Tyler, Im definately working on it.
Hey Mac, I think maybe I should do that. I was going to take the kids to the park today and I hurt so much. We had a problem here with the air conditioner leaking, so the park is getting post phoned for a day, and I admit, Im happy. Hate to say it, but I hurt a lot and cant imagine trying to keep up with my daughters. Something's gotta give, because once the percs are gone totally from my life, my pain will just increase....
OMG, I COMPLETELY understand what your'e going through with the kids. Before I found my current MD, I would spend most of my days on the sofa, in pain and guilt ridden because I thought I was a bad mother...I DREADED any physical activity with her. Then it got to the point where I dreaded any time with her due to my ever-worsening depression and pain I couldn't hide anymore.
PLEASE, don't listen to the ONE Doctor who is telling you all opioids will worsen your depression, therefore, poof!...no opioids!
YOU alone know your pain. You alone can answer the question, "Do I need something as strong as these drugs?".
DO NOT feel guilty, or let him/her make you question yourself or your pain level, or make you feel like a "drug seeker".
I'm sorry for all the caps, and for the rant.It's just that I went through that stuff for a long time, and thank God it's finally come to an end.
Give your Dr the benefit of the doubt, if you want to. Make another face to face appointment and ask him what we talked about;explain how truly bad your pain is, and please don't hold back for fear of sounding dramatic. I found writing a letter helps. That way I can read it, say what I wanted to say without walking out saying, "Dammit, I forgot to mention X".
Then, if need be, get a second opinion. Your'e Taking the steps necessary to find out what's really going on with a test and everything. It's not like you're raising red flags by refusing tests and labwork.
BTW, I have depression as well, and my MD is aware of it. I know I mentioned that some opiates definitely made it worse....but after many trials, I've found the right things for me.
Believe in yourself and don't give up.