My drama....issues.....etc

well to start from the begining.

When I was 19-22 i had 40Gs, i met a man, he stole my money, we had a kid...a daughter....he "stole" not reallt stole I gave him temporary permission to take her....and he left me homeless in a women;s shelter. The "father" said once i got stable in a home and funds that he would return her..... he hasn;t. He has been working, dropping her off at his alcoholic mother's house for her to babysit. The he lost that job, and even though he barely works, he drops her off at this woman;s house each day while he goes to get pussy, sleep, or be on the internet all day. Then goes to work all day. This alcoholic grandma has been buying her clothes, food while in care....etc. Also while he was dating (not sure if they are still together or not, different people say different things) this girlfriend is the other one buying her things that she needs. Her "father" has paid not one cent in rent or food or anything for anyone but himself, though he does have a job. His car is such in debt from not being paid, it can be repo'd at anytime. He drives like a madman with a little baby in the back and lets my 9yr old who is barely 80Lbs sit in the front seat.
Now today out of the blue.... we weren;t even talking about any of this my littlr 4yr old.... MY child from another man who i live with..... he comes up to me and said "mommy, can I tell you a secret?" and i said "sure baby, anything" and he says "Amanda told me a secret that her daddy beats her" and i said "where did she tell you in the house?" he showed me MY room. Then i asked "did she tell you where she gets beat?" and he showed me the places.
I know 4yr olds can lie or exagerate or whatnot....this was at 4pm.....we kept on asking (with his father as a witness) every half hour at first and it kept on being consistant. Then at 6pm i wait 1hr and asked again....same thing....still consistant (the same "secret")...I asked again before bed at 8pm....again the same. If a 4yr old were to lie, fib or think saying something like that would help get his sister back......an error or lie would pop up somewhere. We are going to ask in the morning again to make sure.
I made a call to his therapist as she's been involved in knowing all this and asked her to call me back in the morning to give me her honest opinion on what i should do. Get my son assessed to make sure its not a lie or call CAS and the cops....or call my family lawyer or what come the morning.
Now I am all wound up all night....I dount i can sleep.
there are 2 people (one or the other or both ) that i wish was here Vanessa by bestfriend of 20yrs....or my bestfriend and bru.....well he knows who he is.....
I am in tears, I am so lost and my chest hurts, I am worried about a severe panic attack that will land me in the ER or worse heart issues (it runs in the family). My chest hurts, my soul hurts, my heart hurts..... i just wish so many things right now..... :(
 
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