Doctor__Anonymous
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Dec 14, 2006
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Background:
Well, about 2 years back, I tried something that was being called "sassafras", which was just powder that you parachuted, but that could of been any md-x to my knowledge, so I don't count that. Also because this wasn't powder, it was a pill, and since it was a roll, I am also not positive it wasn't another md-x, but for the sake of time, we'll say mdma.
Monday, March 26th:
This was my first day back to school since I had been out for a week and 1 day for numerous things including the birth of my sister's child, myself getting sick a day, and not having a ride back to home from the beach. My sister and I decided to go to my friend E's house to show his mother the baby this day. When I went to talk to him, I found out he had just acquired a bag of 7 ecstasy tablets that someone lost over at his friend's house. They were being called "cowabungas", they were small red pills with a hand with only the pinky and thumb sticking out . He told me he would sell me some for cheaper than everyone else he was selling to, $10 a piece. I bought one, and he gave me some info first. He told me that not only were these the best rolls anyone in our town had had in a while, but a lot of his friends that had been doing 'em, were "beaming" it, which is plugging. I had just a while back discovered bluelight, and discovered jamshyd, and learned that it is supposedly one of the best ways to do rolls, and lots of other drugs, considering there's tons of vains that absorb it. So I save the pill for Tuesday, because by this point it is late, and I need sleep for school.
Tuesday, March 27th:
So, at about 4:00 pm, I decided I would do it, as I was thinking "this pill is really small, and shit is huge, but this pill is really small" you get the idea. So I went through with the very quick process, that left me with no pain, and it was mostly unnoticable, and became completely unnoticable within 30 to 45 minutes. The slight funny and happy effects came on at about 50 to 60 minutes after consumption. And from there the complete effects started taking hold completely over the next 10 minutes: like one second I was in the bathroom checking my pupils that were regular size, and I go smoke a bowl for about 10 minutes, go back to the bathroom, and my pupil size had doubled. Starting then, I just talked on the phone with a friend for a few minutes, watched some tv, then I figured, since my mom's the only one here, and she's asleep, I'll clean the house. Not because I was "jacked up" or anything, I just did it out of kindness, not to mention it was really easy considering how happy I was, and how happy I felt that I was doing this for my mom. So I did that for about 20 to 30 minutes, and then woke my mom up. Me-"mom, wake up, I got a surprise for you. it's the best surprise I could give you." Her-"what'd you do, clean the house?" Me- "No, something better." Her- "There's nothing better than that". A few minutes later she was in complete shock, and I was so fucking happy by this point. It was this amazing feeling that is difficult to explain without using the words "amazing" and "happy". After that, I just smoked lots of marijuana (I took the most massive hits that I've ever taken out of my bowl, and I didn't even cough. Fuckin awesome!), talked to my mom about her issues, and watched tv all at the same time. When I changed the tv to a bunch of music I had tivo'd, things got even better. Music is exactly how everyone has told me it is on ecstasy. It feels like pure emotion, just this blissful expression through either catchy tunes, or sad tunes, it was just great. Not long after all of these things, about 15 to 30 minutes, I went to sleep, as it was 12:00 and I needed sleep for school.
Thursday, March 29th:
This day at school, I talked to my friend E, and decided to buy one more pill. When school let out, and I got home, I found that my sister and her baby were staying a night, and this had me extremely happy, especially since I was going to be rolling too. So about 30 to 45 minutes after I got home, at about 3:30 pm, my friend E came over to give me the roll and hang out for a while. So we chill and play xbox live, and at about 3:45 I plug the tab. Once again it was very unnoticable for the most part. I relax and constantly am switching from hanging out with my sister and her baby in the living room, and my friend E in my room. The crazy thing about this roll was, it kicked in a lot faster this time then it did on Tuesday. It was about 4:20 to 4:40 when my eyes started moving slower, my skin feeling soft, and my lips forming a smile even when sitting motionless totally unoccupied. I play some music I recorded, a show called Subterranean that plays Indie music. I listen to a few songs. WOW. WOW. WOW!!!!!! It felt like I was dissecting the music and absorbing every single note, every single noise in the music, and turning it into pure bliss. It felt like it manipulated my emotions. Fast, electronic sounding songs, make me a little amped up, ok, very amped up. Not dancing, but definately getting deep into the song. Between 5:00 and 5:20 I begin to reach a plateau, a plateau of incredible happiness, raw emotion, caring feelings, selflessness, giggling. I completely feel as happy as a small child at this point. The highlight of the entire roll was when I was feeling full effects, and I looked at my sister's baby, and just felt all of the life, all the happiness, all the light, radiating off of him, and at this point, I felt like I was in heaven. For the rest of the day, up until 10:00 pm, I continue to hang out with my sister and her baby, and just watch tv, listen to tons of music, smoke reefer, etc.
My Conclusion:
I find this to be an amazing, helpful tool, just like they said when it was prescribed, just like all my friends said, and just like all experiences I read said. Now I see how people could become dependent on it. That's why I took into account all of the positive things it brought me, and the profundity of it all, and cherished it, as opposed to making my first thoughts "Damn, I can't wait to do this again!". Although I did do it twice in one week, I actually don't plan on buying anymore until next month. If you do these things, I can see this an almost if not equally as helpful as lsd, psilocybin, mescaline, dmt, etc, and you can keep from dependence and depression this way, imo. This drug is most definately a wonderful tool, considering I have become more caring and more willing to better myself since I've done it. Lately, I've been more interested in getting a job, get a haircut (haha), I've been talking to more people at school, especially chicks, which is mostly new for me. If I continue to use this in moderation and cherish what it brings me, I can see it being one of the many psychoactive substances that help me shape my personality, examine my thoughts, and overall expand my consciousness.
