New and looking for support from TDS

[Kalikeenan]

I am a 40 year old opiate and meth addict. Im on suboxone and doing well in regards to my opiate use but i need some help with not using meth. Im also struggling with mental health issues, been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder, severe anxiety, depression and a schitzoid disorder. Im also a cutter but am also doing well with regards to self harm for now. Looking for people who understand these issues and people i can talk to honestly whovdont know me and who wont judge. Thanks for listening, until next time...

 

[Moreaux]

Hi Kalikeenan and welcome to The Dark Side! I can relate to the polysubstance abuse and the cutting (38 soon to be 39 year old female). I struggled with substance abuse for 17 years, and was finally able to really get sober a couple of years ago. In my experience dealing with the mental health issues and getting them under control is the best way to deal with the substance abuse and cutting. I highly recommend finding a good psychiatrist and therapist who will work together to come up with a treatment plan, as I think you would benefit from a combination of medicinal and bahvioural therapies.

I found that the cutting came to an end when I got my mental health stabilized and stopped hitting the drugs and alcohol as hard. I haven't cut myself since being sober nor have I thought about it much aside from when I see the scars. Feel free to hit me up with questions. Stay strong - it does get better!

 

[Cdkman]

What i e learned in my poly drug addiction that im still trying to get a hold on is that the drug abuse is a symptom of a bigger problem..which in my case is dissattisfaction with my sober life and hoplessness..

u need to make your life something that u are proud of and have hobbies and activities to help fight the boredom of life

i dont really have to best advice to stop all together but im taking slow steps. Like i use weed.E.opiates.lyrica.nd stims..ive cut out weed by taking a walk with music after work because thats when i would smoke..i didnt smoke alot but its a start..also i have been selling drugs for over a decAde and working a decent job,which allowed me to spend a mortgage payment every week on drugs..i have stopped that so i cant buy enough drugs to kill an elephant..without all that extra money and still having bills it cut my use to less than half of what it was

What im tryin to say is u slowly have to make changes that gets u away from drugs.either something to do instead of drugs to getthose endorphins or delete dealers numbers/stay awY from users.u will not stop overnight but what im doin is reworking my life to get out of the drug game

 

[herbavore]

^That's all very good advice. Change usually comes slowly, so slowly that it can be imperceptible and that's why its so easy to get discouraged. Have faith that you will never stop exploring. It's a complicated thing, this life! Finding what lies deep down inside that causes us to write and rewrite the same defeating story over and over in our own minds can be terrifying but ultimately it becomes the cure for terror.