To my multiple addictions, past and present-
Coke- you fucked up my life. i left everything and everyone i loved because of you. you made me degrade myself by stripping for cash, all those men i let see my body, just for a few extra bucks to buy another bag. you brought me to my rock bottom, but i BEAT YOU!!! and no matter how bad the temptation gets, i'm not going to have anything to do with you ever again. I haven't seen you in over 2 years now, and I hope to not see you for the rest of my life!!!
Opiates- you snuck into my life so slyly, i didn't even realize it. All those doctors giving me meds for every little ache and pain... then you took over, and I made up more and more aches and pains to get you. Chasing after you has fucked up my health insurance, and god knows what you've done to my liver. At the end, you just made me feel like shit. And I thank you for that. You didn't give me the high I wanted anymore, and that made it so much easier to turn my back on you. I left you just over a month ago, and I have no regrets. You suck!
Adderall- You're the one that keeps sucking me in. I binge on you for weeks, then am left depressed, and so fucking tired. I don't know how many times I've been on the verge of a heart attack because of you. I HATE YOU!!! Over the next 3 months I'll have no access to you, and I hope I can become strong enough to say no to you when I return. I hate you I hate you I hate you! You make me hate myself because of the weaknesses you bring out in me. I've finally recovered from my last binge, and I hope to god that that was my LAST binge, period. I want nothing to do with you ever again. Get out of my life!!!!!
~ October
Coke- you fucked up my life. i left everything and everyone i loved because of you. you made me degrade myself by stripping for cash, all those men i let see my body, just for a few extra bucks to buy another bag. you brought me to my rock bottom, but i BEAT YOU!!! and no matter how bad the temptation gets, i'm not going to have anything to do with you ever again. I haven't seen you in over 2 years now, and I hope to not see you for the rest of my life!!!
Opiates- you snuck into my life so slyly, i didn't even realize it. All those doctors giving me meds for every little ache and pain... then you took over, and I made up more and more aches and pains to get you. Chasing after you has fucked up my health insurance, and god knows what you've done to my liver. At the end, you just made me feel like shit. And I thank you for that. You didn't give me the high I wanted anymore, and that made it so much easier to turn my back on you. I left you just over a month ago, and I have no regrets. You suck!
Adderall- You're the one that keeps sucking me in. I binge on you for weeks, then am left depressed, and so fucking tired. I don't know how many times I've been on the verge of a heart attack because of you. I HATE YOU!!! Over the next 3 months I'll have no access to you, and I hope I can become strong enough to say no to you when I return. I hate you I hate you I hate you! You make me hate myself because of the weaknesses you bring out in me. I've finally recovered from my last binge, and I hope to god that that was my LAST binge, period. I want nothing to do with you ever again. Get out of my life!!!!!
~ October
