My Love/Hate Relationship with Weed

[snazzy_sn]

I started smoking when I was thirteen and did so for about five years solid. I loved marijuana.
Then I started having problems in my life. With other drugs as well as in pretty much every other aspect of my life.
This is when I started with the "I don't smoke really, makes shit too real" thing. I loved weed but it tended to be more often than ought a negative experience. I've been going back and forth since then.
It's really a shame. I love weed. At this point I'm a pretty serious I.V. drug user. I'll do massive shots of meth and heroin but most of the time I'm to scared to smoke a bowl.
This is something I've noticed especially amongst meth users. Lots of 'em won't touch the stuff.
I'm living with a bunch of stoners, and I'm always making snide little remarks about "that shit being bad for you" and how "that stuffs crazy" but deep down I'm jealous. I feel left out. I feel like I'm missing out on one of life's great pleasures. I mean I have a marijuana leaf tattoo ffs.

I'm wondering if anything has experienced anything similar or has any advice on how I can start enjoying marijuana again.
It's really frustrating.
At this moment I'm watching a bunch of people playing halo and passing a blunt and I'm here in the corner coming down, and feeling left out.
So lame.

 

[Newbierock]

Try not mixing with powerful stimulants such as meth would be a good starting point

 

[snazzy_sn]

Yeah, it's an issue even without the meth though. In fact when I'm high I have no problem, but when I try and smoke coming down it's rather nightmarish.

 

[OTGee]

I feel like once you start using other drugs on a daily or more then should be regular basis you can lose your love for marijuana, you just need to remember how to enjoy it again and the best thing would be to abstain from all substances for a bit. If you are shotting H and Meth though that might not be an option, Weed is something I can only smoke when I am not anxious or anything and I find that using harder drugs especially stimulants makes me anxious even for days/weeks after. Try cutting some shit out and get back to the basics, playing halo and passing a blunt is a good time. Im 110% sure you will be enjoying that again, just try to stear clear of all this shit your pumping into your veins.

 

[laCster]

personally i love amphetamine with opiates and marijuana. if you want to smoke marijuana, you have to be in the mood for it. like you have to be in the mood for tripping, but if you go in with anxiety to a trip, your trip will turn out scary/shitty. same concept with weed, you have to have a good mindset and no worries going in or you will have a paranoid high. try smoking less weed, like maybe take half of a hit and see how it treats you...it's all in your head, ya know?

i find your comments to your friends to be funny because meth/heroin are 100 times more dangerous than weed, especially when using needles...

 

[jamesmartin]

I have never done meth but I know when I was doing copious amounts of dexedrine I would get pretty anxious without weed . I found I'd get irritable , racing thoughts etc ...
At this point in my life I couldn't smoke weed for the same reasons as you .
3 years on I haven't touched stims or any hard drugs and my weed high has improved alooot . My high is awesome now and I'm high for at least half of everyday after work lol ...


So what I'd reccomend to get that loveley feeling that weed used to give u woul be to quit or cut back considerably on uppers .

Opiates I'd reccomend quitting too . But not cuz that changes ur weed high . I'm just saying to quit opiates cuz of addiction

 

[Chainer]

This is a bit close to the bloggy side... A lot of this sounds like it's connected very, very heavily to other drug use and patterns/habits formed in the past from that. Cannabis is interesting in that most hard drugs will alter the weed high a good deal - when I was addicted to oxymorphone I barely found anything interesting in cannabis, for instance.

 

[iSTONED]

Same thing happened to me. I loved smoking weed. loved loved loved it. But then I developed a really bad 7 year long Benzodiazpamin and Opiate addiction. It was just awful, right when I started using harder drugs I began to no longer enjoy the Marijuana. Which SUCKED! Because I loved it. When ever I would smoke I would get paranoid and anxious. Even taking the first hit took me a little while to do because I was so paranoid. But let me tell you, getting clean from all the hard drugs(xanax and oxycontin for me) and time away from marijuana made a HUGE difference in my Smoke high. Now, I look forward to a wake n bake, I look forward to getting home and ripping a bong. I thought this would never happen to me again. I love weed again. Whit almost no negative side effects. Even if I do start to gee anxious or paranoid, I count to 5 in my head or out loud, for those 5 seconds let it take over you and then nothing, get rid of it, tell yourself it's just weed. Work for me. So I think when you cut out the harder drugs and spend some time clean as a whistle you will enjoy smoking a blunt and playing halo again. Good luck brother.

 

[lolfire]

If you've only started having problems with weed after turning to the scum drugs (meth, heroin, crack, etc) then I'd stop taking the scum drugs.
I don't like to criticize another's drug use, but come on man, injecting large amounts of heroin and meth then complaining about smoking weed is just backwords. Don't be a scumbag, drop the hard drugs and you'll feel a LOT better. Then you will probably be able to enjoy cannabis again...

 

[Jibult]

Benzodiazpamin

Sign me up for some of THAT!

Don't be a scumbag, drop the hard drugs and you'll feel a LOT better. Then you will probably be able to enjoy cannabis again...

Not all hard drug users are scumbags. Most of BL are habitual users of opiates and cocaine, just so you know (I found that out the hard way when I was in a "holier-than-thou" attitude a few years ago before most of our coolest Social posters moved over to NSADD)

I agree with that second part, though. It's ass-backwards, in my opinion... Truth be told, some people just don't have positive reactions to weed. It's a shame, but it is what it is. I don't understand people that repeatedly have negative reactions to a drug trying to use their way into a positive place. What's that old quote? Something like

The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results.