Candyman51x
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Jan 3, 2018
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WARNING: The post you are about to read is completely scrambled and is intended for those who have went through it and for those who want to be done with it!
where to start? Oh man I felt something come over me. Okay it’s been 8 full days now. I’m ready to put up a good fight. I’ve been using on and off for a good 10 years, I’m 25 now and scared to death. Possibly a midlife crisis ?? Doubt it....
I managed well for a long time on my own. I was in shape had a nice job a nice truck (that’s not so nice now) a good place to live and eventually I go on to search for a woman but, we’ll get back to them later.
Opiate use was so common in the field of my work. (Construction, ironworker) because it “helped” us feel better and give us false energy that we already had but,
It wasn’t a blink of an eye after I started taking opiates I was on em buddy, or they were on me. I mean hard too. I couldn’t tell you the money I spent just to feel normal. I hated it. I still hate it! I quit cold turkey last Monday, off of 9-10 Roxy 30’s a day. Taking 2 or 3 at a time, to feel normal.
The first week... I couldn’t honestly put a word to the feeling of physical opiate withdrawal. “Hell”doesn’t even cut it close. I wanted to document day by day but I’ve just got some energy back the past 2 days! It’s getting better.
Day 1 wasn’t so bad
Day 2 omg just kill me
Day 3 why haven’t I slept yet
Day 4 I’m so tired
Day 5 ????
Day 6 I feel I’m losing my mind
Day 7 I slept for 9 hours!! Headache stopped
Day 8 it’s 1am I’m so tired, feel as if I’ll sleep well tonight.
Tomorrow (day 9) I plan on getting up early and getting back to regular excercise, I’ve been staying full and hydrated consistently for 4 days now and have gained 12lbs in 8 days!
I have random urges to use, I don’t want to but, sometimes when I stretch I feel that itchy creepy touch in my legs and it taunts me. I’m staying strong so far but don’t want to get too ahead of myself. What can I do other than “staying busy”. It normally hits me when my chores and work are all done!
I guess I don’t have much of a question but, I know the answer to not feeling this way
And I really just kinda need people to talk about it with idk ?
where to start? Oh man I felt something come over me. Okay it’s been 8 full days now. I’m ready to put up a good fight. I’ve been using on and off for a good 10 years, I’m 25 now and scared to death. Possibly a midlife crisis ?? Doubt it....
I managed well for a long time on my own. I was in shape had a nice job a nice truck (that’s not so nice now) a good place to live and eventually I go on to search for a woman but, we’ll get back to them later.
Opiate use was so common in the field of my work. (Construction, ironworker) because it “helped” us feel better and give us false energy that we already had but,
It wasn’t a blink of an eye after I started taking opiates I was on em buddy, or they were on me. I mean hard too. I couldn’t tell you the money I spent just to feel normal. I hated it. I still hate it! I quit cold turkey last Monday, off of 9-10 Roxy 30’s a day. Taking 2 or 3 at a time, to feel normal.
The first week... I couldn’t honestly put a word to the feeling of physical opiate withdrawal. “Hell”doesn’t even cut it close. I wanted to document day by day but I’ve just got some energy back the past 2 days! It’s getting better.
Day 1 wasn’t so bad
Day 2 omg just kill me
Day 3 why haven’t I slept yet
Day 4 I’m so tired
Day 5 ????
Day 6 I feel I’m losing my mind
Day 7 I slept for 9 hours!! Headache stopped
Day 8 it’s 1am I’m so tired, feel as if I’ll sleep well tonight.
Tomorrow (day 9) I plan on getting up early and getting back to regular excercise, I’ve been staying full and hydrated consistently for 4 days now and have gained 12lbs in 8 days!
I have random urges to use, I don’t want to but, sometimes when I stretch I feel that itchy creepy touch in my legs and it taunts me. I’m staying strong so far but don’t want to get too ahead of myself. What can I do other than “staying busy”. It normally hits me when my chores and work are all done!
I guess I don’t have much of a question but, I know the answer to not feeling this way
And I really just kinda need people to talk about it with idk ?
