its been the worst hangover of my lif eliterally its kinda over now but sinc ei woke up by 7 am and now its 2pm ii literally curled up in a ball and felt like iw as gonna die literally was waiting for it completely paranoid i even thought about my own funeral and was scared i wouldnt make it to my sisters room inc ase i needed the er then thought not even them could save me cuz mixing such drugs is fatal sometimes i guess it is too late if anyones ever talked about hell i think i was there and trust me i thought of many things including why im here and didnt die from doing this also realized i need to stop taking drugs for gods sake might stick to herbs tho add herbs and shit im also overly obsessed with someone which i consider an addictiona nd a few nights ago on my bday texted him i dont remember but i saw it saying i love him i overthought about the consequences and what would happenw hen we next meet however i couldnt care less now i literally feel prepared for everything id idnt know there was even a slight possibility to feel this way i couldnt even cry idk how i was breathing it could be paranoia
to be more graphic about the dosages
my drug binge started last thursday
im prescribed bothr italin and clonazepam but didnt take the ritalin for a while cuz it always makes me feel bloated and thirsty when it wears off
so last thurdday i smoked from a hitter lots of weed then got rlly high with clonazepam was tired as hell and gave clonazepam to the person i slept with cuz he was coming down from mdma then we slept woke up took a few hits froma bowl laid on the jacuzzi for the rest of the day that night i founf it the weed hit me good sinc ei just laughed and danced looked basically waste dbut id idnt drink
friday i just basically slept i was too tired
saturday was my bday party i drank a dew martinis but it was ok i also took clonazepam earlier that day..disastrious as it gets
monday i smoked some hashish pretty good shit then went to my yoga lessons felt really good
tuesday my birthday i took clonazepam earlier on drops 2.5 mg i nnormally take 5-7 drops since i was overusing i decided to mix the solutionw ith water so my mom wouldnt notice and i also shared it with those guys on thursday so they asked me to give them clon but i refused i wa swasted at this point drank like 3 rum glasses with soda also this guy kept saying how a fucked up junkie i was...howeever he is just the same shit gets oversensitive
wednseday hangover took some clon for the anxiety felt okay went to yoga ate with my grandparents lucky i was they didnt notic ei was hungover
thursday
i finally decide to take the rialin so i take 10 mg orally then i smoked from a bong and started to feel really shitty and dehydrated i acquired a xanax bar so i decided to save it and comedown with valerian had a pretty shitty night
friday feel dead tired howeever end up tateking 20 mg ritalin..its unbearable so i use the bar to take a nap after school thena ttend my yoga lessons and do homework
saturday,,it already felt like too much ritalin was inside my body and im out of benzos..this is horrible hwoever i felt satisfied i didnt party on friday but was my friends bday party and the guy i like sister was in my neighborhood she is friend with my neighbors they came to my place and convinced me to go to a pub i didnt wanna seem liek a stupid unconfident wreck so i after my yoga class.(for the record has been one of my worst classes i could barely breathe i shouldve seen it coming i was overstimulated) so i tak 10 mg ritalin only yhis time sublingually idiotic me i was acting fine we arrived at the pub and i took 1 liter of rum and vodka also asked for a water bottle i knew thirst would hit me..
then my stomach started to feel discomforting, diarrhea started nausea tension in the nec increased temperature..anyways we wrre in the car foerr about an hour after and my 1st drink we arrived at the party and i had like 3 more glasses of brandy and coca cola and wa ssipping through everyones drinks at this point my judgment was gone my best friend was wasted and made a nasty comment so i was basically emotionally and physically destroyed so i see my friends rolling a joint and thought this would calm me down and help me sleep boy i was wrong,,i kept sorta drinking but only had 1 or 2 more
when we were in the car is all a blur then i remember we got to my neighbors place at about 2 am at this point i had a bottle of tequila and wanted to drink it but no one else did they were pretty much done some the guy who drove and didnt drink only smoked said he was gonna go home sleep and pop some xanax bars so they were alll eating food seemed disgusting i got dropped off at like 4 and went straight to bed didnt want my mom to notice my condition since i promised to her i wouldnt drink i also have an ovarian cystand im taking some chinese teas i think if u drink or even smoke cigs its not effective however my grndma who lives in new york sent them i live in mexico they are said to shrink it but taste nasty i didnt take them yesterday nor today tho
when i got to my bed i was so wasted i browsed through all my meds and so the klonopin drop case empty so i added all the water i could to tale whatever was left ii think this is the only reason i slep
i woke up at 7 am wanting to vomit constantly peeing and shitting still i could see my pupils at about 11 or 12 HUGE had some scrambled eggs for breakfa and it wass nasty idk if my mom noticed my condition i just said i had 2 drinks and was tired and kept hopping back to bed to plan my dead feel my heart and temperature andlack of breathing sounds..so this is a warning never abuse i have learned my leasoni am a drug and alcohol user but im planning in the future to take all precautions possible i feel lucky ive found bluelight i will probably end up going to NA meetings and try ADD herbs since the pshychiatrist scares me and the ritalin and benzos do so aswell
i also use lots of herbs like valerian saint johns wort some laxatives and the teas irresponsibly
so basically i had an epiphany of unsafe use
good luck in the future
by the way i am a 19 yr old female hope i make friends here sometimes it just gets lonely with all the emotional and mental issues and the chemicals,,yall know the drill
