TracyTracy
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- Sep 26, 2012
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Hello everyone, I have been reading posts on here for a very long time, and finally i decided to step in on the conversations. I am a drug attic, I got sober two years ago this month, but since then have had more then a few relapses. My drug of choice is meth. When I do meth, I don't' need coffee, food, alcohol, people, nothing... except me and a god pad a paper and pencil. I am generally a needy person, so to not need anyone or anything, is so freeing for me. I have a really hard time staying away from this stuff. Even though I have only had a couple relapses in the past couple years, the drug is IN my brain. Every time I drink I want to start dialing phone numbers of dealers. I have worked very hard to get unsafe people out of my life, but when I am buzzed, all bets are off, I just want to get HIGH. I always want more. That is really depressing to me, that I can't socially drink, I feel like I just want to be normal. i never had a drinking problem, but my drinking leads to drugs... so I can't drink.
I read some other posts on here about how long it takes for your brain to stop craving meth, but I would like to to hear some more success stories of people that successfully don't think about using. I think about it every time I am tired. I got so used to being constantly stimulated, that now that I am not, I feel inadequate. I am taking wellbutrin now, and that helped a little, but I still feel like I need more. I can't tell if there is some brain damage or maybe I was doing the meth to fill in whatever damage there already was, or what. It's all very frustrating at times. Any advice guys? I am feeling a little hopless, like I went through all the recovery classes, and changed my life completely to get off drugs and alcohol, but sometimes i Feel like I am at step one, day one, all over again.
Thanks Guys
TT
I read some other posts on here about how long it takes for your brain to stop craving meth, but I would like to to hear some more success stories of people that successfully don't think about using. I think about it every time I am tired. I got so used to being constantly stimulated, that now that I am not, I feel inadequate. I am taking wellbutrin now, and that helped a little, but I still feel like I need more. I can't tell if there is some brain damage or maybe I was doing the meth to fill in whatever damage there already was, or what. It's all very frustrating at times. Any advice guys? I am feeling a little hopless, like I went through all the recovery classes, and changed my life completely to get off drugs and alcohol, but sometimes i Feel like I am at step one, day one, all over again.
Thanks Guys
TT
