furthurgone
Greenlighter
Not sure where this post belongs so I did it here and under psychadelic forms
So you always hear that the landing of a trip and integrating the trip is very important. Right now I feel as if I am lost between fantasy and reality, not knowing what is what (to be honest I kind of like it).
But about 3 years ago I took acid and mushrooms, had the time of my life, left this dimension, and ran around naked. I kept yelling to my friends "no one cares what you do, do what you want, check me out im fucking naked!!!"
The next day as my ego grew back I felt embarrassed, and never fully integrated the trip. Things have been kinda shitty for 3 years, but also good, and getting better and better.
However, the other day i smoked a joint with my brother and two dudes in some parking lot by the hotel room. I got INSANELY high and last thing I rememeber hearing is some random dude mentioning people losing their shit on trips and getting lost or something. I thought, "Am i lost, whats wrong with me?"
I immediately got tunnel vision and somehow stumbled to the hotel room, I felt like I was having a bad trip or something (which was really weird cause it was just weed). I got to the hotel room and didn't have my key, to me this felt like the end of the world. I got on my knees and nearly cried about how much I needed to get in there. Apparently I fainted after that (I think it was a panic attack), and woke up in the hotel hallway look woooaahhhhh I should not be doing this. So i found a chair and waited for my brother to get back, he came back soon and was like, "dude you are ghostly pale, you look like death."
To which I replied, "just get me in the room." We went in the room and I laid down and instantly felt better, and began to enjoy my high. My brother even said he could instantly see the color coming back to my face.
Anyways, I think this stems from me not integrating that last trip, do I need to trip again? What do I need to do to not feel *lost* anymore. Any similar experiences where you conquered your fear? Please let me know if you have advice, thanks for reading.
So you always hear that the landing of a trip and integrating the trip is very important. Right now I feel as if I am lost between fantasy and reality, not knowing what is what (to be honest I kind of like it).
But about 3 years ago I took acid and mushrooms, had the time of my life, left this dimension, and ran around naked. I kept yelling to my friends "no one cares what you do, do what you want, check me out im fucking naked!!!"
The next day as my ego grew back I felt embarrassed, and never fully integrated the trip. Things have been kinda shitty for 3 years, but also good, and getting better and better.
However, the other day i smoked a joint with my brother and two dudes in some parking lot by the hotel room. I got INSANELY high and last thing I rememeber hearing is some random dude mentioning people losing their shit on trips and getting lost or something. I thought, "Am i lost, whats wrong with me?"
I immediately got tunnel vision and somehow stumbled to the hotel room, I felt like I was having a bad trip or something (which was really weird cause it was just weed). I got to the hotel room and didn't have my key, to me this felt like the end of the world. I got on my knees and nearly cried about how much I needed to get in there. Apparently I fainted after that (I think it was a panic attack), and woke up in the hotel hallway look woooaahhhhh I should not be doing this. So i found a chair and waited for my brother to get back, he came back soon and was like, "dude you are ghostly pale, you look like death."
To which I replied, "just get me in the room." We went in the room and I laid down and instantly felt better, and began to enjoy my high. My brother even said he could instantly see the color coming back to my face.
Anyways, I think this stems from me not integrating that last trip, do I need to trip again? What do I need to do to not feel *lost* anymore. Any similar experiences where you conquered your fear? Please let me know if you have advice, thanks for reading.
