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Greenlighter
I've been scouring online for answers all evening and thought this site may be the right place to find some.
I've never had a physical dependence to benzos, so I'm not familiar with what benzo withdrawal feels like, but I was addicted to heroin in my teens and early 20s, so I'm familiar with opiate withdrawal. It's been over 10 years since I kicked dope, just to give a bit of history. I was clean for about 6 years and have since been a casual drinker.
In late November I got a 10 day prescription to Valium (ten 10 mg pills) from my psychiatrist right after my dad died very suddenly, and a bunch of other crappy things happened in my life all at once. It was sort of a desperate measure, but the Valium helped a lot-- helped me get through the days. I intentionally asked for a short-term prescription because I don't trust myself with any drug that numbs me out (those are my favorite kind). I took one pill every day and was dying to ask my doc for more when I ran out, but resisted the temptation, and the urge faded. Then a few weeks later I saw my dr. again and asked for another small prescription. He gave me 15 10mg pills, which I used up in about 9-10 days. Two weeks have passed since I finished that precription.
I started feeling sick a couple of days ago and then today I woke up feeling horrible-- chills, stomach problems, sweats, etc. It didn't even cross my mind that it could be withdrawal-- everyone at work and my friends have had the flu, I just thought it was that. I had another appointment with my dr. earlier this evening, and say-- ok, I know I'm treading on thin ice here (he knows about my addiction history) but could I have one more small Valium prescription-- and can we both agree this will be the last time you prescribe it to me? I explain to him that I haven't taken any Valium in two weeks and that I haven't been misusing them, which is the truth. I know that probably sounds an unusual conversation to have with your dr, but he's been my shrink for many years, knows my family, and we have a very trusting relationship. He knows what a shit-storm my life has been for the past two months and I'm pretty sure he just feels badly for me and wants to give me a reprieve from everything.
I got home tonight and immediately pop a pill, and 15 minutes later my flu has magically disappeared. Holy shit balls, I think, I don't have the flu, I'm going through withdrawal. But how could that be possible? It's been two weeks since I took 10 days worth of Valium? Then I go online and read that Valium has a long half-life, blah blah blah, so it could take two weeks for WD to set in.
So after that long, rambling post (sorry, it must be the Valium making me chatty), my question is-- is this possible that I was going through withdrawal, just two weeks after taking a short term prescription?? I'm really hoping the answer is no, and that the only reason I felt better is because that's just what Valium does-- makes everything feel better? Would really appreciate a answer from anyone with experience. Wondering if I should flush the other 14 pills now, or if I'm still "safe". Thanks for endulging a benzo newbie, if anyone read this far.
I've never had a physical dependence to benzos, so I'm not familiar with what benzo withdrawal feels like, but I was addicted to heroin in my teens and early 20s, so I'm familiar with opiate withdrawal. It's been over 10 years since I kicked dope, just to give a bit of history. I was clean for about 6 years and have since been a casual drinker.
In late November I got a 10 day prescription to Valium (ten 10 mg pills) from my psychiatrist right after my dad died very suddenly, and a bunch of other crappy things happened in my life all at once. It was sort of a desperate measure, but the Valium helped a lot-- helped me get through the days. I intentionally asked for a short-term prescription because I don't trust myself with any drug that numbs me out (those are my favorite kind). I took one pill every day and was dying to ask my doc for more when I ran out, but resisted the temptation, and the urge faded. Then a few weeks later I saw my dr. again and asked for another small prescription. He gave me 15 10mg pills, which I used up in about 9-10 days. Two weeks have passed since I finished that precription.
I started feeling sick a couple of days ago and then today I woke up feeling horrible-- chills, stomach problems, sweats, etc. It didn't even cross my mind that it could be withdrawal-- everyone at work and my friends have had the flu, I just thought it was that. I had another appointment with my dr. earlier this evening, and say-- ok, I know I'm treading on thin ice here (he knows about my addiction history) but could I have one more small Valium prescription-- and can we both agree this will be the last time you prescribe it to me? I explain to him that I haven't taken any Valium in two weeks and that I haven't been misusing them, which is the truth. I know that probably sounds an unusual conversation to have with your dr, but he's been my shrink for many years, knows my family, and we have a very trusting relationship. He knows what a shit-storm my life has been for the past two months and I'm pretty sure he just feels badly for me and wants to give me a reprieve from everything.
I got home tonight and immediately pop a pill, and 15 minutes later my flu has magically disappeared. Holy shit balls, I think, I don't have the flu, I'm going through withdrawal. But how could that be possible? It's been two weeks since I took 10 days worth of Valium? Then I go online and read that Valium has a long half-life, blah blah blah, so it could take two weeks for WD to set in.
So after that long, rambling post (sorry, it must be the Valium making me chatty), my question is-- is this possible that I was going through withdrawal, just two weeks after taking a short term prescription?? I'm really hoping the answer is no, and that the only reason I felt better is because that's just what Valium does-- makes everything feel better? Would really appreciate a answer from anyone with experience. Wondering if I should flush the other 14 pills now, or if I'm still "safe". Thanks for endulging a benzo newbie, if anyone read this far.
