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My gambling addiction, the path to suicide!

Ban yourself as has already been suggested. Self imposed limit... For half a year or ideally more. I recently had a few hundred in my betfair account. A friend wanted me to bet on a footy match in play and he hadnt an account. So urgency was in his mind. The bet won... Instead of withdrawling it i tried to transfer it to the casino and the exchange games..when drunk and on benzos. To be reminded i had banned my use on any gambling bar the sports book side... And that is for matched betting. Actually a way to make money from betting which is more or less a sure thing.

Basically my long winded post is saying i would have fucked up the other day if not for my self imposed ban.

I have also banned myself from pokerstars. I had lost over 2k a few years ago from betting on sports and poker. Alprozolam powder was involved. Ban yourself. You will not regret it in the long term.
 
I dont really think people can comment on gambling addiction if theyve not commented on it themselves "shit happens, and "stop gambling" from some retards on these boards just shows it, im sure if some heroin addict had made a post youd all be here with you <3 symbols and sending them there best wishes on there way to recovery, BL is full of complete retards sometimes. Financial difficulty's is something that is on a gamblers mind 100% of the time, wanting to gamble and then the feeling of losing everything can be hard, I know of and there are many who take there own lives.

As suggested though ring up and get yourself a complete ban from all online casinos "they actually charge for this...", no casino is going to give you any help, and if your a good customer they are going to make it as difficult as possible to close your account..

When you spend all day every day gambling and needing to gamble thats addiction... and losing it all and realised youve spent a fuck load of money on absolutley nothing, its also greed in the long run always wanting more. You cant really ban yourself from the offline bookies etc but just try the online ones completley and get some proper advice from the ga. Think positive though they only way now is up if you dont lose any more money, once your back in the green keep it that way.
 
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If someone posted that H was fucking up their life my response would have been pretty much the same, in the end if you have an addiction the only way out is to stop doing / taking whatever it is. I guess there are exceptions, the only one that springs to mind is eating disorders, you have no choice but to eat something.

If you're doing H and it's making you unhappy and you don't like what its doing to your life then you do what you need to do to stop surely ?

With gambling I would have thought CT was the best option, but only the OP knows for sure, personally I think the idea of getting yourself banned is just a distraction, ultimately there will always be a way to gamble, just like you could wipe all the numbers off your phone, but in truth you know you could still score of you really wanted to.
 
Bare_Head - I'll kill you myself, unless you stop spelling 'to' as 'too'. ;) Your story does sound familiar to drug addiction. Just the little excuses, like a little bit more, or limiting yourself. You honestly need to just ban yourself, and cut yourself off from it all. I'd say get rid of the internet, if you have to - although that would effectively cut you off from support, like us. I hope you sort it out. Please, don't kill yourself, especially over this. Go out, take some pills, and dance the night away. I recommend this, every month or two, as a way to relieve stress. :) Just don't gamble on the comedown. ;) If you love making money, then why don't you try making some money through your own business? I did that, and my life is completey different. I still have my fun, but I now deserve it. This could be good, if you're worried about explaining things to a boss. I have bad anxiety, and other issues that prevent me from being able to hold down a job - especially for some cunt that doesn't even notice you. My best mate and others have gone down the self-employed route, also, and it's so much better. It takes hard work, but it seems like the large amount of time it takes out of your day will be a positive thing. There must be something you are good at. You'll kick this, because I kicked destructive drug taking, and I have the worst self control going.

You had your fun, and you know the house always wins. Stop feeding them your money, and build something to make the ladies admire you. :) Then, just get a bird that refuses to fuck, if you gamble. Ha. Good luck.
 
Saw a friend tilt away a $70k roll on FTP playing PLO, was sickening. He dealt with it pretty well, I think, stopped playing and finally got himself a job after being unemployed for 3 years. Best thing to do is get yourself out of the house, I found myself sat in front of monitor trying to grind back loses and most times I probably would have been happier. I remember once going on a 25 buyin downswing at 50nl and played for 35 hours without sleep to finally claw it back and end the "session" breakeven.

I play a hell of a lot less now myself and feel better for it, although would love to get into tourneys properly. Coaching??
 
