New and confused

[Iwanttobefree]

Just googled and followed the links. I am a meth addict. I was clean for 3+ years, then relapsed December 31st... no alcohol needed. I haven't been sober a day since. I'm disappointed in myself but this time feels different. I was able to quit cold turkey before and find I cannot do so this time.
I'm in a moral dilemma. I am back and forth and emotional. I just need a place to vent. Find safety, compassion, and understanding from recovering and active users.... advice is what I am looking for.
Thanks for taking the time out of your day to read this and hope to hear from someone soon.

 

[swilow]

^First off, welcome to Bluelight. You've come to the right place. I'm sorry to hear of your struggle; it is one that many of us share on this website. Take heart in knowing that many people have been able to claw their way back from the point you are at. It may feel distant or even impossible, but if you want to recover, it IS possible.

You might want to check out the recovery sections. The Dark Side is a great place to start.

Happy Bluelighting, feel free to PM me or any moderator if if you have any questions.

 

[Iwanttobefree]

Thanks for the warm welcome and the sense of direction. New to forums in general. I am really liking this so far. People have been VERY nice helpful etc.