help...me...
Greenlighter
Hey everyone. I am a 24yo Female.
After starting a few threads over here regarding opiates and sex-drive interfering I came to a realization.
All the way from 15yo till 13yo I was a sex addict. It was pretty extreme. As a kid my dream was to become a stripper or an international Courtesan and i dreamed of the world to stop for one week so i can sleep with everyone in my school and when the week would pass everyone would have the memory of it erased so mi don't get a reputation of a slut.
I basically had a mind of a Guy i would bring new guys over to my apartment for sex constantly, and i would always try to kick them out before the sun goes up as the last thing i would want is spending time with some guy in a romantic atmosphere.
By the age of 22 i realized that its an issue, a condition and that i had serious sex addiction. I would sometimes get up in the middle of my sleep and go outside just to hope to find some hottie to hook up with.
But here is what happened later. My ex bf introduced me to Heroin. At first it made my sex life elevated, we had completely free sex. No barriers, no rules, no limits. But eventually week by week my sex drive went down and down and down and down.... Now i am at the point where i haven't had sex for 6 months straight. And i don't feel like having any. I don't want to be touched, kissed or even looked at sexually.
I feel satisfied by opiates. I am happy just laying there and doing absolutely nothing...
Now I'm sure many of you experienced this. Have you?
The question that has been bothering me later is this:
%) - Which addiction is safer?
- Which one is worth it?
- And why cant i have both of them existing at the same time damn it?
After starting a few threads over here regarding opiates and sex-drive interfering I came to a realization.
All the way from 15yo till 13yo I was a sex addict. It was pretty extreme. As a kid my dream was to become a stripper or an international Courtesan and i dreamed of the world to stop for one week so i can sleep with everyone in my school and when the week would pass everyone would have the memory of it erased so mi don't get a reputation of a slut.
I basically had a mind of a Guy i would bring new guys over to my apartment for sex constantly, and i would always try to kick them out before the sun goes up as the last thing i would want is spending time with some guy in a romantic atmosphere.
By the age of 22 i realized that its an issue, a condition and that i had serious sex addiction. I would sometimes get up in the middle of my sleep and go outside just to hope to find some hottie to hook up with.
But here is what happened later. My ex bf introduced me to Heroin. At first it made my sex life elevated, we had completely free sex. No barriers, no rules, no limits. But eventually week by week my sex drive went down and down and down and down.... Now i am at the point where i haven't had sex for 6 months straight. And i don't feel like having any. I don't want to be touched, kissed or even looked at sexually.
I feel satisfied by opiates. I am happy just laying there and doing absolutely nothing...
Now I'm sure many of you experienced this. Have you?
The question that has been bothering me later is this:
%) - Which addiction is safer?

