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Negative thoughts only at the tail end of trips

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Theflemm

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About two weeks ago me and 12 of my buddies took a road trip to montreal and had a blast. On the first night i befriended a man who turned out to be very into psychedelics and sold me and 4 of my friends quite a bit of mushrooms. I consumed ~4grams, the trip was breath taking and I experienced aspects of tripping that I can't describe fully. However, during the end of my trip (roughly 6 hours in, at which time i was still tripping pretty hard) negative thoughts began to build up fairly easily and i felt extremely uncomfortable until i fell asleep about an hour later. Does anyone else feel this way on the end of their trips? I don't want to say i feel "dirty" but its almost as if the experience leaves my body "missing" something and leaves me feeling empty.
 
You can never remove your negativity...just how you respond and behave to it. Negative/positive all two sides of the same coin. You are not dirty for feeling what makes you human and nothing is missing...it's all just your mind and ego. Embrace the negative and the positive, embrace the weird and the familiar, this is what makes us colorful and amazing people.
 
My one and only psilocybin trip started out with laughter and giggling
Then it turned into the most deep thinking, weird, fucked up feeling ever, and I focused on my issues. Smoked weed as well.
The trip was harsh and sort of bad, but I knew it was just the shrooms makin me feel like this (anxiety, feelin sick etc), it helped laying down and get cozy, got my demons away
Towards the end of the trip when my mind started working again and the morphing/breathing etc ended I suddendly got super happy we have a body and brain that works so good and easy while sober.
Strange feeling.. but I definetly learned a lesson on that trip, faced some of my demons, and was ultimately refreshed after this experience, and more self aware.

This is completely opposite from what you experienced... I guess we'll never know how a psychedelic as strong as shrooms will make u react ey
 
Shrooms don't 'do' that. It's your mind. A case in point.....I have no personal experience with any of what you said....so is the the shrooms or is it your mind?
 
I fully understand that its not the mushrooms that are causing it, rather the way my mind responds to them. I'm just curious as to wether or not strong trips leave other with a sense of "emptiness". maybe its that fact that mere hours before i was thinking so clearly and differently that as i come back to earth i miss that head space. I also understand that it's not as if the mushrooms were doing damage that left me feeling that way. After sleeping i woke up with a nice after glow and began to assimilate the trip into my life, its just the first hour or so of the "come down"

itsALLfake, its not something that worries me like I'm breaking my brain by mixing substances or something. During the end of the trip i feel an almost melancholy feeling, idk maybe im just sad the trips over but theres a definite change in mindset for the worse
 
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I've never had 2 mushrooms trips the same, this may be the only time they have that particular effect on you, next time could be completely different.
 
Describe the emptiness you feel. What are the thoughts or images that are in your mind when you think of how you want to be full again?
 
When I was less experienced with psychedelics, I too, noticed that at the end of a trip I felt drained, and ... hollow.

Then I thought one day, shit, I haven't eaten anything solid in 6 hours! My ego's not empty - my stomach is.

Nothing like the itis for helping you sleep ;)
 
Well the thing that triggered it was I realized i was in a foreign country and I'm completely one my own which lead to me remembering that my calling didn't work and i couldn't speak with my mother even if I wanted to. I think it might have just been thinking of not being able to speak with her that lead to the emptiness. My disposition on psychedelics are closely tied to, oddly enough, my mom.
 
morninggloryseed said:
You can never remove your negativity...just how you respond and behave to it. Negative/positive all two sides of the same coin. You are not dirty for feeling what makes you human and nothing is missing...it's all just your mind and ego. Embrace the negative and the positive, embrace the weird and the familiar, this is what makes us colorful and amazing people.
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Theflemm said:
I fully understand that its not the mushrooms that are causing it, rather the way my mind responds to them. I'm just curious as to wether or not strong trips leave other with a sense of "emptiness". maybe its that fact that mere hours before i was thinking so clearly and differently that as i come back to earth i miss that head space. I also understand that it's not as if the mushrooms were doing damage that left me feeling that way. After sleeping i woke up with a nice after glow and began to assimilate the trip into my life, its just the first hour or so of the "come down"

itsALLfake, its not something that worries me like I'm breaking my brain by mixing substances or something. During the end of the trip i feel an almost melancholy feeling, idk maybe im just sad the trips over but theres a definite change in mindset for the worse
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At the end of my first mushroom experience, as I felt the altered state slipping away and reality coming back into place, I felt a distinct sadness. I almost felt like I had lost something very near to my heart and I would never be whole again. Part of this was because the trip was such a magical and perfect experience that I wanted to hold onto it as long as I could, but it was more than that. I felt like there was so many more things to learn, thoughts to think, and sights to see, and that I was losing my grip on something important as my mind returned to normality. Perhaps the feeling you had was something like this? Does this make sense to you?
 
You just put into words almost exactly what I was trying to express. Tripping opens pathways in my mind that I truly believe can't be accessed in any other way. Losing the ability to think like that on top of my mom (I'm a mommas boy know ;) ) being 10 hours away led to the emptiness I believe. There's nothing I love more than discussing psychedelics with people of like minds, thanks guys!
 
Theflemm said:
I fully understand that its not the mushrooms that are causing it, rather the way my mind responds to them. I'm just curious as to wether or not strong trips leave other with a sense of "emptiness". maybe its that fact that mere hours before i was thinking so clearly and differently that as i come back to earth i miss that head space. I also understand that it's not as if the mushrooms were doing damage that left me feeling that way. After sleeping i woke up with a nice after glow and began to assimilate the trip into my life, its just the first hour or so of the "come down"

itsALLfake, its not something that worries me like I'm breaking my brain by mixing substances or something. During the end of the trip i feel an almost melancholy feeling, idk maybe im just sad the trips over but theres a definite change in mindset for the worse
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I'm not asking to see your amount of concern... I'm asking about your use of other substance use due to the fact that it can have some effect to what you're experiencing.
 
sekio said:
When I was less experienced with psychedelics, I too, noticed that at the end of a trip I felt drained, and ... hollow.

Then I thought one day, shit, I haven't eaten anything solid in 6 hours! My ego's not empty - my stomach is.

Nothing like the itis for helping you sleep ;)
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Here here. Nothing like a small wholesome meal and some tea as you come to. Though maybe you were just meant to feel a little sad and empty for awhile, if you feel that way often, I recommend volunteer work and making things in your off hours..
 
the second time i ever used mushrooms was with two friends. we were home alone and for hours were having a great trip full of awesome thoughts and watching old Simpsons cartoons (very trippy and awesome, btw). anyways, soon enough my mom calls and asks hows everything, if anyone's over, etc. so i say yeah T and D are. she doesn't know them and says they have to leave. by now were coming down and they feel they can go home safely anyways so they leave. what followed next was an intense feeling of loneliness and depression that lasted until i was completely sober and slept for a few hours. so i know what you mean by that feeling of unhappiness at the end of a trip.
 
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