Axolotl010
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Hi, i know this website for a while and i always find answers but this time i need some more personal advice to help me get ridd off my midazolam IV addiction. Sorry i know this is a long post but as nobody knows me i belive i need to introduce at least a little bit my drug habits in order to get a better answer!!
So my problems with drugs started long ago but nothing fucked my life more than those delicious hydros i use to get while living in Canada. Cause of them and other small legals problens i got jailed a few weeks and then deported back to switzerland.
I got lucky cause the summer i got deported to switzerland they where just starting to give addicts a new 24h slow relase morphine sulfate gel caps wish worked fine
The problem is that i wasnt following the treatment and i was shooting most of them and they have some sort of wax that was hurting a lot my veins and i guess my body. (So to any swiss reader dont f..cking IV the Sevre longs even micron filters dont take the wax away)
Where i was living there was no heroin program so i decided to move to a smaller city where there is such famous swiss program wish has helped me a lot and right now i get 200mg IV or IM in the morning + 360mg of those morfs (i take them IV at home ) and in the afternoon i get the exact same amount
i would say my opiate problems are in good hands and tbh with you guys once you get all the opiates you need for free your life completly change and the worst addiction there is turns into a health issue!
But as i said my opiate problem is in good hand but , i still have a huuge problem that is f..ucking my life and i cant stop it and i need help from people who have lots of experiences with benzos and hypnotics.
I have been doing benzos since i was 14 , i remember back then i use to steal some drops of my moms rivotril or my grandad oxazepam, but i was never really hooked into them until i came back to switzerland and meet those delicious blue pills called Dormicum 15mg and in less than a month i was doing 10 of them a day, always same ritual : spoon , some citric acid to get a ph under 4 , filter and bang... then all my problems where no problems and all my sadness and depression was away and i use to sleep or be in a sleeping -dreaming mode all day long
My drs where aware of that problem but the clinics that give opiates have a no dormicums policy and i cant go see a Dr to get them cause i would get kicked out of the heroin program for seeing another DR
So my problem is that im completly hooked on those midazolams, ive managed to reduce my consomption from 150mg to 30mg a day usually one in the morning early afternoon and one before bed wish is great but not enough!!. This pills are "very expensive" but the cost cant be compared to a (coke, meth or dope habit)
i know i cant give prices here but half my food weekly budget goes into that and thats the cash i should be using to go.out, meet girls or have fun!!
.
So, my Drs are aware of that problem but refused to give me midazolam but to prevent withdrawls i get 6mg of Xanax a day and to help me sleep i get 16mg of ambien (zolpidem) wish do works, specially those days i cant find a dormicum i can still sleep but the next day i will look for them like crazy. By now the longer i managed to stop has been 36h
Right now like today i got a blister of 10 roofies but i just took 2mg and i dont feel much, last time it took me 4mg to feel some sort of nice feeling and roofies are supposed to be forbidden here only a few Old dudes can still get them and they have special ultra secured prescriptions so i can only get a blister once a month and they cost half the price of midazolams. So even roofies dont take away midazolam addiction and only few people lrefers them
im gonna see my Dr soon and i have been taking 6 mg of xanax for more than 3 years now and i dont feel nothing when i take them but i do feel like shit when i forgot to take them sometimes i wake up in the middle of the night wondering why i feel like crap and i remember i didnt took my xanax.
So my Dr is very open minded about trying other benzos, we have discusses Clonazepam, she said it was ok. Ativan should also be Ok , clorazepate too wish means i can pretty much get any benzo i want as long as they are not "strong hyptnotics or barbiturates. i alredy asked for triazolam (halcion) she said no but i can still try again but i have very very little hope (temazepam is not available here and ive tried it alredy a relative sent me a few bottles from France and i dont remember them doing the trick, actually they where so sweet they tasted like candys and inate them like candys)
So my question is , Do you guys think there is some sort of "exotic" benzo that could maybe help me ? A benzo that is available here in switzerland , some of those benzos that are very uncommun and Drs dont even know about sometimes!
