This recovery business can sure feel like hard work at times. I've been in and out of the rooms for a number of years now, never fully conceding to the fact that i was a hopeless addict going nowhere in life. I thought that i could moderate, using sporadically but a couple of days a week soon turned into everyday. Once a drug is in my system i become a fiend. It's like that saying i hear so often 'one is never enough and a thousand is too many'.
Recently, i've been having using dreams and experiencing euphoric recall. Sometimes i miss those days when i could chemically manufacture my feelings and self-medicate my uncomfortable feelings.
It can be easy to forget how bad it got. I'm having to up my meetings and get on with my step work to remind myself. My recovery has to come first without it don't stand a chance and i will lose everything i've worked so hard at to get back.
I wish anyone else who is struggling all the best, together we can recover.
Recently, i've been having using dreams and experiencing euphoric recall. Sometimes i miss those days when i could chemically manufacture my feelings and self-medicate my uncomfortable feelings.
It can be easy to forget how bad it got. I'm having to up my meetings and get on with my step work to remind myself. My recovery has to come first without it don't stand a chance and i will lose everything i've worked so hard at to get back.
I wish anyone else who is struggling all the best, together we can recover.