drugs have changed my life and I'm now a little lost maybe you guys can help
the magic of psychedelics began to interest me about 5 years ago.
my first mushroom trip was fun, auras, euphoria, and acceptance of other people.
my first acid trip was a good time too, being able to vividly imagine the stories that were being told and little invisible rope like visuals in the tiles.
my second acid trip was a little more intense but only at parts, i was walking in the back yard and felt connected to everything raise my arms up to feel the wind and laid in the grass. while laying in the grass face down arms and legs spread I began to feel an amazing sensation of tingling throughout my entire body, followed by a visual of my glowing feeling in my back. a bright light along with pleasure in the base of my spine starts to rise up my back and I'm looking at what seems to be a tree of glowing nerves from my spine and I feel awesome. My consciousness then shoots out of my chest and the visuals go away but I have the feeling of moving at high speeds deep in the ground. after this I was smoking a bowl on the sofa coming down. I feel my spine shrinking and a glowing version of my body that seems related to the awareness of my body begins to get wrung out like a towel. only moving can snap my body back into place and then it happens again. I am staring at a poster and a 2d hologram of a jester puppet on strings drops from a poster I am staring at and I begin to think of murder as an art.(after this trip I feel like I had some good therapy, my life matters more,I'm more emotional and I feel on track) I think I may have had a partial kundalini awakening
fast-forward a year or 2-I drop out of school and am working as a bartender I have an apartment and am looking for a girlfriend. all is good life is normal
I go to a music festival and have a hell of a trip.
I took what was said to be condensed psilocybin..but it could have been anything(a little stupid)
I'm sitting down listening to music and I start to feel the effects. my eyes are closed and I start to feel the sensation of traveling I remember feeling tempted to go this way and that, seeing all sorts of shiny things that took my fancy but for some reason I felt the need to avoid these temptations and go straight. I am now going through a red spiral that is getting smaller and I see a snake at the end of it. I'm now what feels like out of my body and I see outlines of people all around me and I ask for someone named angel who had sold me the drugs. I get an answer and now feel like Im talking to people. no one knows who I am talking about but at this point a big man on what seems like the other side of the field catches my eye, he has a couple of neon outline people around him, and i was under the assumption that he was a big drug dealer so I approach him and start asking what I'm on and we have a conversation, he asks me how I feel and eventually I walk away, I felt like I was in a moving body. I decide I want to fly as high as I can go and I hear lots of people but up was my direction and all there is is darkness and silence. I get lost in it. eventually I hear people again and come down. I can now hear the music again and am looking at a green dot like when you stare at a light and close your eyes and I'm talking to people who want me to move around and have fun but I keep talking about how I want to see my amazing green dot and eventually they start to make fun of me talking about how I'd rather stare at a green dot than see the stars. They try to get me to move and tell me they'll show me how it works but I want to be alone. I now have a vivid hallucination of what seems like real people walking in front of me. first pretty girls then good looking boys then old guys then families then children and I'm just sitting watching thinking that they are trying to see what I'm there for. eventually my friend grabs my shoulder and I open my eyes finally and everyone is heading back to camp. I'm uncomfortable and paranoid hearing voices is new to me and I'm confused I spend the next 2 days thinking that people are listening to my thoughts, they aren't speaking to much anymore they are avoiding me. I have one last hurrah talking to someone in my head who is telling me to take a tent that was left there. I go home and everything is normal again.
6 months go by and I'm working and smoking pot and thinking that I discovered telepathy.
eventually I started to lose my ability to focus and I'm filled with the paranoia that people are listening to my thoughts again. This gets worse and worse
The voices come back and I'm not able to snap out of it. I'm stuck in my head listening to delusional stories of the illuminati and people are threatening me and filling my head with nonsensical stories about my friends and people I know. I would snap out of it every now and then and my mom would be like come on put your pants on. or here drink this. I was lost in my head for about to weeks with my family caring for me when eventually I got out of my sisters car because I wanted to go somewhere else and we get into a fight on the side of the road and the police show up and I'm taken to a hospital. They put me on halidol and it snaps me out of it for the most part. I'm still hearing voices and a month later I'm let out.
On medication and the voices are gone. I smoke pot they come back. not that bad this time but I check myself into a hospital because I'm told to by the voices and I'm scared.
stay on the medication stop smoking pot the voices stay, I'm now having very vivid dreams that I feel like other people are in.
I have had some weird experiences since then that I would like to know if other people share. some are sober some are under the influence of pot
Voices that have changed their content/attitude dramatically
These voices have recounted my entire history, reminded me of things I had forgotten,
caused me to feel things in my body, fill me with energy and keep me up all night, told me things I have later found out to be true events(they are mostly lies tho), pointed things out to me that I didn't notice(like they can see though my eyes), played countless games as to whats really going on in my head
Visual hallucinations of entities within other people, I would sometimes watch videos of static sober and see weird things like dragons, aliens, people...stuff
I succeeded in astral projecting once and was floating by the ceiling in my room saw a little witch she laugh at me I punched her I woke up.
While smoking pot
I now get closed eyed visuals, figured out I can control them(see what i want to see) even got to the point of being able to design a sword like in auto cad, rotate it shrink it change the handle. this was very cool
was playing pool one time had a headache closed my eyes tranced out saw what looked like a green film negative upside down watched my friend take his shot opened my eyes there he was.
I want to know if what you see when astral projecting can be real... can I see my friend eatting a cookie wakeup and text him how was that cookie?(like spirit science says)
I believe the voices are real people or at least other consciousnesses I want to choose who I speak to- any help? telepathy?
