I'm not in the mood for writing a blog but I felt it could be important for recording how I am doing and it is also important for marking the start of my life.
Today I have made an appointment with my doctor for today to check up on my mental health as I have been very paranoid and anxious for as long as I remember but it became more intense, more apparent and influenced my behaviour since I started using drugs.
I think I may have schizophrenia as my behaviour and thoughts are very relate-able to symptoms I have read about and my friends have urged me that I can not see how far out there the things I say seem which are; according to the symptoms, delusions.
I also am going to have a check up on my heart rate and blood pressure because my heart feels strange at random points during the day sometimes beating heavily other times beating normally but with a strange feeling or pressure or slight pain which says to me I might have a problem such as a disease or a disorder with my heart, lungs or blood.
I will record in my next post the analysis and/or results and what will happen to me next.
Hopefully my ongoing blog will inspire people to get help early on and not pass off bad feelings as delusions as I have. I also hope it will inspire people to keep their lifestyle clean of drugs as I am only young and I can already see the dark void of lurking junkies in the darkness and situations of flickering eyes and anti-trust.
Today I have made an appointment with my doctor for today to check up on my mental health as I have been very paranoid and anxious for as long as I remember but it became more intense, more apparent and influenced my behaviour since I started using drugs.
I think I may have schizophrenia as my behaviour and thoughts are very relate-able to symptoms I have read about and my friends have urged me that I can not see how far out there the things I say seem which are; according to the symptoms, delusions.
I also am going to have a check up on my heart rate and blood pressure because my heart feels strange at random points during the day sometimes beating heavily other times beating normally but with a strange feeling or pressure or slight pain which says to me I might have a problem such as a disease or a disorder with my heart, lungs or blood.
I will record in my next post the analysis and/or results and what will happen to me next.
Hopefully my ongoing blog will inspire people to get help early on and not pass off bad feelings as delusions as I have. I also hope it will inspire people to keep their lifestyle clean of drugs as I am only young and I can already see the dark void of lurking junkies in the darkness and situations of flickering eyes and anti-trust.