not to be at their house... I guess it was God
cuz it was the heat of the moment I just found out that she left me for him and actually confirmed it and at that point in time I had nothing to live for if I couldn't have her or the kids... I still haven't fully gotten over her. We were very close deeply in love. Like finish each others sentences...We were inseparable... Best friends...soulmates so I thought. So to this day I battle depression and suicide...
cuz it was the heat of the moment I just found out that she left me for him and actually confirmed it and at that point in time I had nothing to live for if I couldn't have her or the kids... I still haven't fully gotten over her. We were very close deeply in love. Like finish each others sentences...We were inseparable... Best friends...soulmates so I thought. So to this day I battle depression and suicide...
