built4speed
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Jul 31, 2017
- Messages
- 6
Hi all
I used to be a member here back in 2011 when I thought I had problems. FFwd 6yrs and I didnt realise how good I had it back then ! Hindsight is a marvelous thing aye?
Ive been lurking in the shadows of the forums for a few months now and thought it was time to come out and chat to people to say thanks if nothing else for the posts that have been a great help to a troubled mind. I have been a chronic abuser of both alcohol and speed for many years. Notice I said abuser as opposed to user. It took a long time to see the difference. In my mind it was only ever abuse if it was having a negative effect on my life and it didnt - until it did-if that makes sense? I have absolutely caned the life out of my poor brain and body with extreme DAILY amounts of 40% cheap vodka and amphetamines (in any form I could get it) . ...to the point I doubt I have a drop of dopamine or serotonin left in my system.
Im now at a point where my drug of choice - amphetamine - no longer has much of an effect on me and alcohol is something I have been warned I should never have again -ever. Ive been experimenting with raising dopamine levels in order to combat depression, get a decent buzz and maybe find an alternative to speed. Who knows? Maybe I can kick this burned out brain into creating enough fuel for amphetamine to work again. My cupboards are bone dry of dopamine and a life without speed to me is like bread without butter...... dry and tasteless!! Ill be here looking deeper into effects of things like Mucuna Pruriens extract ,L-Dopa, DMAE, Tyrosine, Phenylalaline, choline...etc etc. Ive already seen that Im not the only one here suffering with a depleted system so Im sure I will get some good advice.
So far my experimentations have been hit and miss and I learned the hard way that Tyrosine triggers migraine. (only if you carry the migraine gene tho). That was a painful lesson learned!!
Look forward to getting to know you better!!
I used to be a member here back in 2011 when I thought I had problems. FFwd 6yrs and I didnt realise how good I had it back then ! Hindsight is a marvelous thing aye?
Ive been lurking in the shadows of the forums for a few months now and thought it was time to come out and chat to people to say thanks if nothing else for the posts that have been a great help to a troubled mind. I have been a chronic abuser of both alcohol and speed for many years. Notice I said abuser as opposed to user. It took a long time to see the difference. In my mind it was only ever abuse if it was having a negative effect on my life and it didnt - until it did-if that makes sense? I have absolutely caned the life out of my poor brain and body with extreme DAILY amounts of 40% cheap vodka and amphetamines (in any form I could get it) . ...to the point I doubt I have a drop of dopamine or serotonin left in my system.
Im now at a point where my drug of choice - amphetamine - no longer has much of an effect on me and alcohol is something I have been warned I should never have again -ever. Ive been experimenting with raising dopamine levels in order to combat depression, get a decent buzz and maybe find an alternative to speed. Who knows? Maybe I can kick this burned out brain into creating enough fuel for amphetamine to work again. My cupboards are bone dry of dopamine and a life without speed to me is like bread without butter...... dry and tasteless!! Ill be here looking deeper into effects of things like Mucuna Pruriens extract ,L-Dopa, DMAE, Tyrosine, Phenylalaline, choline...etc etc. Ive already seen that Im not the only one here suffering with a depleted system so Im sure I will get some good advice.
So far my experimentations have been hit and miss and I learned the hard way that Tyrosine triggers migraine. (only if you carry the migraine gene tho). That was a painful lesson learned!!
Look forward to getting to know you better!!
Yeah, I hear you about the it-was-all-good-until-it-wasn't scenario.