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My nephew is dead(drug induced)

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LilikoiMoon

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I've always, always been proud of my nephew. At 18, he has maintained a 3.9 GPA, played sports, respectful ... Never done drugs, or alcohol that we were aware of, never been in trouble. He's been like my own child since he was born and even lived with me off and on because my sister has been in the military most of her adult life, and has moved around a lot. I love this boy so much. Z is her only child, which makes this horrific for her.

A rare kid in this generation, you know, or was until last night.

I watched him come into the world, now I'm watching him leave, sadly.
My sister called me at 4 am, screaming in the phone that "Z" had collapsed at a friends. Since they live 1 1/2 hrs away, I had to wait until daylight to leave because I can't see that well to drive in dark. When I finally arrived, the doctors had placed him on life support. A toxin type coma, and the prognosis isn't good.

"Z" took liquid methadone and a xanax, to which his football buddy gave him when "Z" complained of a headache last night. "Z" spent the weekend with a few friends and from what we were told, complained of a headache, so his friend gave him 2 methadone liquid telling him it was liquid tylenol and 1 xanax bar to sleep. Knowing Z, I find it so hard to believe he willingly took this drug combo knowing how much I've preached to him, you know and he had a lot of medication/food allergies, which made him picky. One of the friends said that the one who gave him the meds thought it would be funny to watch "Z" get high. (the boy who gave Z the meds stole the methadone from his 26 yr old brother on MMT and the xanax from his mother). Around 2am, "Z" wasn't responding, so after the three guys debated, one snuck downstairs, awoke the parents, and called 911. We don't know the full amount of liquid methadone Z took, but the tattling kid said it was about 2 shot glasses full. We will know more info once test come back in morning.

"Z" has been declared legally brain dead. Not only was there oxygen loss, the physicians say he was in anaphylaxic shock due to an allergic reaction to the methadone. There is zero brain activity, zero, he is on life support. We were told to say our goodbyes, and let him go.

I buried my son in 2002, my heart breaks for my sister. Apart from the legal aspect that will arise from this situation, I'm damn angry, and feel like "Z" made a stupid mistake, plus, what idiot kid gives another kid a deadly combo to see what he would look like high?!!! Then we find out 2 of the guys didn't want to call 911, or wake anyone to cover their asses because they were doing xanax bars that night.

My sister will remove life support Wed. , Z's organs will be donated. The end of a life that was just really begining.

Stay safe people, please don't mix methadone and xanax! I'm offline a while, I really can't cope right now. ?
 
I'm so sorry to hear this happened, very sad. My heart goes out to you and your family at this difficult time. <3
 
Im so sorry for your loss.

And idkk if this is the place so im not gonna debate taking random pills, all I know if that was my lil brother and someone gave him one of the DEADLIEST mixtures of drugs being METHADONE + XANAX and he didn't make it i would find the fucker who gave it to him and he would really need methadone when I was done with him.

RIP and once again my condolences im sure e wartime will remember him as the boy/man you described

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Im so sorry for your loss as well<3<3<3

Methadone and xanax have taken more people I have loved and known. Second only to alcohol.

Methadone and xanax kill people.. and if you don't die and get rolling on that combo when you detox at times you will at times wish you were dead.

I hope you find a degree of closure and peace surrounding this at some point. <3
 
nygiants1313 said:
Im so sorry for your loss.

And idkk if this is the place so im not gonna debate taking random pills, all I know if that was my lil brother and someone gave him one of the DEADLIEST mixtures of drugs being METHADONE + XANAX and he didn't make it i would find the fucker who gave it to him and he would really need methadone when I was done with him.

RIP and once again my condolences im sure e wartime will remember him as the boy/man you described

'<3
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The kid that gave it to him is going to suffer from this for the rest of his life. He will no doubt be charged with a crime, but beyond that he will live with the fact that he killed his good friend. No one else is going to have to make him suffer--he'll do enough of that on his own. There have been a few people that have come through these forums over the years that gave their friends or partners what turned out to be lethal doses--the hell they live with does not get better with time.

I am so sorry for everyone concerned.<3
 
herbavore said:
The kid that gave it to him is going to suffer from this for the rest of his life. He will no doubt be charged with a crime, but beyond that he will live with the fact that he killed his good friend. No one else is going to have to make him suffer--he'll do enough of that on his own. There have been a few people that have come through these forums over the years that gave their friends or partners what turned out to be lethal doses--the hell they live with does not get better with time.

I am so sorry for everyone concerned.<3
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^ this. that's the kind of thing that haunts you for the rest of your life.

i can't imagine the heartache of losing one child in the family, but laying to rest two.. im am so terribly sorry for your losses. <3
 
So sorry op this is absolutely horrible to think that he is very young and had so much to live for. Lots of love to you and your family.
 
Thank you all so much ? I am in the garden at the hospital having coffee, trying to check on my family/taking care of funeral stuff, etc. My sister refuses to leave Z's side. My heart just aches for her.
This will be my last post for a while.


The boy who gave Z the meds was arrested this morning. From what detectives told my sister, Z was not aware of what was given to him, which goes with the reports we received this morning .... There were no other drugs found in his system, not even alcohol. Z was stupid for not checking first but I don't blame him, who would have thought asking for headache meds that he would have been slipped a deadly combo?!
Methadone amount he took was around 1/4 - 1/2 of a measuring cup, but enough to kill an 18 yr old with zero tolerance. Z had an allergic reaction to the methadone within minutes his airway closed, he lost oxygen, his brain begAn to swell. The swelling in his throat was so severe they couldn't tube him for minutes, which caused more oxygen loss. He was DOA upon arrival, but somehow they managed to get some heart activity after more CPR, so that's why they coma him, to obtain test for legal issues and for organ donation, which Z was passionate about.

