hehe thank you guys, I never posted back got lazy, but everything turned out fine I'm okay.
So I met up with some friends that day, I've only hung out with them twice, good group of people but didn't know them well, we picked up the shrooms I got 2gms and we went to the park, made a couple stops on the way, I took my shrooms when we were getting close to the park, the guy ben that was with us was sober and the babysitter. When we got to the park it was starting to get dark, I could already feel the effects of the shrooms I was on a completely empty stomach, took about 20 mins to start feeling the effects. I was in a bad state of mind at first because all I could thing about was the one time I did acid and had the bad trip and walked overtown miami naked, but the people I was with told me im fine and this is not like the last time and im with good people which made it great.
First thing after we get there we are all thirsty and tripping, ben says were going to get water but it's going to be a fun adventure which it was, we got the water, one guy I was with took dmt and was doing pretty bad, but I tried my best not to pay attention to the 2 people tripping bad because it was spilling over to me. after water, ben takes us to this really dark place in the park, I mean pitch black and surrounded by trees, everyones like "ben what kind of fucking tour guide are you lol!" I was really scared but ben came up to me and said something along the lines of " you have to be able to walk thru the darkness before you can get to the light" and I eased up and believed in him, and he said something about it's amazing being in complete darkness, so it was cool after that i felt like I could deal with anything the night brought.
After the park we all went back to bens house, extra people came that he invited which made me feel uncomfortable, I had a lot of ups and downs that night was better then the bad acid trip, shrooms almost took me to the same place as acid but more gentle I think, I mean it doesn't help that my first time doing acid was at a race on 5 rolls and 2 hits of cid. On acid I was losing touch with reality a bit which wasn't good and decided I'm not going to do that anymore, shrooms almost took me there also, I remeber some guy saying psychedelics aren't for everyone so they maybe not for me, I plan on staying away from them.
Anyway bens house was cool, music was cool, but it really seemed to much for me, I think I would have done better with out the crazy music, I mean I love techno stuff, but then he put on ICP which freaked me the fuck out, then Ben starts showing this girl his dvd collection and when I look at what he's showing her he shows her fucking rape porn, which freaked me out and made me question ben, like bloody rape porn crazy shit. the dudes that came to the house were on DMT, after bens house I went home overall it was a up and down kind of night, to many people came after, and I didn't really have a good connection with these people so considering the circumstances it went well.
On acid the time felt like forever, and I didn't know shrooms did the same thing, I kept looking at the clock and it said 10:30pm I'd look away for what felt like 30 mins look back and it's only 10:31pm I was like holy fuck! but yea staying away from psychedelics, I will probably roll once in a while, but I guess I have real shit buried in my head that becomes undone when tripping
addition: When at bens house his brother pulled up in a car, we didn't know it was him then blue and red lights start going off everyone freaked but his brother has some lights in his car and was laughing, I didn't enjoy that, and 1 guy was fucking with me a couple of times which I didn't like some dude would come up to me and be like hey man "your car is in park, and rolling down the street" he did that like three times which fucked with my head and I didn't like that, and he would make random sounds, and he was fucking with some girl too not cool. bens porn stash of rape wasn't cool either, I just stayed to myself at bens house and everyone kept asking if I was ok I said yea, but I couple of times I lied and was just afraid to ask for help. guess that's why it's better to be with people your comfortable with.
