Welcome to Bluelight, Lee!
What is your DOC (Drug of choice) if you don't mind me asking? There's an amazing support network over on The Dark Side and everyone there has experience of some kind of the terrible effects of drug addiction and dependency, so pop on over and feel free to tell your story -- you'll find no judgement from us, just love and care.
Hope you enjoy your stay -- hope you stick around!
-OCD