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Mental Health My social anxiety levels are off the charts

OK I will tell you what's up because no-one else probably will.

Basically anxiety is seen as a threat to everyone around you, a threat to their whole entire existence. Hence the very negative reactions and your subsequent alarm at this, which only further builds anxiety (it becomes a cycle, a trap).

Now, the reason everyone sees anxiety as a threat and looks down upon it is because anxiety IN ITSELF is a strong questioning of the reality around you. You're always questioning and questioning, and very timid about whether you should jump in and immerse yourself in this corporeality or not.

People get *really* pissed off at this, because they spend every year, every day, every hour, every second, every microsecond INVESTED in that reality. So for you to mock it like that and say "well I don't really want to join that scene" is a complete rejection of their whole existence -- an insult.

These are just the facts, what you want to do with them is up to you. This is coming from a sufferer of extreme anxiety. The real question is: do you want to jump into the pool or not? If not then gather your strength to be a Steppenwolf (there are actually a few of us out there :) so there's no reason EVER to fall victim to The Fear, we will hold out until the day we die, in the meantime we will see life from a very unique angle, and possibly have much more joy/misery than the rest).
 
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Yep i was in the same situation, quit the herb it increases your already anxiety tenfold. heroin is not the answer either when you get your self addicted then what?

You will hit rock bottom need to quit and then end up with both anxiety and depression.
 
Polluted_Mind said:
OK I will tell you what's up because no-one else probably will.

Basically anxiety is seen as a threat to everyone around you, a threat to their whole entire existence. Hence the very negative reactions and your subsequent alarm at this, which only further builds anxiety (it becomes a cycle, a trap).

Now, the reason everyone sees anxiety as a threat and looks down upon it is because anxiety IN ITSELF is a strong questioning of the reality around you. You're always questioning and questioning, and very timid about whether you should jump in and immerse yourself in this corporeality or not.

People get *really* pissed off at this, because they spend every year, every day, every hour, every second, every microsecond INVESTED in that reality. So for you to mock it like that and say "well I don't really want to join that scene" is a complete rejection of their whole existence -- an insult.

These are just the facts, what you want to do with them is up to you. This is coming from a sufferer of extreme anxiety. The real question is: do you want to jump into the pool or not? If not then gather your strength to be a Steppenwolf (there are actually a few of us out there :) so there's no reason EVER to fall victim to The Fear, we will hold out until the day we die, in the meantime we will see life from a very unique angle, and possibly have much more joy/misery than the rest).
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I like your cold hard take on things here, PM. No BS.
 
Another introvert here; i agree that weed is not good for our personality types. It can intensify introspection and paranoia so much that everything becomes out of proportion in your head. You need to talk and express all your thoughts, even if people think your weird or whatever it will at least help you judge whether your thinking is healthy and positive or just plain 'wrong'. Im having person centred counselling at the moment and its great just to get some of the crap out of ones head. Once a thought is 'out there' it can be better understood why you think or feel the way you do......
 
hey guys,

thank you so much for the well-thought out responses I really appreciate them all. A quick update on me is that I am currently seeing a psychiatrist (forced by my parents due to my depressive moodstate) and am on the SSRI lexapro. Got diagnosed with social phobia and depression

I still smoke weed sometimes (only on benzos or opiates) and do ketamine to help alleviate depressive symptoms. Probably not the best idea being on an SSRI but hey I still want to have some fun :P.

I am doing some volunteer work this summer and hopefully will meet new friends and turn my life around.

I will continue to read this thread, thank you so much for the support and advice BL this is truly a great community
 
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That is good to hear that you are feeling more hopeful. How are you feeling about the Lexapro? Do you feel it is helping? I strongly suggest giving yourself a break from everything--even just for the summer. Eat right, get rested while you don't have school, develop hobbies that get you out with people that like the same thing (meetup.com).

And I agree with you, Bluelight is amazing!<3:)
 
All I can say is please, please stay the f*** away from opiates and pot. When it comes to mental disorders, they help in the short term, then throw you down the well. Lexapro is a good medicine. There are countless others if it doesn't work in the future.
 
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