
first day of 2016 and I need some help. Only 6 1/2 hours in. I am a recovered opiate addict and smoke a joint daily. Aside from that, I smoke meth maybe twice a month. My reason isn't an excuse, not like I think I am being judged here because then why bother. This is just the way shit is right now. I know there are daily meth users out there who may think this is stupid, but it seriously fucks with my psyche that I cannot stay away from meth, could using it so casually have it affect my overall levels of happy brain chemicals? Because they ain't happy right now one bit. My opiate habit indicates I may prefer downers and that's true. But over the course of time I think I have obtained a trash can junkie attitude. That is, if there is dope in front of me, aside from opiates, I tend to do them. But I do not seek them, I am new to where I currently live and one guy I befriended smokes the shit. So, he stops in unannounced every 2 weeks and it does not take much to amp me up to where I stay awake for close to 72 hours. Truthfully, we chill out, he leaves and then I am left alone, HIGH, and with nothing but the comedown to anticipate. And it doesn't come. WHAT helps with this comedown? I have a script for 2 mg clonazepam (klonopin) but don't want to fall short by over compensating with them at the end of the month and go through that misery. So aside from the allowed 4mgs of clonazepam a day, I get scripts for seroquel and Epival (anti-epileptic that helps with anxiety and stabilizing mood). Do these help? And if yes, how much would be adequate? I don't want to take them needlessly but I know what I am in for and the weed does NOT help, it can give me a panic attack. I just feel totally spun, no one to talk to, and not liking this one bit. No more of this for me, it stresses me out. I have already told him no more of the meth, don't come around. But I don't want to go through another 48 hours right now feeling this way....

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