New from Long Island :)

[Nottelling1717]

I've been creeping for a little and decided to say hi. After a long period of recovery from cocaine/crack I relapsed on oxys for a back prob and have been on them on and off for 3 years. The past 3 mths have been a nightmare. Today I officially ran out of meds and my dr won't give me more, so I started suboxone from the last time I had it. I hate this shit. I keep having thoughts of getting heroin - I haven't done that shit in like 10 years but I am a scared of what that could turn into. I still want to be high though and this sucks. I feel like a pussy for writing this but I thought maybe someone could relate.

 

[PetalToTheMetal]

Welcome to BL, Nottellling. And don't beat yourself up for putting it out there. We have plenty of members that can relate, just check out The Dark Side, or Sober Living.

http://www.bluelight.org/vb/forums/268-Recovery-Support

 

[angeleyes]

Ay yo, don't beat yourself up, you're among good people here who can definitely relate Welcome!