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RobbyG

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I went to my first massive this past weekend and rolled for the first time in 6 months. Probably the best time of my life... But at the same time I almost wish I didn't go.

Warning: I have horrible a.d.d so this is going to be an unorganized post.

After my last relationship two years ago, I have a very very particular taste, I will not date a girl unless Im actually really really in to her.
This being said I have not found one girl that I would date in two years.

Sure, I have sex all the time with beautiful girls but they just don't interest me. Anyways to the point.

I'm at this massive g'd up from the fuckin feet up and on 7mg Xanax.
That wares off so my friends and I all pop 2 tabs. Like 45 minutes later I meet this girl outside and we talk, it's obvious we're both attracted to each other.
We're basically attached at the hip the whole night, she was rolling as well.

I'm just gonna cut straight to the point, this girl was fucking beautiful, she just recently moved 3 hours away, she used to live in the same city as me, knows a lot of the same people. she's moving to cali may 1st so obviously it wont work.

First girl I've liked in two years, she's Been on my mind all day since the massive and I don't know what to do. I had such an amazing time with her that night, all I can think of is being with her and how much fun we were having.

But it wont work, how the fuck do I get her out of my head. She's been texting me ever since and that doesn't make it better at all.

Basically I haven't had these kind of feelings in such a long time, I finally get them and remember what it's like and I love it. we would be a great couple, but it can't happen in reality.

Fuck! You can probably tell I've got some wicked a.d.d by this post. Anyone have any similar experiences like this one?
 
seems like chemistry is present even aftet the roll wore off... that's gotta be something to consider... We are animals roaming the earth and who knows you may have just found your roaming partner. Why not embrace it or try it out to see? foreclosing on the option certainly will only lead to regret!
 
Lol I'm fucked reguardless she's moving to cali may 1st.
That's why it's so hard for me, i finally found a girl I really clicked with and she's into me but things can't work out
 
Yup I'm almost back to my normal mindstate, it just doesn't help that she texts me and shit saying she wishes I was with her. Fuck it
 
Tough pill to swallow but if it's not gonna work, nothing you can do but try to find another hoe.

And fyi I know how your feeling kinda, found the perfect girl and shes off to uni at the opposite end of the country. -.- sucks bro <3
 
RobbyG said:
Yup I'm almost back to my normal mindstate, it just doesn't help that she texts me and shit saying she wishes I was with her. Fuck it
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Depending on how you feel... My question is why not follow her? You've got dynamite weed and Molly in Cali, you've got great weather, awesome beeches, killer nightclubs... what more could you ask?

And even if doesn't end up working out... who the fuck cares, you're in Califor-nye-yay!

Either that or see if you could visit once in a while or something. Not sure how far away you are but summer's coming around... maybe you could roadtrip down and spend some time... A friend of mine did that and he was from Montreal. He lives in LA now.

...Just saying.
 
socalthizzn said:
^ well said.



Imo chemical feelings are a bitch, wait it out a month and see how she gets. If she doesnt fall off the its obvious u got a good one :)
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^this, i've met many a chick i've had major crushes on in the few weeks after rolling but it'll subside. and shit you may even figure out you guys have no chemistry what so ever and you were just geeked lol.
 
OGKooosh said:
^this, i've met many a chick i've had major crushes on in the few weeks after rolling but it'll subside. and shit you may even figure out you guys have no chemistry what so ever and you were just geeked lol.
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Lmao it's different with this one, usually I'm just geeked trying to fuck, I didn't even attempt with this one. We clicked, but I'm good now, I got enough sleep so I'm not being a little pussy anymore.

And to the guy that was talking about going out there with her, cali goes hard as fuck but you'll never catch me chasin pussy like that! Not unless it's a rich bitch!
 
Chill with her sometime when you aren't rolling. See if the attraction is still there. If it is, then you've got to figure something out. If it isn't, you won't be too upset that she's moving. :)
 
Lol it's all good now, I look back on this post to remind me of why I won't roll anymore. I had the greatest time of my life that night and I'll leave it at that. I'm not into the chemical off balance the MDMA creates. Ill stick To my g
 
good god. you are my brother from another mother.

like seriously.

im in a similar sticky situation.

and my emotions, moods and thoughts are totally fucked, while i wont blame MDMA as the sole culprit, ive always been a bit nuts emotions wise, but it is most certainly a huge contributing factor in my notorious mood swings.
 
Why wont it work? Why not give it a go as its obvious you both feel something for each other.

If not then just message her asap, let her know that your not interested and then you will both be able to move on.
 
Maybe it won't work for her in cali and she'll come back to our hometown; in my dreams /:
 
dude, she moved 3 hours away. When I met my current SO he was about to move to the other side of the globe in a few months. He did and I wanted for him.

Anything is possible if you really care about this one.
 
^^ I hear ya. I'm glad that I had this experience though. I used to be a cold hearted ass hole. But after being with her that night I guess my "true" side came out. Now I'm all nice and shit again like I used to be.

I also used to not think things happened for a reason, but after that night I now believe things do happen for a reason. If it's meant to be things won't work out in cali and she'll end up with me:)

What pisses me off the most is shes "running away" from her problems, but I'd take care of her ass, shed never have to work. I make 8grand a month from g. But fuck it, guess I'll wait another two years to meet a girl worth a fuck
 
that happens to a lot of people when you have a good roll. you guys vibe perfectly together and everything seems perfect. but the reality of it is that your mental state was altered when you guys met and the mdma probably is what made you fall for this girl. my advice, get to know her and see if she really is the girl you think she is. i've had the same thing after a good roll...cant get the girl out of my mind for weeks, but i later realized it was just the xtc. and a quick question...why in the world would you go to a massive on 7 mgs of xanax? thats 3 and a half bars...way too much...especially for being at a massive
 
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