Well, about 2 years back, I tried something that was being called "sassafras", which was just powder that you parachuted, but that could of been any md-x to my knowledge, so I don't count that. Also because this wasn't powder, it was a pill, and since it was a roll, I am also not positive it wasn't another md-x, but for the sake of time, we'll say mdma.
Monday, March 26th:
This was my first day back to school since I had been out for a week and 1 day for numerous things including the birth of my sister's child, myself getting sick a day, and not having a ride back to home from the beach. My sister and I decided to go to my friend E's house to show his mother the baby this day. When I went to talk to him, I found out he had just acquired a bag of 7 ecstasy tablets that someone lost over at his friend's house. They were being called "cowabungas", they were small red pills with a hand with only the pinky and thumb sticking out . He told me he would sell me some for cheaper than everyone else he was selling to, $10 a piece. I bought one, and he gave me some info first. He told me that not only were these the best rolls anyone in our town had had in a while, but a lot of his friends that had been doing 'em, were "beaming" it, which is plugging. I had just a while back discovered bluelight, and discovered jamshyd, and learned that it is supposedly one of the best ways to do rolls, and lots of other drugs, considering there's tons of vains that absorb it. So I save the pill for Tuesday, because by this point it is late, and I need sleep for school.
Tuesday, March 27th:
So, at about 4:00 pm, I decided I would do it, as I was thinking "this pill is really small, and shit is huge, but this pill is really small" you get the idea. So I went through with the very quick process, that left me with no pain, and it was mostly unnoticable, and became completely unnoticable within 30 to 45 minutes. The slight funny and happy effects came on at about 50 to 60 minutes after consumption. And from there the complete effects started taking hold completely over the next 10 minutes: like one second I was in the bathroom checking my pupils that were regular size, and I go smoke a bowl for about 10 minutes, go back to the bathroom, and my pupil size had doubled. Starting then, I just talked on the phone with a friend for a few minutes, watched some tv, then I figured, since my mom's the only one here, and she's asleep, I'll clean the house. Not because I was "jacked up" or anything, I just did it out of kindness, not to mention it was really easy considering how happy I was, and how happy I felt that I was doing this for my mom. So I did that for about 20 to 30 minutes, and then woke my mom up. Me-"mom, wake up, I got a surprise for you. it's the best surprise I could give you." Her-"what'd you do, clean the house?" Me- "No, something better." Her- "There's nothing better than that". A few minutes later she was in complete shock, and I was so fucking happy by this point. It was this amazing feeling that is difficult to explain without using the words "amazing" and "happy". After that, I just smoked lots of marijuana (I took the most massive hits that I've ever taken out of my bowl, and I didn't even cough. Fuckin awesome!), talked to my mom about her issues, and watched tv all at the same time. When I changed the tv to a bunch of music I had tivo'd, things got even better. Music is exactly how everyone has told me it is on ecstasy. It feels like pure emotion, just this blissful expression through either catchy tunes, or sad tunes, it was just great. Not long after all of these things, about 15 to 30 minutes, I went to sleep, as it was 12:00 and I needed sleep for school.
Thursday, March 29th:
This day at school, I talked to my friend E, and decided to buy one more pill. When school let out, and I got home, I found that my sister and her baby were staying a night, and this had me extremely happy, especially since I was going to be rolling too. So about 30 to 45 minutes after I got home, at about 3:30 pm, my friend E came over to give me the roll and hang out for a while. So we chill and play xbox live, and at about 3:45 I plug the tab. Once again it was very unnoticable for the most part. I relax and constantly am switching from hanging out with my sister and her baby in the living room, and my friend E in my room. The crazy thing about this roll was, it kicked in a lot faster this time then it did on Tuesday. It was about 4:20 to 4:40 when my eyes started moving slower, my skin feeling soft, and my lips forming a smile even when sitting motionless totally unoccupied. I play some music I recorded, a show called Subterranean that plays Indie music. I listen to a few songs. WOW. WOW. WOW!!!!!! It felt like I was dissecting the music and absorbing every single note, every single noise in the music, and turning it into pure bliss. It felt like it manipulated my emotions. Fast, electronic sounding songs, make me a little amped up, ok, very amped up. Not dancing, but definately getting deep into the song. Between 5:00 and 5:20 I begin to reach a plateau, a plateau of incredible happiness, raw emotion, caring feelings, selflessness, giggling. I completely feel as happy as a small child at this point. The highlight of the entire roll was when I was feeling full effects, and I looked at my sister's baby, and just felt all of the life, all the happiness, all the light, radiating off of him, and at this point, I felt like I was in heaven. For the rest of the day, up until 10:00 pm, I continue to hang out with my sister and her baby, and just watch tv, listen to tons of music, smoke reefer, etc.
My Conclusion:
I find this to be an amazing, helpful tool, just like they said when it was prescribed, just like all my friends said, and just like all experiences I read said. Now I see how people could become dependent on it. That's why I took into account all of the positive things it brought me, and the profundity of it all, and cherished it, as opposed to making my first thoughts "Damn, I can't wait to do this again!". Although I did do it twice in one week, I actually don't plan on buying anymore until next month. If you do these things, I can see this an almost if not equally as helpful as lsd, psilocybin, mescaline, dmt, etc, and you can keep from dependence and depression this way, imo. This drug is most definately a wonderful tool, considering I have become more caring and more willing to better myself since I've done it. Lately, I've been more interested in getting a job, get a haircut (haha), I've been talking to more people at school, especially chicks, which is mostly new for me. If I continue to use this in moderation and cherish what it brings me, I can see it being one of the many psychoactive substances that help me shape my personality, examine my thoughts, and overall expand my consciousness.
