New blog introduction

I'm so glad to see that blogs are back! Unfortunately it looks like all my previous entries have been erased, so I guess I will start over.

My name is confidential, since I'm pretty much the only one in my country with that name. But you can always ask me I'm 25 years old, and I live in the United States.

I am kind of a drug addict. I latch onto anything available and use it every day, all the time, until my supply gets cut off, and then I go seek out something else. My drug of choice is opiates, especially heroin, but fortunately for me I have no way of obtaining it at present (and haven't for quite a few months). I love almost any other drug out there, except for psychedelics - my trips have mostly been dark and horrible and have contributed to my abuse of addictive drugs (and a lot of extreme anxiety/depression).

Lately I've been on an adderall kick, but I haven't abused it for quite a while... it calms me down and makes me focused. I have been told by a couple professionals that I probably have ADD, which is believable especially considering the way I react to amphetamines. I'm going to try to get a prescription because I want to get through college and lately I have been failing many of my classes due to the intense course load and my own bad concentration. If I get a prescription I'll try to get it on daily pick-up, just so I don't get out of hand with it again.

I have a pretty good life... I'm trying to be grateful and happy for it. I live with good friends in a nice, cooperative household. I have a caring, loving family and a stable retail job. In most ways I am blessed - maybe someday I will be completely blessed, with peace of mind and effortless sobriety.

 

In my case anyway I found that the negative effects from psychadelics do wear off IF one abstains from them thereafter but in my case it took a couple of years. i would get very anxious although at that time I had no idea how to deal with it. Since it DID happen when I became an opiate/opioid addict I now wonder if it might have been realted to the psychadelics, at least the psychological aspect (which when you think of it is the main componenet in addiction).

Interesting idea. As for the effortless sobriety, I have absolutely no idea what that would be ike nor care to but glad it is good for you. I guess though, it is a grudging admiration/bit of envy in that sure, I would love to be able to do that for the preferences of my loved ones although they never ever express the desire to see my abstinent since it has been already a quarter century (your whole life damn!). Still, who brags about having a "hisband, "son," "Father," "brother," or even "friend" who is a junkie? Certainly not moi so...

 

Your old Journal is not completely deleted. They will be available to download at a future date.