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bais3

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... and this is forcing me to quit cold turkey heroin!! 2 days so far i wasnt expecting this nor i was ready and yes thing sucksssss so much! I should have saved a few bags just in case, silly me... now i am totally fucked up and i have no clue on how to survive this... what do i do? what do i do what do i do what do i do awwwwwwww =(((

...i could go to the hospital and *take* some morphine from the ambulance or from inside, but i am pretty sure i'll get busted or fail even before starting :( maybe if i broke some bone, they give me morphine, yay?! Too bad is easier said than done... fuck it's even sunday and i cant go to my doctor, cant even go for the metadone because it's well fucking sunday!! DAMMMMMM

=((


PS: btw hi, great forum
 
Damn that sucks.. whatever you do do not try to steal any from the hospital, you will not get away with it.
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Hi, glad you found bluelight! Withdrawals are hard and sometimes anticipating them sucked too.
They most likely won't help you at the hospital unless you tell them you need to detox. Even then
it would have to be a place that even offers a few day detox. Hang in there.
 
Couldnt sleep at all this night... at some point i felt so shitty that I had to do what i swore I wouldn't do again: tramadol, 200mg. I shouldnt take tramadol because of the convulsion thing, but this time I didn't care... didn't felt so good, but apparently helped a little

Eyes On the Roll said:
Damn that sucks.. whatever you do do not try to steal any from the hospital, you will not get away with it.
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Thx for the advice, too bad i lost the original post...

T. Calderone said:
Hi, glad you found bluelight! Withdrawals are hard and sometimes anticipating them sucked too.
They most likely won't help you at the hospital...
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I know... once, while i was at the ER, there was a guy seated in the waiting room, totally wasted. Well after a while the guy fall asleep and you know what they do? They pick him up and literally throw him outside on the grass!! Poor fella stayed all night there, on the grass under the cold of the moon. People (hospital staff) just avoided him, he could have died there and nobody would have given a fuck. Fucking sick world

stardust.hero said:
What was your average habit like daily bais? <3 you will make it through.
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Let's just say more than 10 bucks a day, brown stuff, could easily go 20x that amount but i try to limit myself. Physically i can handle the thing and i know i'll survive... psychologically i dont know. Right now for me doing heroin is like making a wonderful dream and not doing it is equivalent to waking up in hell
 
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<snip - not appropriate for TDS. Read the TDS Guidelines, and read around and get a feel for our section before posting. Members in withdrawal don't need that kind of sarcastic reply.>
 
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It may be a gift in disguise.

Withdrawals suck...yes...but once you get past them, you're on the road to recovery.

I have faith that you can make it through <3
 
I recommend reading the following links. Loperamide (Imodium), sold over the counter, can help alleviate a lot of the withdrawal symptoms. Read these threads in entirity and follow the directions.

You need to take more than the recommended amount for it's intended purpose (diarrhea).

OTC Loperamide for Withdrawal... Amazing

Loperamide for W/D's

Using Loperamide to combat withdrawal?

Am I crazy or did loperamide just take away my withdrawals?

If you are not feeling ANY effects from the Imodium, continue to take more until you feel some alleviation of the W/Ds. Loperamide is an opioid-receptor agonist and acts on the μ-opioid receptors, just the same as any other opiate. It does not cross the Blood-brain barrier and is not an effective means of getting high, BUT, it does work for withdrawals quite well.

Keep us updated <3 you're to day 2 :).
 
Are you ready to quit? If you are this will make it easy because you have no way to get anything, even if you are tempted. Just don't go searching for it. Good luck!
 
bais3 said:
... and this is forcing me to quit cold turkey heroin!! 2 days so far i wasnt expecting this nor i was ready and yes thing sucksssss so much! I should have saved a few bags just in case, silly me... now i am totally fucked up and i have no clue on how to survive this... what do i do? what do i do what do i do what do i do awwwwwwww =(((

...i could go to the hospital and *take* some morphine from the ambulance or from inside, but i am pretty sure i'll get busted or fail even before starting :( maybe if i broke some bone, they give me morphine, yay?! Too bad is easier said than done... fuck it's even sunday and i cant go to my doctor, cant even go for the metadone because it's well fucking sunday!! DAMMMMMM

=((


PS: btw hi, great forum
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I feel your pain I have been in your situation even to the point where I was planning on causing real harm to a part of my body in hopes of getting drugs from the hosptial, my advise don't try it you might not get what you expect or anything at all of they catch on to what you did you might get 51.50 for self harming.

Take this for what it is god has given you a message. GET CLEAN... now I know that sounds evil but really what else can you do? Make the best of it. I think we bolth know if you meet someone new who has drugs you will do them but IF YOU DON't PLEASE DON'T GO LOOKING FOR IT.. if you go looking for drugs you twice as likly to find the police then find drugs end wind up in jail with no drugs...

Its far better to quit in a comfy room then to quit in jail so except what is, and just try to do your best... you can always go to the hosptial and try to get meds to ween off of the herion or try to get suboxon or go to a methadone clinic...

You got options but don't try to steel drugs or buy them trust me you will get busted... I was one of thoes people I couldn't find drugs it wasn't a talent of mine I and when I got cut off my insurance went away I was in your shoes... except it bro and make the best of it drink a beer or something and .. except it

Fighting it will make it worse
 
Could possibly be a blessing in disguise? I know you don't wanna hear that shit right now. I have almost a year clean off heroin, went cold turkey and that shit wasn't a joke man! But, the good thing is, I MADE IT THROUGH and you can too! How are you feeling today? I imagine like death warmed over. Just keep in mind, that even though it feels like it, withdrawals can't kill you.....you WILL get through them in about a week. I know it really sucks, but PLEASE, use this a chance to get clean...are you ready? I didn't think I was. I went through almost the same as you...my guy just BOOM, gone! I decided, after searching to no avail, that I am going to quit DAMN IT!!! Hang in there! I KNOW you can do this <3 PM me if you wanna chat. Trust me, I KNOW what you are feeling, it sucks to kick heroin, but if I can do it, ANYONE can do it. My habit was big and bad to the fucking core man.....
 
Sorry guys but uhm I went out looking for the stuff... and finally found it. I know that it looks like I have a problem, but I dont think this is the case: I went from high dosage to nothing, that was the issue. When I'll quit or take a break, I'll do it gradually and prepared to; I am confident this way gonna be easier and more manageable...

(thx anyway to everyone for the support/advices) /thread
 
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