Thoughts Nasty green normalcy

[SotPoker1012]

Nasty green normalcy.
I don't know why you've turned on me.
It was really me that changed.
Probably.
Filthy fleshy genetic computer.

Nasty green normalcy.
I crave you more than anything.
Yet you've stabbed me in the heart one too many times.
I truly wouldn't mind, but there's somebody that needs me a lot more than I need you.

Nasty green normalcy.
Thanks for making life bearable.
I don't yet understand why we have to part.
But I'll have to find my own normalcy from now on.

Goodbye for now, nasty green normalcy.

(Some thoughts about kratom)

 

[BK38]

My romance with Kratom will have to end soon too I think. I have to take ridiculous doses often, just to get to base level. I'm enslaved by it to a degree and I want to cast off these green shackles.

 

[SotPoker1012]

My romance with Kratom will have to end soon too I think. I have to take ridiculous doses often, just to get to base level. I'm enslaved by it to a degree and I want to cast off these green shackles.

That was me a few months ago. I was taking 20-30 grams at once. Upwards of 40-60 grams per day. I was constantly sick, constantly dehydrated.

I did a really brutal fast taper and got myself down to 15-20 grams per day. My plan was to maintain that dose for a while and then do a slower taper to 5 grams per day.

However, last week, I had a stroke. I felt terrible for weeks prior, thinking I was just sick. Turns out it was hypertension of which we have not identified the cause yet. I fessed up to my doctor about the kratom use, and he said to his knowledge red vein kratom usually lowers blood pressure. So while he told me I needed to quit, he said a taper would be safe as long as I followed it seriously and quit nicotine entirely.

Well, my next dose of kratom almost sent me back to the emergency room. Sharp chest pains that radiate up into my skull and arms, crazy anxiety, vision problems. Luckily it passed, but now I'm going cold turkey and it's a real bitch.

Kratom never made a significant difference for my blood pressure before, so I'm really not sure yet what changed.

Anyways, if it's safe for you, taper. In my experience it's not as bad as a traditional opioid withdrawal but, for people like us that use that much, it's really rough. Unless taking more will literally kill you, tapering is the way to go.

I only regret that I didn't taper when I get the chance.