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Dissociatives My ketamine Hell (and Heaven)

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From 2015 to 2018, I was psychologically addicted to ketamine which I personally found to be an excellent psychedelic, painkiller and antidepressant. I was up to 2 - 2.5 g a day, and I was sniffing in the toilets at work, while in a bar, etc. However, I got over-confident with it and had a few episodes where I either fell asleep, collapsed (through mixing it with alcohol) or turned verbally abusive and violent to my friends while on it, usually when mixed with cannabis or LSD.

Now, although being tall and well-built I'm the kind of man who wouldn't say boo to a goose, so violence has never been up my street, and this is the bit that troubles me). Each time, I was completely unaware of this behaviour, until I recovered and observed the scene (usually paramedics or police involved). You would think that after the first time, I would have been very careful in future, but as K makes you feel so good and forget *everything*, I did it a few more times...

Ultimately, I moved away from my home country and have been living in Vietnam since 2018.

Does anybody have reports of anyone similarly affected? Thanks
 
Alright I have not seen anyone be particularly violent, but I do have a friend that gets hyper sexual on K and barely remembers it. He's a good dude but it can be scary. I've heard some off putting things from his girl friends. I never put much stock into it until I saw him essentially start to masturbate in a totally unacceptable situation (i had to physically stop him on a few occasions).

He never remembers doing it.
 
Didgital said:
He never remembers doing it
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Has he offered any insight as to why he keeps going back to it? Behaviour like that will get him on a register eventually, or killed, and learning that i'd done something like that after the fact would terrify me.

It's also interesting as ketamine absolutely annihilates my sex drive, even more so once we start getting into amnesia territory.

It's never made me violent or irritable either, OP, but fwiw I seldom take it in social situations. I'm terrible conversation when I can't even remember what species I am.

Have you seen the 'ketamine melted by bladder' megathread pinned to the top of this forum? That might be worth a browse of you haven't already, if only because posting there is the quickest way to ping virtually every k user on BL.
 
Didgital said:
Alright I have not seen anyone be particularly violent, but I do have a friend that gets hyper sexual on K and barely remembers it. He's a good dude but it can be scary. I've heard some off putting things from his girl friends. I never put much stock into it until I saw him essentially start to masturbate in a totally unacceptable situation (i had to physically stop him on a few occasions).

He never remembers doing it.
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How bizarre. Sex is the very last thing I'm thinking of on k...luckily he has a friend like you to save him from the consequences
 
Didgital said:
Alright I have not seen anyone be particularly violent, but I do have a friend that gets hyper sexual on K and barely remembers it. He's a good dude but it can be scary. I've heard some off putting things from his girl friends. I never put much stock into it until I saw him essentially start to masturbate in a totally unacceptable situation (i had to physically stop him on a few occasions).

He never remembers doing it.
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Grof wrote about a similar man who was having a difficult LSD experience and went in total breakdown in which masturbation resolved it. It was revealed later that he had had some kind of trauma involving (cant remember) his parent and some thing bad happened and I guess that feeling was stuck inside, coming out sideways as adverse sexual behaviors.

Related.. kind of.
 
Its strange because this stuff is an erection killer (for me) but I find watching porn on it just fascinating,

I almost went out on my balcony naked on K, just convinced it would be ok. I tend to believe insane things on this drug, thank god i didn't i have 1000 neighbors who can see me and would call police, post it on internet, get me evicted etc. I don't get to the black out stage or use as much as OP, but I make bad decisions on this drug, I don't do it in public for that reason. I don't get sloppy drunk, and handle LSD in public like champ, K I don't trust myself. I'm not worried about me being violent as much It would be easy to get robbed or assaulted on it for sure. If my apartment building caught fire while on it I wonder if I would even get out.

Its almost like K wants to seduce you into some fucked up blackout death I was reading about a woman who lived in Washing state who injected huge dose and wandered into woods died of hypothermia. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Marcia_Moore
 
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