background: started doing roxi 30s when i was a senior in hs almost 4 years ago, that addiction lasted 8 months. then i was clean for a year and a half. then i relapsed and was blowing dope every day for 3 months then i was clean for 8 months. then i short relapse of no less than 2 weeks. then i was clean for nearly a year, and then i had surgery on my hand and was hospitalized for 2 full weeks (december 2014). i was taking norco and morphine every day, because i was in pain mainly and because, lets face it, they're fun. then i was prescribed some norco when i went home, finished that script in like 4-5 days. then i got a new script, finished it in about 2 weeks. then a few weeks later i said fuck it, and picked up some dope. i dabbled with it for a week. stopped for 5 days and said fuck it once again, and then i was on a 2-3 week binge doing anywhere from 1-3 bags a day.. which really isnt that bad (relatively).
a few days ago i said enough is enough. i am now 60 hours from my last dose and i feel pretty good.
+0 hours: i sniff a bag before work, my usual routine.
+24 hours: its starting now. im freezing but hot at the same time. worried, flushed face, anxious, no appetite. my legs feel weak and all i wanna do is lay in bed and watch tv. teary eyes
+31 hours: all of a sudden i got this weird burst of energy. though i did feel pretty weak, i still got up and went grocery shopping. felt kinda ok but still that general feeling of "fuck".
+35 hours: crazy chills, again im freezing but hot at the same time. was sleeping with the heat on and a radiator in my room on high, and i was all bundled up. anxiety. craving. eyes are tearing again. i feel unwell but i am able to fall asleep.
+48 hours: woke up and my legs feel weak. no appetite, bland mood. went to visit my brother. energy is still slow and legs feel still kinda weak.
+55 hours: feeling horrible. cold, chills, teary eyes, no energy no mood. craving. that lasted about an hour or two. drank some emergen-c ate some dinner and drank a few beers and it feels like the symptoms are gone.
+60 hours: this is usually the ending point of my withdrawals. first 2 days are always the hardest, but then they clear up as i approach the third day.
while i dont really much physical symptoms anymore right now, i still am craving a bit but i won't do it.
while i still don't feel 100%, just as i had expected, i am beginning to feel better as i approach the third day or the 72 hour mark. i feel depressed still and i was so sad for about 10 minutes i wanted to cry but then i listened to some music and i felt better. still am a little anxious, i just wanna go to bed and sleep. tomorrow will be better. was thinking about my life on the ride home this past hour.. past, present, future. it's been a fucking roller coaster ride for me. seeing a bunch of people on the train ride home this saturday night made me really feel like i wanna go out and have fun, feels like a new beginning for me right now.
i know this is nothing compared to what some people here go through, and i am glad for that lol, but this is just my experience. my past addictions never really got out of hand, i always limited myself with the amount that i did but i was still a heroin addict at a few points in my life and thats not something to be proud of. i'm almost 22 i think its time to grow up a bit, and i think i kicking opiates for good.
a few days ago i said enough is enough. i am now 60 hours from my last dose and i feel pretty good.
+0 hours: i sniff a bag before work, my usual routine.
+24 hours: its starting now. im freezing but hot at the same time. worried, flushed face, anxious, no appetite. my legs feel weak and all i wanna do is lay in bed and watch tv. teary eyes
+31 hours: all of a sudden i got this weird burst of energy. though i did feel pretty weak, i still got up and went grocery shopping. felt kinda ok but still that general feeling of "fuck".
+35 hours: crazy chills, again im freezing but hot at the same time. was sleeping with the heat on and a radiator in my room on high, and i was all bundled up. anxiety. craving. eyes are tearing again. i feel unwell but i am able to fall asleep.
+48 hours: woke up and my legs feel weak. no appetite, bland mood. went to visit my brother. energy is still slow and legs feel still kinda weak.
+55 hours: feeling horrible. cold, chills, teary eyes, no energy no mood. craving. that lasted about an hour or two. drank some emergen-c ate some dinner and drank a few beers and it feels like the symptoms are gone.
+60 hours: this is usually the ending point of my withdrawals. first 2 days are always the hardest, but then they clear up as i approach the third day.
while i dont really much physical symptoms anymore right now, i still am craving a bit but i won't do it.
while i still don't feel 100%, just as i had expected, i am beginning to feel better as i approach the third day or the 72 hour mark. i feel depressed still and i was so sad for about 10 minutes i wanted to cry but then i listened to some music and i felt better. still am a little anxious, i just wanna go to bed and sleep. tomorrow will be better. was thinking about my life on the ride home this past hour.. past, present, future. it's been a fucking roller coaster ride for me. seeing a bunch of people on the train ride home this saturday night made me really feel like i wanna go out and have fun, feels like a new beginning for me right now.
i know this is nothing compared to what some people here go through, and i am glad for that lol, but this is just my experience. my past addictions never really got out of hand, i always limited myself with the amount that i did but i was still a heroin addict at a few points in my life and thats not something to be proud of. i'm almost 22 i think its time to grow up a bit, and i think i kicking opiates for good.