Treacle said:
Bare_Head - I'll kill you myself, unless you stop spelling 'to' as 'too'. ;) Your story does sound familiar to drug addiction. Just the little excuses, like a little bit more, or limiting yourself. You honestly need to just ban yourself, and cut yourself off from it all. I'd say get rid of the internet, if you have to - although that would effectively cut you off from support, like us. I hope you sort it out. Please, don't kill yourself, especially over this. Go out, take some pills, and dance the night away. I recommend this, every month or two, as a way to relieve stress. :) Just don't gamble on the comedown. ;) If you love making money, then why don't you try making some money through your own business? I did that, and my life is completey different. I still have my fun, but I now deserve it. This could be good, if you're worried about explaining things to a boss. I have bad anxiety, and other issues that prevent me from being able to hold down a job - especially for some cunt that doesn't even notice you. My best mate and others have gone down the self-employed route, also, and it's so much better. It takes hard work, but it seems like the large amount of time it takes out of your day will be a positive thing. There must be something you are good at. You'll kick this, because I kicked destructive drug taking, and I have the worst self control going.

You had your fun, and you know the house always wins. Stop feeding them your money, and build something to make the ladies admire you. :) Then, just get a bird that refuses to fuck, if you gamble. Ha. Good luck.
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hahahha god treacle thanks for the heads up mate =) nice "to" =D see your still about!

i really have lost all sense of grammer and punctuality, i blame it on ipods and my typing which is super quick, i could become a secretary for sure the speed i type.

yeh i need a girl that only fucks if i dont gamble, that would definitely help me stop, though my sex life is non existant at the moment :/ aint had a girl for two years since i broke up with my love of my life!

everyone on this board i love so much, i can't really talk to my parents or my friends about it because they are emotionally attatched which means they dont say it how it is! but you guys are really good at putting things in perspective, im really sorry too hear about your loss b'n'w, that makes me think i could never do that to my best mates! what a fucking shame :(!

i am gonna set a plan in the morning, gonna keep away from poker i have excluded myself for a week, i know its not a long time but its a start. my mates all away in bulgaria at the moment but i fucked it off for my gambling addiction, plus there a casino at the hotel which wouldn't have helped :/

again im overwhlemed by all the positive responses guys! it means alot!
 
Crack4Lyfe said:
Saw a friend tilt away a $70k roll on FTP playing PLO, was sickening. He dealt with it pretty well, I think, stopped playing and finally got himself a job after being unemployed for 3 years. Best thing to do is get yourself out of the house, I found myself sat in front of monitor trying to grind back loses and most times I probably would have been happier. I remember once going on a 25 buyin downswing at 50nl and played for 35 hours without sleep to finally claw it back and end the "session" breakeven.

I play a hell of a lot less now myself and feel better for it, although would love to get into tourneys properly. Coaching??
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hi C4lyfe, god that must of been depressing for him. PLO is such a high varience game, its such a quick way too make money, but also lose it just as quickly :/

i would be happy too do some sweat sessions with you! i am going too start playing some micro tournies again, go back too my roots in a few weeks playing small buy in mtt's, give us a pm we can hook up on skype or the like :)? pm me sometime, as i said i have banned myself for a week so cant play now and dont have any other site i can deposit on, no point anyways, im a supernova on stars so wouldnt even bother with any other site anyways.

Ring games are a thing of the past, time too be an mtt donk once again, but first i need a break, i came 32nd in one of the low scoop events the other day, so tilting. 20,000 plus people! 67k too first ! AK never wins when i need it too !
 
mattnotrik said:
I dont really think people can comment on gambling addiction if theyve not commented on it themselves "shit happens, and "stop gambling" from some retards on these boards just shows it, im sure if some heroin addict had made a post youd all be here with you <3 symbols and sending them there best wishes on there way to recovery, BL is full of complete retards sometimes. Financial difficulty's is something that is on a gamblers mind 100% of the time, wanting to gamble and then the feeling of losing everything can be hard, I know of and there are many who take there own lives.

As suggested though ring up and get yourself a complete ban from all online casinos "they actually charge for this...", no casino is going to give you any help, and if your a good customer they are going to make it as difficult as possible to close your account..

