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Never using opiates again!

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adillonm15

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Not sure if this is the right place to post this, so mods please feel free to move it to the appropriate section.

I've used opiates very responsibly for the past two years, Mainly hydrocodone. I usually have done it once a month or even once every other month. The most I've done it is 3 times in a week.

On Tuesday, I got 10 30mg roxies, and now I am down to 2.5 pills. I told my self I would only get high once a week or once a fortnight, but I just took another 45mg 10 minutes ago, and it will be my 5th time getting high from it in less than 3 days. I like the high a lot, but I dont even like it as much as hydrocodone. Yet, I have a strong urge to take it over and over again.

I'm sure physical dependance couldn't have set it by now, so I need to make a promise to myself, that once I finish these roxies, I will never take opiates for recreational purposes again.

It just helps me a lot to say it "out loud" to you guys knowing there are people by my side. I have been given a little glimpse of addiction and am now terrified to see the whole thing. I am starting to slip down the slope and and I need to get back on top of the hill before I fall and it's too late.

It's not possible for physical dependancy to kick in that fast, is it?

Anyways, I plan on standing by my statements. I will finish off the rest of my roxies, and that will be closure of me and my experimentations with opiates.

Any advice and/or support is greatly appreciated, thank you all!
 
Good for you to have such foresight. I honeymooned with opiates for years until I found myself an abject and depraved heroin addict. It sounds like you have had some fun with opiates and are ready to quit while you are ahead. What a wise dude you must be. There are a lot of people that wish they had done what you are planning to do. I totally support your decision.

As for physical withdrawal, don't give it a second thought. You'll be fine. Good luck amigo.
 
Hey that sounds like a good plan , just remember to stick to it. Don't say stuff while opiated and feeling warm and confident. Tell your self those same things while your sober, unless you already are :p Anyways good stuff, the opiate high is definitely a nice one but it leads to nothing~!
 
You've got the right mindset, get out while you can or else you will never realize that your actually in a bad way and need to stop. That's what really catches many people out.
 
Its not even funny how quickly I became dependent my second time going back to opiates.

I told myself I was using just one time for the new year (Jan 1st 2010). Then Jan 2 came and I told myself I'm just using ONE MORE TIME to get it "out of my system" cause the night before I was around people and didn't enjoy my high like I wanted too.

3rd night came around and I told myself "I'm not using".
I swear to god I began to have moderately annoying hotflashes and anxiety after only 2 days of use. Was tired and just out of it. I used that as excuse to use a "final" third night but told myself I'd use much less and that would be my "taper". I can't believe how utterly fucking dumb I am sometimes cause of course that became my official relapse and I never stopped using like my first time around. I had an entire year clean off opiates and man I still fucking wanna cry at times for being so dumb. All that effort, all that sweat and pain to get clean, I literally threw it away over one stupid night because I took it all wayy too casually. I should have known I was a fucking drug addict but once again arrogance and cockiness has done me in.
 
I've never done opiates, but hopefully my long-term benzo use and un-use will come in handy managing it if and when I do. :O
 
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