I believe people can see through other peoples eyes...they can see through mine...any ideas?
and as for controling visualisations are some people really good at this? what do they use it for?
oh and by the way Hi.
the magic of psychedelics began to interest me about 5 years ago.
my first mushroom trip was fun, auras, euphoria, and acceptance of other people.
my first acid trip was a good time too, being able to vividly imagine the stories that were being told and little invisible rope like visuals in the tiles.
my second acid trip was a little more intense but only at parts, i was walking in the back yard and felt connected to everything raise my arms up to feel the wind and laid in the grass. while laying in the grass face down arms and legs spread I began to feel an amazing sensation of tingling throughout my entire body, followed by a visual of my glowing feeling in my back. a bright light along with pleasure in the base of my spine starts to rise up my back and I'm looking at what seems to be a tree of glowing nerves from my spine and I feel awesome. My consciousness then shoots out of my chest and the visuals go away but I have the feeling of moving at high speeds deep in the ground. after this I was smoking a bowl on the sofa coming down. I feel my spine shrinking and a glowing version of my body that seems related to the awareness of my body begins to get wrung out like a towel. only moving can snap my body back into place and then it happens again. I am staring at a poster and a 2d hologram of a jester puppet on strings drops from a poster I am staring at and I begin to think of murder as an art.(after this trip I feel like I had some good therapy, my life matters more,I'm more emotional and I feel on track) I think I may have had a partial kundalini awakening
fast-forward a year or 2-I drop out of school and am working as a bartender I have an apartment and am looking for a girlfriend. all is good life is normal
I go to a music festival and have a hell of a trip.
I took what was said to be condensed psilocybin..but it could have been anything(a little stupid)
I'm sitting down listening to music and I start to feel the effects. my eyes are closed and I start to feel the sensation of traveling I remember feeling tempted to go this way and that, seeing all sorts of shiny things that took my fancy but for some reason I felt the need to avoid these temptations and go straight. I am now going through a red spiral that is getting smaller and I see a snake at the end of it. I'm now what feels like out of my body and I see outlines of people all around me and I ask for someone named angel who had sold me the drugs. I get an answer and now feel like Im talking to people. no one knows who I am talking about but at this point a big man on what seems like the other side of the field catches my eye, he has a couple of neon outline people around him, and i was under the assumption that he was a big drug dealer so I approach him and start asking what I'm on and we have a conversation, he asks me how I feel and eventually I walk away, I felt like I was in a moving body. I decide I want to fly as high as I can go and I hear lots of people but up was my direction and all there is is darkness and silence. I get lost in it. eventually I hear people again and come down. I can now hear the music again and am looking at a green dot like when you stare at a light and close your eyes and I'm talking to people who want me to move around and have fun but I keep talking about how I want to see my amazing green dot and eventually they start to make fun of me talking about how I'd rather stare at a green dot than see the stars. They try to get me to move and tell me they'll show me how it works but I want to be alone. I now have a vivid hallucination of what seems like real people walking in front of me. first pretty girls then good looking boys then old guys then families then children and I'm just sitting watching thinking that they are trying to see what I'm there for. eventually my friend grabs my shoulder and I open my eyes finally and everyone is heading back to camp. I'm uncomfortable and paranoid hearing voices is new to me and I'm confused I spend the next 2 days thinking that people are listening to my thoughts, they aren't speaking to much anymore they are avoiding me. I have one last hurrah talking to someone in my head who is telling me to take a tent that was left there. I go home and everything is normal again.
6 months go by and I'm working and smoking pot and thinking that I discovered telepathy.
eventually I started to lose my ability to focus and I'm filled with the paranoia that people are listening to my thoughts again. This gets worse and worse
The voices come back and I'm not able to snap out of it. I'm stuck in my head listening to delusional stories of the illuminati and people are threatening me and filling my head with nonsensical stories about my friends and people I know. I would snap out of it every now and then and my mom would be like come on put your pants on. or here drink this. I was lost in my head for about to weeks with my family caring for me when eventually I got out of my sisters car because I wanted to go somewhere else and we get into a fight on the side of the road and the police show up and I'm taken to a hospital. They put me on halidol and it snaps me out of it for the most part. I'm still hearing voices and a month later I'm let out.
On medication and the voices are gone. I smoke pot they come back. not that bad this time but I check myself into a hospital because I'm told to by the voices and I'm scared.
stay on the medication stop smoking pot the voices stay, I'm now having very vivid dreams that I feel like other people are in.
I have had some weird experiences since then that I would like to know if other people share. some are sober some are under the influence of pot
Voices that have changed their content/attitude dramatically
These voices have recounted my entire history, reminded me of things I had forgotten,
caused me to feel things in my body, fill me with energy and keep me up all night, told me things I have later found out to be true events(they are mostly lies tho), pointed things out to me that I didn't notice(like they can see though my eyes), played countless games as to whats really going on in my head
Visual hallucinations of entities within other people, I would sometimes watch videos of static sober and see weird things like dragons, aliens, people...stuff
I succeeded in astral projecting once and was floating by the ceiling in my room saw a little witch she laugh at me I punched her I woke up.
While smoking pot
I now get closed eyed visuals, figured out I can control them(see what i want to see) even got to the point of being able to design a sword like in auto cad, rotate it shrink it change the handle. this was very cool
was playing pool one time had a headache closed my eyes tranced out saw what looked like a green film negative upside down watched my friend take his shot opened my eyes there he was.
I want to know if what you see when astral projecting can be real... can I see my friend eatting a cookie wakeup and text him how was that cookie?(like spirit science says)
I believe the voices are real people or at least other consciousnesses I want to choose who I speak to- any help? telepathy?
I believe people can see through other peoples eyes...they can see through mine...any ideas?
and as for controling visualisations are some people really good at this? what do they use it for?
oh and by the way Hi.
