96ghost
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Hey,
I'm not sure where to put this since I'm new to this forum. Anyways I'm 25 years old male and I've been using/abusing Benzodiazepines on and off since early 2017 when I was only 20. I also abused the z-drug zoplicone for a while but haven't touched it since 2018. The benzos I used the most was oxazepam but I've also used quite a bit of diazepam. I've dabbled a bit in other benzos as well but not enough to be consindered problematic use.
I also have a bit of drinking problem but never been addicted physically to alcohol as I would only drink once a week but when I drank I would often drink till I blacked out.
Anyways I initially got clean of benzos the first late august 2017. Then relapsed again december 2017. Got clean for a short period in November 2018 but relapsed just weeks after and then got clean in late january 2020 was clean till around may-june 2020. Then I got clean in April 2021.
So I've been through multiple withdrawals already unfournately. But both of my last withdrawals were pretty smooth actually due to slow tapering and I managed to cure my chronic insomnia that was terrible during my first 2 withdrawals when I didn't taper it correctly.
Now to the point of why I'm making this thread in mid June 2021 2 months after not touching benzos at all I suffered a severe panic attack and took a small dose of oxazepam only 10mg as a rescue dose. This was not a problem but....
Weeks later in July I was having some personal problems, and ended up going through a lot of stress and existential crisis and severe anxiety so I started to take benzos again but this time only once a week. Prior when I had my problems I would usually take them everyday...
I don't remember exactly for how long but I think I've been taking benzos once a week for approximately 7 or 8 weeks now. The first few weeks it was only oxazepam in relatively low dosages usually 15-30 mg with execption of 40-45 mg one day. But the last 3-4 weeks I've been taking diazepam. It's been dosages ranging from 10-40mg until last friday when I fucked up and took 50mg the highest dosage of benzos I've taken in a long time.
But I've been spreading my dosages out and made sure to never take more than 1 dose a week. Anyways now I'm still a bit scared about getting withdrawals and possibly seizures due to my past history with benzos and PAWS. If I had never had been addicted to them in the first place I obviously wouldn't be scared but consindering that diazepams half life is pretty strong would I be in risk even tho Ive spread out dosages 7 days apart?
I want to stop taking benzos all togheter for a really long time hopefully forever, but I'm not sure if it's safe for me to just quit them or if I have to reinstate a very low dose and taper it off slowly again due to possible kindling?
I already suffered some kindling in this process but believe me or not wasn't from the benzos but alcohol. After a heavy nights of drinking in the beginning of august my sleep quality immidetaly worse.
Anyways sorry for the rambling. You think it's ok for me to quit cold turkey since Ive only been using once a week lately? Or should I have to taper due to my past history with the drug? I don't really feel too many symptoms compared to before execpt for worse sleep quality and worse anxiety at times.
I'm not sure where to put this since I'm new to this forum. Anyways I'm 25 years old male and I've been using/abusing Benzodiazepines on and off since early 2017 when I was only 20. I also abused the z-drug zoplicone for a while but haven't touched it since 2018. The benzos I used the most was oxazepam but I've also used quite a bit of diazepam. I've dabbled a bit in other benzos as well but not enough to be consindered problematic use.
I also have a bit of drinking problem but never been addicted physically to alcohol as I would only drink once a week but when I drank I would often drink till I blacked out.
Anyways I initially got clean of benzos the first late august 2017. Then relapsed again december 2017. Got clean for a short period in November 2018 but relapsed just weeks after and then got clean in late january 2020 was clean till around may-june 2020. Then I got clean in April 2021.
So I've been through multiple withdrawals already unfournately. But both of my last withdrawals were pretty smooth actually due to slow tapering and I managed to cure my chronic insomnia that was terrible during my first 2 withdrawals when I didn't taper it correctly.
Now to the point of why I'm making this thread in mid June 2021 2 months after not touching benzos at all I suffered a severe panic attack and took a small dose of oxazepam only 10mg as a rescue dose. This was not a problem but....
Weeks later in July I was having some personal problems, and ended up going through a lot of stress and existential crisis and severe anxiety so I started to take benzos again but this time only once a week. Prior when I had my problems I would usually take them everyday...
I don't remember exactly for how long but I think I've been taking benzos once a week for approximately 7 or 8 weeks now. The first few weeks it was only oxazepam in relatively low dosages usually 15-30 mg with execption of 40-45 mg one day. But the last 3-4 weeks I've been taking diazepam. It's been dosages ranging from 10-40mg until last friday when I fucked up and took 50mg the highest dosage of benzos I've taken in a long time.
But I've been spreading my dosages out and made sure to never take more than 1 dose a week. Anyways now I'm still a bit scared about getting withdrawals and possibly seizures due to my past history with benzos and PAWS. If I had never had been addicted to them in the first place I obviously wouldn't be scared but consindering that diazepams half life is pretty strong would I be in risk even tho Ive spread out dosages 7 days apart?
I want to stop taking benzos all togheter for a really long time hopefully forever, but I'm not sure if it's safe for me to just quit them or if I have to reinstate a very low dose and taper it off slowly again due to possible kindling?
I already suffered some kindling in this process but believe me or not wasn't from the benzos but alcohol. After a heavy nights of drinking in the beginning of august my sleep quality immidetaly worse.
Anyways sorry for the rambling. You think it's ok for me to quit cold turkey since Ive only been using once a week lately? Or should I have to taper due to my past history with the drug? I don't really feel too many symptoms compared to before execpt for worse sleep quality and worse anxiety at times.