My Story

[Vstl]

My Long Struggle With Addiction (First time ever telling truth of use & seek advice

I'm 36, mother of 4. Trying to get my life back..I started experimenting w almost every drug at 17. Heroin was my doc. I quit everything cold turkey and lived a sober life and was considered a respectable and decent wife and mother for many years until my physical & mental health deteriorated. I now have diagnoses of Lupus, Spine & Disc issues (bulging & herniated discs, severe scoliosis, etc.) , Epilepsy, Insomnia, Bi Polar, ADHD, Hypothtyroidism, Severe Anxiety & Panic Attacks (which is main seizure trigger), & may be some I'm missing. I am prescribed Dexedrine, Synthroid, Trileptal, Geodon, Valium 10 mg 4xday!, Percocet 10 mg 6xday!, Soma 350mg 3xday. I am highly addicted to all these medications especially the Valium, Soma, & Percocet. Sometimes I overtake to the extreme, then run out, withdrawal, & look for Whatever I can get my hands on to stop withdrawals. (YES, including Heroin. I have done it occasionally for the past 4 years.) I don't know who to turn to. I read these posts when I am starting a withdrawal and thought maybe I could get some advice.

 

[Jabberwocky]

Hello and welcome to this group
Your similar to me. I started with percs for pain and just like you ran out early , took more then needed graduated to heroin and everything else. I'm now on day 12 and I feel better for it. Minor scared of opiates but need pain managment so that's gonna be tricky.
My advice would be to just stop now. It will be an awful week or 2 but then you can kinda start fresh so to speak. The benzos will help with the opiate wd. But did you need to quit benzos too?
I have PTSD and kpins are all that work for me so I don't generally abuse them. Opiates was my demon
I'm still going through the shit of it but thanks to this site and its members I'm making it?
I'm here to help you in any way I can. So please don't hesitate to ask anything or send me a pm to just vent. You've come to the right place and you are smart and know you want to stop the cycle. That's the hard part It's not going to be easy but trust me you'll feel so better when your sober and know exactly what hurts and what only hurts because of addiction
I wish you the best and please let us all know your plan of action so to speak on which drugs you want to stop. You'll get so much good advice here I'm happy you came here and you have the right attitude to stop this cycle