Hi my name is Cassidy. I've often looked through this site over the past year and finally joined today.
Me, my husband and 2 kids moved to Florida last August when my husband retired from the military. I have no friends or family here. Florida is a nice place to visit. It's beautiful, but that's THE ONLY THING it has to offer. Here's my story (I'm sorry it's so long)
I've always had problems with my legs, (losing balance, pain, cramping) but no Dr. could ever figure out what was wrong with me. After my son was born back in 2008 I started getting debilitating migraines. I wound up seeing a Neurologist who put me on Topamax and Nucynta 75mgs (for breakthrough pain). I had a daughter in 2009 (I stayed on the Topamax, but didn't take the Nucynta again until after my daughter was born.). During my pregnancy my leg problems got worse. I fell a lot and was in constant pain. After my daughter was born I started taking Tramadol for my leg pain.
My husband deployed in 2010. I hurt my back and neck during his deployment so dr's switched me from Tramadol to Lortab. I lived in a different state then my family and friends so it was very hard emotionally and physically. After my husband got back we got stationed in Fort Campbell. Even further away from my family
Somewhere along the move I thought I did something to my left shoulder/arm because days after getting to TN I was having incredible unbearable pains going from my armpit and collarbone shooting straight down into my palm. So much so that I thought I was having a heart attack!! It wakes me up screaming if I lay down to sleep. Once out there I found a Dr. right away... He couldn't tell me whats wrong with my arm but assured me it wasn't my heart. He said he didn't want me taking Lortab and Nucynta so he took me off the Lortab and upped my Nucynta to 75mgs 4 x's a day and added Nucynta ER 50mgs 2 times a day. (that was in 2011). In 2012 after seeing a new Neurologist he determined I had MS. Fast forward to January 2013... My husband gets medically retired from the Army. We tried looking for a home in NC but wound up homeless. We Had no choice but to come to Florida (even FURTHER from my family), to keep us out of the shelter by staying with a friend of mine until we found a home. We got here the end of July/ beginning of August 2013. So with all my records in hand... I found a Dr..... I was almost out of my meds when I got to see him. He told me during my first visit... 15 minutes into it... Well I don't think you have MS, you have Fibromyalgia. Well I'm not refilling your Nucyntas, here's some Cymbalta. I PANICED!!!! I started crying and said you can't just stop me on the nucyntas I'll get sick as a dog with Withdrawals!!! I have a 4 & 5 year old to take care of along with a house and a husband!!!!! He looked me right in the eyes and said (calmly), Well no ones ever died from withdrawal you'll be fine after a week. I said it wasn't possible for me to stay in bed for a week let alone a day!!! I'm up at 5 and in bed by 9!!!! I have NO ONE to help!!! No family or friends!!!! I BEGGED HIM to taper me off but he wouldn't do it... He smiled at me and walked out of the room. (flashback to 200, I had Synovial Cell Sarcoma, I went through countless surgeries and radiation treatments). My Dr.'s had me on Oxycotin.. When my treatments and surgeries were done and it was time to come off the medicine, even though it was under a dr supervision because I was told I was on enough to kill a horse, I was bedridden for 6 months).... I COULD NEVER GO THROUGH THAT AGAIN!!!! EVER!!!! I PANICKED !!!!!! Someone here told me about buying them off the streets.... Ive never done that before but would give my LIFE to not go through withdrawal again!!!! So, I did it.... I hated spending the money so I tried to stop and bare the withdrawals... I couldn't make it past day 2.. on top of the physical symptoms the depression was too much to bare..... I started thinking stupid thoughts... So here I am today, right now..... I bought my last pill the other day and took it this morning at 5..... The depression has already started to set in and I know by tomorrow i'll be sick.... I need my family my mom and sister especially and I have no way of getting to them or them to me. I'm desperate because I know emotionally I can't survive without help and support. Each breath I take is a struggle... I need help, I need friends... Please someone help me.....
