Want to say hi everyone, I've been on these forums loads and thought I would join and see if anyone could offer any advice, possibly who went through similar experiences, I want to make this as short as possible so I'll just get to the point.
I started smoking spice around 4 months ago in April, I smoked it n very small doses and had fine effects with occasional panic attacks but they were short lived but were very odd, I smoked it nightly and it wasn't until the last few days I had these panic attacks. The last time I smoked it was when I made a big joint of it and smoked it all to myself. Suddenly after about 5 minutes I had a horrific full blown panic attack; my heart was beating so fast I thought It would explode. I was sweating, shaking and it just felt like my nerves in my chest were being pulled and scraped with a knife, it was a horrible feeling kind of like I was in hell. I called the emergency services thinking I was having a heart attack and they took me to hospital. Ecg, blood pressure, blood tests all came back fine. The ordeal lasted for hours and it just kept feeling I was going to die, I was given a diazepam and I calmed down and went home.
I felt better the next day, but I did something really stupid. I have this supersize match box that was full of tobacco, I used it to make joints over and I didn't think at the time but I made a roll up cigarette. I started to smoke it and after just one hit I tasted the spice in it again and suddenly from there I relived the whole ordeal, but much worse this time. To my shame I went back to the hospital and had all the same tests done ect.. I don't think it helped that during the ordeal I was googling about spice and it came up with so many horrific stories. It was horrible and embarrassing, but was released after 6 hours.
For weeks after, I suffered from all kinds of problems and symptoms. Mainly just a intense, crippling anxiety feeling and I mean really bad, dooming anxiety feeling. Severe head pressures, ear ringing and pain, throat pain, weird twisting pain in my feet, strange but intense jolts as soon as I fall asleep, like my brain is dying instead of going to sleep and I get a electric shock in my head. Also just very strange feelings and sensations going trough my body which are very hard to explain but feel like I'm going to have a seizure.
I've been to the doctors many times abut these problems and they all put it down to anxiety and my doctor at this point just treated me like a nutcase.
After 4 weeks, the symptoms started to subside and I felt a bit better, like I was healing. I still had symptoms but the dooming anxiety feeling had reduced and felt better in general.
After 6 weeks, I felt like I was getting back to be myself, but I still had general anxiety. I went for a night out and was at a small party. People there were doing speed. I decided maybe I should try a bit and thought I would be alright since I am a experience recreational drug user and never had problems off stimulants, not really speed but many othr stimulants I had really god experiences off and thought it's time to move on from the bad ordeal I had.
I was taking it through the night as well as drinking vodka. I was having a good time and I was having a good effect of the speed. My stupidity was that I kept taking more and more of it and eventually my good night took a 180 and I had a horrible reaction like I overdosed. I had crushing chest pain and spasms, my heart rate was through the roof and I was sweating convulsing like crazy, it seriously felt I was having a heart attack again and a slow death. I went to the emergency room again ad it turned out everything was alright with my heart ect. which I found unbelievable due to the horrific pain I was having.
Anyways that was 2 months ago. To this day I still have horrible symptoms that plague me everyday. Heart palpitations, chest pains, off balance when I walk like I'm going to fall, jolts when I fall asleep. crippling anxiety that is actually painful in my chest, kind of like I have damaged nerves, period of depersonalisation where I just look at people and things and wonder if they're actual real. It feels like I'm going crazy and I'm getting psychosis. I feel so anxious in all parts of my body like my throat, ears, head, fingers ect.
I just want to know do any of you think I've done permanent damage to my brain/ nerves? Is this every going to wear off or is it just going to get worse? Sometimes are better than others but literally everyday I have these symptoms to some degree and they're intense and ruining my life. Doctors don't say much, they just offer pills, but many of them I can't take for other reasons. I'm worried because I start University in 2 months and I don't want to be a wreck. I don't touch any drugs or alcohol anymore, I don't even drink coffee because I get panic attacks. I just feel like I've done permanent damage and my brain receptors are burnt out or something?