I really need to stop my midazolam addiction i know i wont be able to IV any other benzo but even if i cant stop midazolam wish "classic" benzo should i ask to my Dr to replace 6mg of Xanax?
Thanks in advance for your advices!!
So my problems with drugs started long ago but nothing fucked my life more than those delicious hydros i use to get while living in Canada. Cause of them and other small legals problens i got jailed a few weeks and then deported back to switzerland.
I got lucky cause the summer i got deported to switzerland they where just starting to give addicts a new 24h slow relase morphine sulfate gel caps wish worked fine
The problem is that i wasnt following the treatment and i was shooting most of them and they have some sort of wax that was hurting a lot my veins and i guess my body. (So to any swiss reader dont f..cking IV the Sevre longs even micron filters dont take the wax away)
Where i was living there was no heroin program so i decided to move to a smaller city where there is such famous swiss program wish has helped me a lot and right now i get 200mg IV or IM in the morning + 360mg of those morfs (i take them IV at home ) and in the afternoon i get the exact same amount
i would say my opiate problems are in good hands and tbh with you guys once you get all the opiates you need for free your life completly change and the worst addiction there is turns into a health issue!
But as i said my opiate problem is in good hand but , i still have a huuge problem that is f..ucking my life and i cant stop it and i need help from people who have lots of experiences with benzos and hypnotics.
I have been doing benzos since i was 14 , i remember back then i use to steal some drops of my moms rivotril or my grandad oxazepam, but i was never really hooked into them until i came back to switzerland and meet those delicious blue pills called Dormicum 15mg and in less than a month i was doing 10 of them a day, always same ritual : spoon , some citric acid to get a ph under 4 , filter and bang... then all my problems where no problems and all my sadness and depression was away and i use to sleep or be in a sleeping -dreaming mode all day long
My drs where aware of that problem but the clinics that give opiates have a no dormicums policy and i cant go see a Dr to get them cause i would get kicked out of the heroin program for seeing another DR
So my problem is that im completly hooked on those midazolams, ive managed to reduce my consomption from 150mg to 30mg a day usually one in the morning early afternoon and one before bed wish is great but not enough!!. This pills are "very expensive" but the cost cant be compared to a (coke, meth or dope habit)
i know i cant give prices here but half my food weekly budget goes into that and thats the cash i should be using to go.out, meet girls or have fun!!
.
So, my Drs are aware of that problem but refused to give me midazolam but to prevent withdrawls i get 6mg of Xanax a day and to help me sleep i get 16mg of ambien (zolpidem) wish do works, specially those days i cant find a dormicum i can still sleep but the next day i will look for them like crazy. By now the longer i managed to stop has been 36h
Right now like today i got a blister of 10 roofies but i just took 2mg and i dont feel much, last time it took me 4mg to feel some sort of nice feeling and roofies are supposed to be forbidden here only a few Old dudes can still get them and they have special ultra secured prescriptions so i can only get a blister once a month and they cost half the price of midazolams. So even roofies dont take away midazolam addiction and only few people lrefers them
im gonna see my Dr soon and i have been taking 6 mg of xanax for more than 3 years now and i dont feel nothing when i take them but i do feel like shit when i forgot to take them sometimes i wake up in the middle of the night wondering why i feel like crap and i remember i didnt took my xanax.
So my Dr is very open minded about trying other benzos, we have discusses Clonazepam, she said it was ok. Ativan should also be Ok , clorazepate too wish means i can pretty much get any benzo i want as long as they are not "strong hyptnotics or barbiturates. i alredy asked for triazolam (halcion) she said no but i can still try again but i have very very little hope (temazepam is not available here and ive tried it alredy a relative sent me a few bottles from France and i dont remember them doing the trick, actually they where so sweet they tasted like candys and inate them like candys)
So my question is , Do you guys think there is some sort of "exotic" benzo that could maybe help me ? A benzo that is available here in switzerland , some of those benzos that are very uncommun and Drs dont even know about sometimes!
I really need to stop my midazolam addiction i know i wont be able to IV any other benzo but even if i cant stop midazolam wish "classic" benzo should i ask to my Dr to replace 6mg of Xanax?
Thanks in advance for your advices!!