So ive been on and off subs for the past 8 years. this most recent time has been about 14 months and i'm ready to quit. I do not have enough to properly taper, but that isnt my concern. my concern is that ive been on the subs in secret. my friends, family, and roommate all have no idea i've been taking them and have been under the impression that i've been %100 clean, and it would kill them to know that i went back on subs. I can accept/handle the wd, but i really need a good excuse for why i'm going to be so sick for so long. All i can think is tell them its the flu, but the flu wouldnt kick my ass for weeks on end...not to mention wouldnt give me anxiety/insomnia/restless leg syndrome/etc. i realize the easiest answer/right thing to do would be to just come clean with them, but id prefer to bear this burden alone and keep it to myself. any ideas would be greatly appreciated!