Rio Fantastic
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Thank you :')
Thank you x 10000. This is all very good and encouraging device and I feel much more empowered to do this after posting here. Youre completely right about this being mostly a psychological battle. certainly feels that that way. My boyfriend is going to do it alongside me. He doesn't use them nearly as much as I do and they are actually in the house for other reasons. Hopefully I can start kicking it in the ass tomorrow !!!!
It's generally accepted and my personal experience aligns entirely with the advice that it's a really bad idea to try and detox at the same time as someone else, especially a partner. You can feed off each other's moments of weakness and if one of you break then you probably both will. Bear in mind when you're in WD a part of your brain is going to be panicking and looking for reasons to score and an excellent reason is "If he is going to then so am I!". I'd highly recommend doing it separately.
You sound like you have a plan that you're about to put in place, and that's wonderful. Plan for what you're going to do when you feel shitty. Make it as exact & specific as possible - have you decided on if you're going to taper or CT?? In either case, it's a good idea to not have the pills on hand for when the discomfort starts. If you're going CT then I'd suggest flushing them or giving them all to someone, and if you're tapering explain the situation to somebody and have them dole out only the pre-agreed amount of pills. Trying to detox and intentionally put yourself through discomfort with the cure right on hand would take an insane amount of willpower and you want to make this process as easy as possible. As has been mentioned, hot showers are immensely helpful. If you can get any gabapentin or pregablin then I can't suggest it enough for relieving withdrawal symptoms. Since you struggle with anxiety benzos are probably not a good idea, but gabapentinoids work just as well for me.
Remember that you can do this! You can leave this poison behind forever and not have it dragged you down. You certainly cannot go to law school when your habit gets bad enough, but that's the least of what's to come if you continue on this path. For me and many, many others we left behind our jobs, careers, friends, family, self-respect and even the roof over our heads to keep jumping into the embrace of the substances that's ruining our lives and killing us. You can avoid all that misery by putting it down now! Then you can look back and saw that you had your little dance with the devil before you told it to fuck off and decided you were worth more than that!!
Good luck! Keep us updated. You may not have the energy or motivation to post here, but if you force yourself it can make you feel better!