Can anyone help?? Sorry for the long post, I just need some advice please and would much appreciate any responses..
I started smoking spice around 4 months ago in April, I smoked it n very small doses and had fine effects with occasional panic attacks but they were short lived but were very odd, I smoked it nightly and it wasn't until the last few days I had these panic attacks. The last time I smoked it was when I made a big joint of it and smoked it all to myself. Suddenly after about 5 minutes I had a horrific full blown panic attack; my heart was beating so fast I thought It would explode. I was sweating, shaking and it just felt like my nerves in my chest were being pulled and scraped with a knife, it was a horrible feeling kind of like I was in hell. I called the emergency services thinking I was having a heart attack and they took me to hospital. Ecg, blood pressure, blood tests all came back fine. The ordeal lasted for hours and it just kept feeling I was going to die, I was given a diazepam and I calmed down and went home.
I felt better the next day, but I did something really stupid. I have this supersize match box that was full of tobacco, I used it to make joints over and I didn't think at the time but I made a roll up cigarette. I started to smoke it and after just one hit I tasted the spice in it again and suddenly from there I relived the whole ordeal, but much worse this time. To my shame I went back to the hospital and had all the same tests done ect.. I don't think it helped that during the ordeal I was googling about spice and it came up with so many horrific stories. It was horrible and embarrassing, but was released after 6 hours.
For weeks after, I suffered from all kinds of problems and symptoms. Mainly just a intense, crippling anxiety feeling and I mean really bad, dooming anxiety feeling. Severe head pressures, ear ringing and pain, throat pain, weird twisting pain in my feet, strange but intense jolts as soon as I fall asleep, like my brain is dying instead of going to sleep and I get a electric shock in my head. Also just very strange feelings and sensations going trough my body which are very hard to explain but feel like I'm going to have a seizure.
I've been to the doctors many times abut these problems and they all put it down to anxiety and my doctor at this point just treated me like a nutcase.
After 4 weeks, the symptoms started to subside and I felt a bit better, like I was healing. I still had symptoms but the dooming anxiety feeling had reduced and felt better in general.
After 6 weeks, I felt like I was getting back to be myself, but I still had general anxiety. I went for a night out and was at a small party. People there were doing speed. I decided maybe I should try a bit and thought I would be alright since I am a experience recreational drug user and never had problems off stimulants, not really speed but many othr stimulants I had really god experiences off and thought it's time to move on from the bad ordeal I had.
I was taking it through the night as well as drinking vodka. I was having a good time and I was having a good effect of the speed. My stupidity was that I kept taking more and more of it and eventually my good night took a 180 and I had a horrible reaction like I overdosed. I had crushing chest pain and spasms, my heart rate was through the roof and I was sweating convulsing like crazy, it seriously felt I was having a heart attack again and a slow death. I went to the emergency room again ad it turned out everything was alright with my heart ect. which I found unbelievable due to the horrific pain I was having.
Anyways that was 2 months ago. To this day I still have horrible symptoms that plague me everyday. Heart palpitations, chest pains, off balance when I walk like I'm going to fall, jolts when I fall asleep. crippling anxiety that is actually painful in my chest, kind of like I have damaged nerves, period of depersonalisation where I just look at people and things and wonder if they're actual real. It feels like I'm going crazy and I'm getting psychosis. I feel so anxious in all parts of my body like my throat, ears, head, fingers ect.
I just want to know do any of you think I've done permanent damage to my brain/ nerves? Is this every going to wear off or is it just going to get worse? Sometimes are better than others but literally everyday I have these symptoms to some degree and they're intense and ruining my life. Doctors don't say much, they just offer pills, but many of them I can't take for other reasons. I'm worried because I start University in 2 months and I don't want to be a wreck. I don't touch any drugs or alcohol anymore, I don't even drink coffee because I get panic attacks. I just feel like I've done permanent damage and my brain receptors are burnt out or something?
Can anyone help?? Sorry for the long post, I just need some advice please and would much appreciate any responses..