Cassidy
Me, my husband and 2 kids moved to Florida last August when my husband retired from the military. I have no friends or family here. Florida is a nice place to visit. It's beautiful, but that's THE ONLY THING it has to offer. Here's my story (I'm sorry it's so long)
I've always had problems with my legs, (losing balance, pain, cramping) but no Dr. could ever figure out what was wrong with me. After my son was born back in 2008 I started getting debilitating migraines. I wound up seeing a Neurologist who put me on Topamax and Nucynta 75mgs (for breakthrough pain). I had a daughter in 2009 (I stayed on the Topamax, but didn't take the Nucynta again until after my daughter was born.). During my pregnancy my leg problems got worse. I fell a lot and was in constant pain. After my daughter was born I started taking Tramadol for my leg pain.
My husband deployed in 2010. I hurt my back and neck during his deployment so dr's switched me from Tramadol to Lortab. I lived in a different state then my family and friends so it was very hard emotionally and physically. After my husband got back we got stationed in Fort Campbell. Even further away from my family
Somewhere along the move I thought I did something to my left shoulder/arm because days after getting to TN I was having incredible unbearable pains going from my armpit and collarbone shooting straight down into my palm. So much so that I thought I was having a heart attack!! It wakes me up screaming if I lay down to sleep. Once out there I found a Dr. right away... He couldn't tell me whats wrong with my arm but assured me it wasn't my heart. He said he didn't want me taking Lortab and Nucynta so he took me off the Lortab and upped my Nucynta to 75mgs 4 x's a day and added Nucynta ER 50mgs 2 times a day. (that was in 2011). In 2012 after seeing a new Neurologist he determined I had MS. Fast forward to January 2013... My husband gets medically retired from the Army. We tried looking for a home in NC but wound up homeless. We Had no choice but to come to Florida (even FURTHER from my family), to keep us out of the shelter by staying with a friend of mine until we found a home. We got here the end of July/ beginning of August 2013. So with all my records in hand... I found a Dr..... I was almost out of my meds when I got to see him. He told me during my first visit... 15 minutes into it... Well I don't think you have MS, you have Fibromyalgia. Well I'm not refilling your Nucyntas, here's some Cymbalta. I PANICED!!!! I started crying and said you can't just stop me on the nucyntas I'll get sick as a dog with Withdrawals!!! I have a 4 & 5 year old to take care of along with a house and a husband!!!!! He looked me right in the eyes and said (calmly), Well no ones ever died from withdrawal you'll be fine after a week. I said it wasn't possible for me to stay in bed for a week let alone a day!!! I'm up at 5 and in bed by 9!!!! I have NO ONE to help!!! No family or friends!!!! I BEGGED HIM to taper me off but he wouldn't do it... He smiled at me and walked out of the room. (flashback to 200, I had Synovial Cell Sarcoma, I went through countless surgeries and radiation treatments). My Dr.'s had me on Oxycotin.. When my treatments and surgeries were done and it was time to come off the medicine, even though it was under a dr supervision because I was told I was on enough to kill a horse, I was bedridden for 6 months).... I COULD NEVER GO THROUGH THAT AGAIN!!!! EVER!!!! I PANICKED !!!!!! Someone here told me about buying them off the streets.... Ive never done that before but would give my LIFE to not go through withdrawal again!!!! So, I did it.... I hated spending the money so I tried to stop and bare the withdrawals... I couldn't make it past day 2.. on top of the physical symptoms the depression was too much to bare..... I started thinking stupid thoughts... So here I am today, right now..... I bought my last pill the other day and took it this morning at 5..... The depression has already started to set in and I know by tomorrow i'll be sick.... I need my family
my mom and sister especially and I have no way of getting to them or them to me. I'm desperate because I know emotionally I can't survive without help and support. Each breath I take is a struggle... I need help, I need friends... Please someone help me.....Cassidy
