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My friend committed suicide over drugs

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drdmike

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I used to joke that he was the 'golden boy.' He was tall, goodlooking, sensitive, intelligent, funny and a very good guy. He got into drugs after college and it became a struggle. He tried many different ways to help him- being physically activity, work, mediation, etc. He realized that he'd never be able to separate himself from drugs and would continue to hurt his family so he killed himself.
 
That's sad to hear, I'm sorry this happened. Have you spoken with any family members? How are they handling it?
 
I'm so sorry, it's devastating when something like this happens. Sharing good memories helps, whether it be with mutual friends, his family, or even strangers like us. We're here for you. <3
 
I'm sorry for your loss. I've lost family members and relatives but I've never lost a personal friend. Closest that has happened is a friend of a friend who I chilled with once or twice ended up jumping in front of the local train a few nights after I chilled with him. I can only imagine how you're feeling right now. I know when my mother passed away, I couldn't feel anything. I was expecting to feel absolutely miserable but I recall not being able to cry or have any emotion whatsoever. It almost felt wrong, like 'I must be a shitty person cause I'm not crying over my own mothers death' or something like that.

Hang in there though. Time heals everything. Stay occupied and keep your thoughts focused on positive goals and future experiences.
 
I'm so sorry to hear OP about your friend. It must be very devastating specially if you did your best to help him out. I can't imagine the pain of losing someone over suicide and also to his family but op I give you credits for being such a good friend. I'm pretty sure that he will never forget someone like you who was there for him when he was alive. Sending you some love♡♡♡
 
So sorry for you loss<3 When I look back at the long list of people in my life I have lost to drugs (I have never herd a more true statement then "alcohol is a drug.. duhh") I am struck with how many times I heard people say along the lines of "he was the 'golden boy.' He was tall, goodlooking, sensitive, intelligent, funny and a very good guy." There is a truth here that flies far beyond the tendency for people to only choose to see the good in a person when they have passed. Maybe it that people regarded as such are able to see the and feel the faults and shortcomings in the life we all create.. maybe they have had a glimmer of how it could and should be..

But all I really know is the descion I made and with no judgment on this fine mans descion, I'm hanging tough.. come hell or high water.. I'm in for the long haul and they are going to have to rip me outta here kicking and screaming... Millions of us suffer from this and without placing any judgment at all on this wonderful persons descion.. I'm here to stay and as i deal with mountains or absolute lunacy coming from people who have no troubles with drug addiction, some how I dont have a tinge of guilt. Also, im done with bearing the bearing the burden of so many things that aren't mine to carry.
 
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