i do not suggest this combo..did it last night didnt get drunk but all weird and felt like my heart was gonna pound out of my chest plus some bowel issues feel dehydrated was not wasted but lost judgment so why not smoke a joint and pop a benzo what a dangerious combo i feel like my body is trying to eliminate is but i can still see my pupils feel my temperature its hot and blood pressure worst hangover in history idk how i am writing this i was considering on goign to th hospital but ims tarting to feel sorta better idk why ritalin always gives me chest pains ieven in low doses gotta tell my doctor about this.not im out of clonazepam all ive got are over the counter meds and herbs which scare me at this point taking anything even food or water is scary..oh well lesson learned i hope
to be more graphic about the dosages
my drug binge started last thursday
im prescribed bothr italin and clonazepam but didnt take the ritalin for a while cuz it always makes me feel bloated and thirsty when it wears off
so last thurdday i smoked from a hitter lots of weed then got rlly high with clonazepam was tired as hell and gave clonazepam to the person i slept with cuz he was coming down from mdma then we slept woke up took a few hits froma bowl laid on the jacuzzi for the rest of the day that night i founf it the weed hit me good sinc ei just laughed and danced looked basically waste dbut id idnt drink
friday i just basically slept i was too tired
saturday was my bday party i drank a dew martinis but it was ok i also took clonazepam earlier that day..disastrious as it gets
monday i smoked some hashish pretty good shit then went to my yoga lessons felt really good
tuesday my birthday i took clonazepam earlier on drops 2.5 mg i nnormally take 5-7 drops since i was overusing i decided to mix the solutionw ith water so my mom wouldnt notice and i also shared it with those guys on thursday so they asked me to give them clon but i refused i wa swasted at this point drank like 3 rum glasses with soda also this guy kept saying how a fucked up junkie i was...howeever he is just the same shit gets oversensitive
wednseday hangover took some clon for the anxiety felt okay went to yoga ate with my grandparents lucky i was they didnt notic ei was hungover
thursday
i finally decide to take the rialin so i take 10 mg orally then i smoked from a bong and started to feel really shitty and dehydrated i acquired a xanax bar so i decided to save it and comedown with valerian had a pretty shitty night
friday feel dead tired howeever end up tateking 20 mg ritalin..its unbearable so i use the bar to take a nap after school thena ttend my yoga lessons and do homework
saturday,,it already felt like too much ritalin was inside my body and im out of benzos..this is horrible hwoever i felt satisfied i didnt party on friday but was my friends bday party and the guy i like sister was in my neighborhood she is friend with my neighbors they came to my place and convinced me to go to a pub i didnt wanna seem liek a stupid unconfident wreck so i after my yoga class.(for the record has been one of my worst classes i could barely breathe i shouldve seen it coming i was overstimulated) so i tak 10 mg ritalin only yhis time sublingually idiotic me i was acting fine we arrived at the pub and i took 1 liter of rum and vodka also asked for a water bottle i knew thirst would hit me..
then my stomach started to feel discomforting, diarrhea started nausea tension in the nec increased temperature..anyways we wrre in the car foerr about an hour after and my 1st drink we arrived at the party and i had like 3 more glasses of brandy and coca cola and wa ssipping through everyones drinks at this point my judgment was gone my best friend was wasted and made a nasty comment so i was basically emotionally and physically destroyed so i see my friends rolling a joint and thought this would calm me down and help me sleep boy i was wrong,,i kept sorta drinking but only had 1 or 2 more
when we were in the car is all a blur then i remember we got to my neighbors place at about 2 am at this point i had a bottle of tequila and wanted to drink it but no one else did they were pretty much done some the guy who drove and didnt drink only smoked said he was gonna go home sleep and pop some xanax bars so they were alll eating food seemed disgusting i got dropped off at like 4 and went straight to bed didnt want my mom to notice my condition since i promised to her i wouldnt drink i also have an ovarian cystand im taking some chinese teas i think if u drink or even smoke cigs its not effective however my grndma who lives in new york sent them i live in mexico they are said to shrink it but taste nasty i didnt take them yesterday nor today tho
when i got to my bed i was so wasted i browsed through all my meds and so the klonopin drop case empty so i added all the water i could to tale whatever was left ii think this is the only reason i slep
i woke up at 7 am wanting to vomit constantly peeing and shitting still i could see my pupils at about 11 or 12 HUGE had some scrambled eggs for breakfa and it wass nasty idk if my mom noticed my condition i just said i had 2 drinks and was tired and kept hopping back to bed to plan my dead feel my heart and temperature andlack of breathing sounds..so this is a warning never abuse i have learned my leasoni am a drug and alcohol user but im planning in the future to take all precautions possible i feel lucky ive found bluelight i will probably end up going to NA meetings and try ADD herbs since the pshychiatrist scares me and the ritalin and benzos do so aswell
i also use lots of herbs like valerian saint johns wort some laxatives and the teas irresponsibly
so basically i had an epiphany of unsafe use
good luck in the future
by the way i am a 19 yr old female hope i make friends here sometimes it just gets lonely with all the emotional and mental issues and the chemicals,,yall know the drill
i do not suggest this combo..did it last night didnt get drunk but all weird and felt like my heart was gonna pound out of my chest plus some bowel issues feel dehydrated was not wasted but lost judgment so why not smoke a joint and pop a benzo what a dangerious combo i feel like my body is trying to eliminate is but i can still see my pupils feel my temperature its hot and blood pressure worst hangover in history idk how i am writing this i was considering on goign to th hospital but ims tarting to feel sorta better idk why ritalin always gives me chest pains ieven in low doses gotta tell my doctor about this.not im out of clonazepam all ive got are over the counter meds and herbs which scare me at this point taking anything even food or water is scary..oh well lesson learned i hope
