my head hurts.

[mashead testing]

im losing
but did i ever have
smiling faces seem so sad
looking out with nowhere now
coming up but feeling down
desperate measures dont suceed
last attempts burnt out with greed
cant see to type so well
after all the hype i fell
took a pop like my head
was stuck locked
no key to open
no lock for a key
dropped down another hurt
cold but not suprised
wasted my life
seemingly
nothing appeared so special
anymore, no longer wide eyed
no stronger
to want to die
joked, then choked at the thought
no more,
no love, no hate
seal my fate
an instant, one moment
nothing, should i, is it
no, yes, a fight with my soul
gave up