When you spend all day every day gambling and needing to gamble thats addiction... and losing it all and realised youve spent a fuck load of money on absolutley nothing, its also greed in the long run always wanting more. You cant really ban yourself from the offline bookies etc but just try the online ones completley and get some proper advice from the ga. Think positive though they only way now is up if you dont lose any more money, once your back in the green keep it that way.
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thanks mattnotrik for your response :) im glad you understand that this addicition is worse than any sort of habit i have had ever, i mean i smoked cannabis constantly for years, i felt that was a real addiction! but this addiction far outweighs even my cannabis addiction :(
 
atm23 said:
I'm surprised you've managed to stay on top financially I've had quite allot of experience with casinos in the UK a little in the US but all through work not pleasure and whilst I am fascinated by Hold 'em I've never played for money, well once in the us and it was on the screens round the bar to get free drinks.

What I do know is that the house always wins, the casino chains I have dealt with are dripping with cash, and the online sites are getting bigger and richer by the day.

I agree this is just as much an addiction as taking a physical drug, you have behaviour patterns and kicks built round the whole thing, so you need to treat it in the same way as you would a drug addiction and CT, of course that sounds easier than it is in reality but from what you have said it sounds to me like the only way.

In my view any other course will not rid you of this habit, you are making all sorts of complex plans to carry on abusing just like many of us do to carry on with our chosen vice .

I'm not sure what advice to offer you on how you stop, it's down to you and you only in the end, you could do all that complex self banning but if you really wanted to I'm sure you would find a way or maybe even deliberately leave yourself a backdoor ...just in case.

I also suffer from depression and in general life is shit and work is almost always shit, but what your doing now is really messing you up and clearly not healthy for you, dig deep make a plan, set a date and stop, do it yourself, don't make it more complicated than it is. Like you indicated its an addiction, if it was H you were doing that dealer would only ever be a phone call away so you have to get your head round just not doing it anymore.

Best of luck<3
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thanks atm, by any chance do you love aMT? :D
 
Munroe said:
Most betting shops have a "sensible gambling policy", I'm pretty sure on most of the online bookies you can choose to delete your account forever or for a certain amount of time.

You could just set a limit on how much you can deposit each month and have someone close to you set the password for making deposits so you don't get tempted to lift it.

Also make a ceiling level to withdraw money, i.e every time you hit £300 withdraw £200 and play with the rest.
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good idea munroe :)
 
Crack4lyf - He needs to quit, and you suggest he coaches you? That's like asking a recovering heroin addict to help you shoot up.

Matt: Totally agree with what you said. Can't escape morons, no matter where you go.
 
Also another thing you should think of is the people that are getting rich from you gaining nothing. Do you really want some sleazy online casino boss who has profited from the financial downfall of many people, and probably who doesn't gamble, being able to buy a new Mercedes on your account?

Fuck them, they're making millions laughing at people, engage the rage. You shouldn't be paying for these predators new houses or snakeskin shoes (shameless stereotype). Good luck man
 
Addiction laughs in the face of logic. We should know this better than most.

Oddly enough the documentary I posted a link to found due to measuring brain activity that its the near misses that are addictive (if you are so disposed) rather than the wins. And its genetic, in that some people have it and others don't. The conclusion was its very real and very much an illness.
 
badandwicked said:
Addiction laughs in the face of logic. We should know this better than most.

Oddly enough the documentary I posted a link to found due to measuring brain activity that its the near misses that are addictive (if you are so disposed) rather than the wins. And its genetic, in that some people have it and others don't. The conclusion was its very real and very much an illness.
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that is so true.. when playing plo 100 (50-1$ blinds) when i win its like a nice feeling, but its those near misses that gets the blood pumping, the hot headed feeling when losing $1000 pots ! its like what we as gamblers live for, its really strange though, because i always thought gambling was for mugs, the odds are stacked against you.. i would put £1 accumlators on and wouldnt ever go abover a 5er bet in a bookies, always thought a 14/1 odd was just too slim odds for you too win...

