This is for all of us trying to better ourselves. I’ve been on and off of literally everything. I’m going to start this thread to use as my journal and anybody else who wants to keep track if they are throwing to recover, cold turkey, or just lower there dose of literally anything. In my case i struggle with opiates for so many different reasons but the main ones are chronic pain and trauma. My current situation is i am taking 6g of kratom 2-3x daily. Green Borneo to be specific. Sometimes red mang da at night. I have never been good at a taper because id rather rip the bandaid off then pull it slowly to minimize damage but that also has always ended up in a relapse weather it was 1 day later or a year. Starting today at 3pm i ideally took my last dose of Kratom. Tonight i got frustrated with this and took 15mg diazepam and 600mg gabapentin to ideally make me less scared/not care about the upcoming situation but then this usually makes me also not care about relapsing so im now wanting to say screw it and take more kratom which im going to try not to do. I have access to almost every medication except for full agonist opiates at this point because im know by all my doctors to be an addict. If you have any and all advice to getting off that would be appreciated. Buprenorphine is on hand as well but not sure i want to go there quite yet especially without 24hrs passing. Dr today recommended using Buprenorphine, Diazepam, Clonidine, Gabapentin and Adderall if i need it for energy but im also not one to enjoy trading and also am considering just staying on kratom until it gets out of hand then going with that route if needed. Im very lost and confused and sorry if im ranting but thats what this thread will be used for. How your day went vs how you wanted it to go. Hope yall have a good night and best of luck to all of us in the struggle. My end goal is to only be on Adderall if anything because i do have ADHD, OCD, and ADD. Let’s see how we go. Trying for 3 days no kratom after i post this.
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Misc My road to recovery volume 1. (Opiates-Benzos and everything in between) What does yours look like and or looked like?
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I do drugs, but there a roll to hell. Don't go too far. Instead find inspiration.
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Recovered quite well off opioids ,Norco and fent,don't miss it,actually got my grubby hands on some and got mean with a headache several times,so it really made me not want to chase that dragon again,seems death alone wasn't enough to "wake" me up but yes,the days go by well enough,too grateful to be depressed in my life experiences.
Yea one fetty coma landed me on life support. Done iboga, been on subs for a hear, benzos for 8, just kratom now and some ezopiclone to sleep but im trying to get clean clean. I miss having 0 dependency, would love to hear y’all’s best detox/recovery medication recipes if anything. From the right meds to the right food and why