The boy who gave Z the meds crushed the xanax in the methadone liquid (the boys were snorting xanax and the one who gave Z the meds had been abusing the methadone for a week, or so). Z refused to snort, or participate in the drug taking, which is why it was "slipped" to him because he was being a boring when the others were getting high.

Sad situation ... My sister has been to war, endured a lot, but loosing her only child in such a stupid way, my heart aches for her.

We remove life support tomorrow. Please, stay safe, warn others about the methadone/xanax combo.
 
Much love out to your and your family. So heartbreaking. Take care of yourself and your sister.
 
I was given methadone back in HighSchool as well, and I almost od'd. I remember I stopped breathing and felt like I was dying.

How cruel to put crushed Xanax into the mix. They though it would be funny huh? How cruel.


Rest Easy Z.
 
These early days of shock are so raw, so real and surreal at the same time. My heart just breaks for all of you. I'm glad that you are able to be together to support each other.
 
I'm terribly sorry. I lost several acquaintances this year to drugs and one friend. The friend had been clean awhile, did too much on a whim and passed out while he was standing, only to fall and break hit neck. Another of my friends has gone off the deep end and I can't say I'm hopeful about his survival. Plus my cousin died of a freak accident where she got bite by a tick and her body shut down in a matter of hours. It's been a hard year. Bless their souls, idk why things go the way they go, idk why people introduce people to new drugs, all I know is if I am to move forward and be the man I need to be then I must slowly grieve and reach the point at which I accept the unacceptable untimely passings of friends and family. I'm still sick over the happenings of the past year, but I know I will soon reach acceptance as that is where my deceased friends and family would want me to be. My friends and cousin were not selfish and they would implore me to live and love and do for them what they can no longer do. It's important for us to go through the grieving process, and afterwards its important to consider what the deceased would wish for us, and after that we must contemplate the realism of pursuing those wishes. In sadness hope can be found. We do what we can, which is doing our best. It is not uncommon to feel that the world is unjust, because the world is unjust. Unjust or not the life of the deceased had meaning and value, for me I find it important to derive meaning for my own life from their meaning and value. Thus the best of the deceased lives on within us and helps guide us forward into the unknown. None of it is ever easy. The lives of those we lose are important, these people will live on forever through the influence they had on this world and its inhabitants while they were alive. I take with me the best of those I love and forgive the rest. We should never slander those who've passed, let the dead be, they did their time and knows no one has ever had an easy time. Bless there souls and let them find peace. I will derive hope from the love they gave me, after that I hope I make them proud.
 
ThePharmacist4925 said:
I'm terribly sorry. I lost several acquaintances this year to drugs and one friend. The friend had been clean awhile, did too much on a whim and passed out while he was standing, only to fall and break hit neck. Another of my friends has gone off the deep end and I can't say I'm hopeful about his survival. Plus my cousin died of a freak accident where she got bite by a tick and her body shut down in a matter of hours. It's been a hard year. Bless their souls, idk why things go the way they go, idk why people introduce people to new drugs, all I know is if I am to move forward and be the man I need to be then I must slowly grieve and reach the point at which I accept the unacceptable untimely passings of friends and family. I'm still sick over the happenings of the past year, but I know I will soon reach acceptance as that is where my deceased friends and family would want me to be. My friends and cousin were not selfish and they would implore me to live and love and do for them what they can no longer do. It's important for us to go through the grieving process, and afterwards its important to consider what the deceased would wish for us, and after that we must contemplate the realism of pursuing those wishes. In sadness hope can be found. We do what we can, which is doing our best. It is not uncommon to feel that the world is unjust, because the world is unjust. Unjust or not the life of the deceased had meaning and value, for me I find it important to derive meaning for my own life from their meaning and value. Thus the best of the deceased lives on within us and helps guide us forward into the unknown. None of it is ever easy. The lives of those we lose are important, these people will live on forever through the influence they had on this world and its inhabitants while they were alive. I take with me the best of those I love and forgive the rest. We should never slander those who've passed, let the dead be, they did their time and knows no one has ever had an easy time. Bless there souls and let them find peace. I will derive hope from the love they gave me, after that I hope I make them proud.
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That is a beautiful way to look at things. Grief throws you to the bottom of the ocean and it seems to me that the first stages are practically unconscious--your body just does the survival for you. Layer after layer you ascend back to the surface of your own life. Trying to skip any of the layers, no matter how painful, no matter how long they persist, will only hold you down where you will drown. I do believe that embodying, to the best of your ability, everything that you admired and loved about the person that is gone is the most meaningful way to honor them. Thanks for this, pharmacist.<3
 
I am so sorry for you and your family - this is a terrible, tragic and heartbreaking tragedy, especially since it was caused accidentally and unintentionally. Nobody should outlive their kids, but it happens all too often - always has. Your grief is palpable, and I'm not sure if this is the right place or time to feer you what little comfort I can, but I will, this is all the help I can offer. I assure you that Zach... is it... is still with you, has not ceased to exist, and will go on. Death is, I know (and unless I was absolutely, utterly sure of this, would never say it!) merely a change of state, not the end of existence of anything except the body. Please, please forget about 'vengeance', the silly friends who let him down only wanted to help, not kill him - and will suffer for their stupidity for the rest of their lives. Banging them up in prison will do nobody any good, cannot bring him back, and merely cause more uneccesary suffering, guilt and misery - of which there is already far, far too much in your lives, and in this World. I therefore send healiing as best I can to you all, as well as my love, sympathy and very best wishes XXXXX
 
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