just like poker i guess, though the aim of the game is to not as lose as much as you win (if you get what i mean) its all about bankroll management, playing within your limits, you play the game as a game and not as the money, this sounds like i am making excuses to excuse my addiction but i am not, its simply facts! in mtt's you want more on your return, so say you play 1000 tournaments, and spend like $4000, if you won like $20,000 then that is a good ROI (return on investment)

it sounds like i am waffling here, but its true, obviously the sick money makers take shots and get lucky at the right times, me though i wouldnt ever do that, but after taking a cupious amount of mxe and ethylphendidate, i sat there one morning with my 10k roll and blasted half of it in one night! then next day felt a bit shitty, but felt compelled too win it back, and yes i played the same games that i was losing at!

i have excluded for a week and i am itching too play right now !!! i cant even sleep so i am sat ther railing high rollers, what a sad act i am!

i am going too make a plan this week to get my life back on track, and your right guys, taking your life isn't worth it one bit, but waking up at 8pm with no br and i couldnt even deposit when i woke up cause i have like £50 in there and my 2k is in an instant access isa account at a building society :/

I really am overwhelmed by the responses! though most these posts are probably from me =D

i cant give up the game i love (mtt's that is) but cash you can stick your arse where the sun dont shine !

lets hope i get back to becoming a br nit ! this week exclusion is going too kill me, i might go play some live on friday , its only £20 in, so not exactly a bank buster, its strange because after running hot as hell in january in mtt's and winning almost 14k in one month i disrespected money ! i was such a tight twat too ! that is why i had such a net worth especially considering i didnt work for a living !

i hope i do resolve this guys, not just for my sake, but for my family and friends sakes. i am such a bubbly upbeat character when i wasn't in this rutt ! i will fight this guys, and most of these comments have made me feel so much better !

peace out, and wish all you's luck in life
 
So you spunked away all that $80,000 you made? Fucking hell I'm still distraught that I gambled away a grand over 2 nights (in the time when I was making a living from online gambling) and that was several years ago.

You'll have to stop playing all poker, saying you'll just play tournaments and not cash games etc won't help. Ban yourself from all the sites.

Why would you want to kill yourself? It's not like you've sold the house, the car, all your possessions etc (or have you?) to get money from poker you just spent your profit. It doesn't seem like you've lost anything apart from maybe a lot of hours of your life sat in front of a computer screen and you're still $2k up? Fuck I'd be happy with $2k right now. Withdraw that money, ban yourself from all poker sites, enjoy that $2k you can go out get smashed on booze, cocaine, get hookers and hit the casino.....oh no wait. ;)
 
I like a bet, too. But, when I try something at which I'm not too good, like football betting, I stop when it becomes obvious I'm losing money. I think this is what distinguishes me from a gambling addict. The few people I've met and would consider in that category do not, I've noticed, really give a monkey's for the cash. For them, it serves only as a stake. When poker superstar Stu Unger won the $1 million world tournament and was asked what he'd do with his prize, he replied " Dunno, lose it, I guess."

Sounds like you also find your buzz from the thrill of the game. Some gamblers are desperate to win, others deep down look to lose - which are you? Maybe try to identify the precise attraction and see if you can find it in other ways. Drugs are an obvious alternative. Find a partner willing to experiment and see if offbeat sexual practices hit the spot for you. If you like being the 'best' and the feeling of being alive, look around for other areas of endeavour that provide the same results. Beyond that, I can't be of much help. Although my own days of risking more than I could afford to lose are behind me, I still get a much bigger kick from a £100 win than I do if I made ten times the amount from work or a stroke of business genius and can't quite figure out why.

Good luck. Finding a branch of GA and hearing the stories of fellow sufferers might help. I hope so.
 
Bare_head said:
And I will find it hard too get a job that I wud enjoy because I wud have too try explainign too my future employers how I suffer depression and have been sacked from my last two jobs :( Orghhhh fuck this shit !!!!
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Mate, I would guess that most of us don't have jobs that we enjoy.
I've worked for the last 25years and I think I only enjoyed working one of my jobs that lasted 3 years.
The other 22 years I just grinned & bared it because it gave me the cash I needed.
 
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